have a nice day :)
No where else I can say this.
I've never wanted children until I got with you, I wanted a family and to actually live my life.
We did it, we actually conceived a child.
I guess god never really wants me to be happy.
He took it.
Before I could pick a name or figure out if I should get pink or blue.
Before I could even hear a fucking heartbeat.
Before I even got to picture what it would look like.
Before we got to hold he or she in our arms and say we did it, we made a family. We did this.
I guess God never really wants me to be happy.
"all good things come to an end but until that happens I'm going to enjoy every minute with you."
I need to find some way to release this pain in my chest.
I want to hurt
I want myself to hurt
Why I'm awake is no mystery.
You fucking created so much history, then took it away. Who fucking does that, I don't understand why I'm not enough for you. You made me feel like super glue, getting so fucking attached to you. Ripping yourself away like it meant nothing at all but that's not how I feel when you call. You speak to me like you always have, you use the same voice you did when you told me you loved me. I care so much about you it literally hurts me, the pain in my chest makes it all feel worthless.
It's been years and years and you gave me what I wanted for only a short time was it all worth it? I mean obviously it was to me, but to you? I feel like it was. I can feel the fucking love, when you play with my hair and pet my face, give me kisses in the morning to hugging my waist. You made me feel wanted for the first time in my life i can't explain how much I appreciate you.
I'm so confused please tell me something, I'm stressing about this I feel haunted. Give me a little help. I love damnit, you can tell right?.
