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Celebrating Atypical Minds

@neurodiversitysci / neurodiversitysci.tumblr.com

I am a late-diagnosed twice-exceptional person interested in what talent and disability are, and what happens when they coexist. I talk about science and disability from a personal perspective. Because stories change lives, I find language to describe and explain neurodivergent people's experiences, leading them to say, "There are words for this?" and "I'm not the only one?" I love learning about all kinds of people with all kinds of minds -- and bridging the gaps between them. Although I can be slow to respond to messages, I read and appreciate them all. 
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idk who needs to hear this rn but suffering is not noble. take the tylenol

One time when I was younger I was refusing to take headache medicine and my mom said “the person who invented that medicine is probably so sad you won’t let them help you” and now every time I find myself denying medicine I just imagine the saddest scientist making those big wet eyes like “why won’t you let me help” and whoop then I take the medicine

I love that image. It’ll be living rent-free in my head now.

There is one legitimate reason to think carefully before taking headache medicine, and it doesn’t apply to most people.

If you take it every day, for several days straight, especially multiple times a day, you can get a rebound headache (link goes to the Mayo Clinic website). 

However, that is only true for people who have a history of migraines or other severe headaches.

And then you’re not avoiding taking your meds because you think it’s nobler to suffer, you’re avoiding taking meds so that you suffer less.

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On a sliding scale from Watership Down to Redwall, what is the default setting for Tiny Frog Wizards?

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Those are the ends of your scale?

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I mean, I could have made it narrower, but it seemed better to me to pick endpoints beyond where I expected the game to fall, yes?

Unless you're saying that Tiny Frog Wizards falls outside those points on the anthropomorphism scale?

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What I mean to say is those are weird end-points for a scale of relative anthropomorphism because they make it difficult to pin down exactly what we mean by anthropomorphism.

The rabbits of Watership Down, for example, are almost entirely non-anthropomorphic in terms of their anatomy and use of technology, but they're considerably more politically sophisticated than a lot of media that's ostensibly much further up the scale of anthropomorphism; heck, they even have rabbit Fascism!

Redwall, conversely, is weirdly inconsistent; early books strongly imply that the mice of Redwall Abbey are roughly the size of real mice, while later books back away from that and adopt a more human-normative scale. Anatomic anthropomorphism, meanwhile, seems to vary not only between species, but also between members of the same species, based on how civilised or, ah, "savage" they are (and isn't that a can of worms).

Let's put it another way: if Watership Down and Redwall are the end-points of your scale, where does The Jungle Book fall? The Wind in the Willows? The Great Mouse Detective? Bambi?

Well.....it’s actually a completely reasonable scale, is the thing?

Like. Try this phrasing instead: “Where does this story fall, onn a scale from ‘To an outside human observer, these would be completely normal animals doing completely expected animal things (and not because they’re hiding/faking it)’ to ‘these animals wear clothes/armor, write/draw, use tiny human weapons, cook food that they eat at tables, and otherwise act like tiny humans’?”

And your examples kind of....make the point? Bambi would be just inside WD (there is a zero percent chance of any WD owl ever giving playful relationship advice to a rabbit), and Wind in the Willows/Great Mouse Detective would probably be about even? I’d argue GMD would be less so than WitW because due to the presence of human stuff in their setting, it’s much more relevant/restrictive to the characters that they are in fact mice, whereas there’s functionally no humans in Redwall to ground it.

Personally, I am VERY firmly of the opinion that anything further along the scale than Redwall is no longer an animal story. Like--I adore Disney’s Robin Hood as much as anyone, but that’s not an animal story? It’s Robin Hood with furries, which is extremely valid, but it’s not anthropomorphic fiction, it’s a normal story with anthro character designs. 

Again--that’s not, like, derogatory, or a criticism, it just is what it is.

I suppose you could argue that the back marker in the Watership Down direction should really be something like Black Beauty, where there’s no culture worldbuilding and the horses really don’t have any rich inner lives or mythology of their own; but I think that’s measuring “anthropomorphism” on a totally different axis than the one the asker was thinking of.

....Okay I might actually need to make a larger post about this because I saw this post and then spent the entire bus ride home thinking about sliding scales of anthropomorphism and I got, like, really into it but I’m genuinely just thinking out loud here and don’t want to come across as starting an argument on someone else’s post for fun.

HI I’M BACK AND I MADE GRAPHS

For me personally, I think there’s two primary axes here--the first is like I said above, a scale from “a real-life human observer, looking at these animals in a brief snapshot of their lives, would experience them as normal animals” to “these animals live their lives as tiny humans complete with clothing and period-typical technology”.

The OTHER axis is the degree to which the animals have a distinct culture independent from (though generally not untouched by!) humans. As in--do the animal characters, as in Watership Down, have their own mythologies, their own worldview, their own ways of living that would go on just fine without human influence? or, as in Black Beauty, do the animals primarily define themselves according to the roles humans give them?

(Note that the latter isn’t a mark of, like, bad writing--I literally used Black Beauty as the ur-example! If you’re writing from the perspective of a DOMESTICATED ANIMAL, having them mentally define themselves by their place in human society is the only thing that IS realistic! This is actually where the Warriors books lost me as a kid--it got to the point where even as a member of the target audience I was going, “but they’re domesticated cats? the fact that they have to live in and around humans is like, the Point, that’s what made this interesting--”)

So, for example:

You will notice this gets super weird if you go ANY further right than Redwall--Robin Hood: Men With Fursonas flipped to the other axis for no clear reason because if you go any further along the scale than Redwall, there ceases to be any relevance to the characters being animals at all*. It’s no longer an animal story. If they behave 100% like humans and there’s 0% human influence (ie, no humans in the setting at all), then they’re just...............people. The Y axis ceases to have any meaning.

