Me: My mental illness has removed my appetite. Please help.
Meds: Pfft, who needs an appetite. You know what else we don’t need? Sleep!
Me: Wait, what? No! This is not what we agreed on!
Falling out of love taught me eight things-
1. It is surprisingly easy to stop loving someone, no matter how magnificent you once felt together.
2. There will come a time when you have to decide whether or not you can fix whatever went wrong; that decision will haunt you, no matter which way you go.
3. Even if you are no longer in love with someone, you can still care about them and watching them crumble because of you is still something terrible to witness.
4. There will be times when you doubt your feelings (do not tell them unless you are certain- it will only hurt you both).
5. People will ask you what happened and there is no easy way of explaining that you just could not be in love with them anymore.
6. Hearing about them dating someone else is still weird if only because of a leftover imprint of your name beside their’s.
7. You now understand what it feels like to fall out of love and that is something utterly terrifying when contemplated for too long.
8. It will surprise you how long it will take for you to love someone after this; the fear of them leaving you never really resides.
- K.S.
Why do I keep thinking of you? In my head I’ve moved on but in my heart you’re still here
when healing from a person.. you will have thoughts like “I loved them more than I loved anyone, I never knew I could love someone so much, I’ll never love someone that much again..”
It is important to realize that your ability to love that person didn’t come from them, it came from within you. You were always a lover, already someone who could love deeply. Just because they are gone doesn’t mean that goes away. They didn’t give you the capacity to love, they just gave you a place to express it. Don’t give someone else the credit for how hard you could love, that was you and it still is.
Simply posting a black screen on social media isn’t enough. Participating in the blackout DOES NOT mean staying silent. Post about black history and amplify the work and messages of the black community. We must continue to protest, raise our voices, raise awareness, sign petitions, make donations, and educate ourselves. We need to do better. We need to fight.
becausebirds
There is an imposter in our midst.
Late night thoughts
26.01.2020
"It all starts with not wanting to get out of bed, that's how you know you're getting bad again"
