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julia

@neutralfleur / neutralfleur.tumblr.com

insta: neutral.fleur
pisces | 1999 | she/her | fluid
Anonymous asked:

How do you love to feel such pain at the lack of reciprocation?

i really try to hold a neutral space for the ones i love without shame or judgment. i am not god but i can hear you out, i can validate your experience, i can allow you to be as you are without any fear. i can let you grow and change and become all the people you were meant to be and i’ll help you do it. i think that’s the best thing you can do for someone, let them be themselves and celebrated for it.

hello my love, i am curious to know how you balance the act of consuming vs the act of creating. i find myself scrolling through the retro camera app for hours on end instead of living out my artistic desires. i feel inspired by a lot of things and i want to create and i am always thinking to myself to try this and that! but still i rarely do so. i have a feeling that you're so balanced with consuming (social) media and creating beautiful, authentic stuff. could you elaborate how consuming isn't staining your character but more so enhancing it? this is a big struggle of mine now for years and your opinion would mean a lot to me since i've been following you for a very long time and always thought of you as a role model. wish you all the best, i am so happy that you found some peace in beautiful france. and i can't wait what you will give us in the future

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this has so much sweetness in it thank you angel!hope it’s alright i took some time to respond but here are some thoughts;

truly i had so much time as a 14 year old girl to post all day on tumblr and instagram, i did until i graduated high school. since working and traveling it’s been insanely tough for me to exist online like i did before and even more difficult to make things i feel are true to myself and valuable.

i’ve been learning that having boundaries with everything is kinda the key to feeling the most aligned creatively. if i notice feelings of jealousy online i’ll unfollow or get off the app for the rest of the day. i have designated times during the week where i know i’ll have to create and i’ll set up a little plan weekly and monthly for myself. if i don’t have these structures for myself i literally will not make anything and fall back into over consuming online.

i would just start with small frequent goals and a few larger lengthy goals overall and small steps to setting up a routine. anything is better than nothing! the more you engage with the practice the easier it’ll be to set a pattern! :-)

i think also having support and encouragement from peers and personal inspiration is a huge thing just for any artist to be consistently creative!! finding community to share and celebrate work is one of my favorite parts of creating. i wouldn’t be too hard on yourself regardless of what you’re doing or not doing, there are ebbs and flows, it will happen when it’s meant to! that kind of thing <3

i hope this helps

sending u soo much love and support, x

sometimes i forget the point and then something happens like the sun comes out when it’s raining or i see a bunny on a walk around the neighborhood and it’s like oh yeah …. life is a bunch of surprises waiting for me to find and enjoy and share with those i love like … that’s the point