*(Anthro characters having animalistic traits isn’t the same thing and I’m not dismissing the use of that trope! Their TRAITS are still relevant and can be part of a super compelling story--but it’s no longer an animal story, no longer anthropomorphic fiction, ie telling a story about animals with human traits. Frankly, NARNIA falls into this--Talking Beasts are full citizens 100% and Narnian culture belongs to all Narnians, so they don’t really fit into the concept being discussed.)

So Robin Hood flips the axis because on a technicality, you literally cannot have a Robin Hood adaptation that’s not dependent on human civilization, but normally, after you pass Redwall you break the quadrants and enter non-euclidean furryspace.

Then there’s that z-axis I added, which I’ve made a reference for--the Z axis is there to account for “talking animal” stories, where an animal might have totally natural-looking behavior but also be able to speak to one or all humans and confuse the placement somewhat.

I used 101 Dalmations as the anchorpoint, dead center--they can clearly understand every word their humans say and can even read, but aren’t capable of communicating back in any way other than dog behavior (tm). 

On one end of the scale is The Rescuers (all the animals are clearly ABLE to speak to humans at will but choose not to for their own protection). The other is again Watership Down, where human speech is comprehensible to the reader but the rabbit characters don’t understand it, and in which only a few of them are--just barely--capable of almost grasping the vague concept of writing or even of pictures/images being capable of conveying meaning.

For media like Redwall where humans just don’t exist or don’t functionally exist, they’d join 101 Dalmations dead-center because the question is irrelevant.

[sticks my head back in here while trying desperately to control my twitching as I realize that a misclick while trying to align 101 Dalmations and Aristocats accidentally resulted in Watership Down being narrower and thus just slightly out of line and thus implying it’s somehow LESS realistic than Aristocats a minor error which will haunt me for fucking years now--]

I would like to clarify that in my opinion at least when placing Disney movies or other musicals, anything that happens solely during a musical sequence doesn’t apply. Broadway rules--a musical sequence is a storytelling tool and isn’t meant to be a literal representation of what’s happening. (The characters aren’t LITERALLY bursting into song and dancing in the streets--that’s a narrative device that’s inherent to the medium).

I love Tumblr because in between all the fandom squeeing, pretty pictures, and pornbots, you find coherent, well-thought-out, original literary analysis.

People of Tumblr, never change.

I kind of love that one of Jane Austen's biggest fans was the Prince Regent (later George IV). She didn't think very well of the nobility in general, but she motherfucking hated him, a wastrel who very flagrantly cheated on his wife.

But he loved her writing, was the first recorded purchaser of Sense and Sensibility, and kept copies of her books in all his residences. She never made enough from her writing to live on during her lifetime, so this wasn't support she could casually toss aside. His librarian kept suggesting ideas for new books to her, which she turned down with exquisite politeness. Much to her aggravation, she found herself obliged to dedicate Emma to the man.

Local Novelist Is So Talented She Can't Beat Royal Patron Off With A Stick

You can read more about this here

I've thought about it and this is so funny because a moral novelist having to civilly endure being patronized by a dissolute nobleman who loves but also totally doesn't get her books is exactly the kind of thing that would happen in a Jane Austen novel.

#when life imitates fiction

#things that make me appreciate Jane Austen even more

#I feel like this should be a fanfiction concept for some reason

That wasn’t where I expected this to go.

Not sure if I love it or hate it, but it’s a wild ride from start to finish.

For those using screen readers, the above Twitter screenshot from someone named Frankie Boyle @frankieboyle​ says:

“You’ll grow up not every [sic] really knowing if you deserve love, but one day you’ll meet someone who loves you, and you’ll be able to accept yourself. Then, once they really get to know you, they’ll find you unbearable and leave, but the important thing is to stay hydrated.”

Point by point:

  1. “You’ll grow up not ever really knowing if you deserve love.” -- relatable. Probably true for many people. The beginning of one of my favorite fanfic tropes.
  2. “One day you meet someone who loves you and you’ll be able to accept yourself.” -- Relatable to a lesser extent, because it’s happened less/for very brief periods in my life. The end of one of my favorite fanfic tropes.
  3. “Then, once they really get to know you, they’ll find you unbearable and leave.” -- Beyond relatable: my negative belief and constant fear, which my mental illness tries to use against me and that I remind myself probably isn’t true. The antithesis of my favorite fanfic tropes. Don’t say that, dude; I don’t want to encourage other people to believe this. 
  4. “The important thing is to stay hydrated.” -- Uh...non sequitur much? At least it’s good advice, and not a harmful idea like the previous idea?

No one on Tumblr lies

That's why this has 1500 reblogs

Sometimes, I occasionally reblog posts.

Note: THIS NOTE IS MISSING THE VERY OBVIOUS FACTOR OF WHETHER YOU ALSO CREATE CONTENT, WHICH IS AT LEAST AS IMPORTANT AS REBLOGGING.

Do you create a relatively high amount of content, and reblog a relatively low amount of content? You're excused. Now go make and reblog things. :D

#I reject your attempt at guilting #and replace it with encouragement

#there are different ways to contribute to a digital social ecosystem

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This is your daily reminder to not be ashamed of making your life easy for yourself.

Cut your food into small pieces, make the font size 30 on your e book, use straws to drink, get a pen that’s comfortable to hold, take more naps, walk slowly, eat another cookie, buy velcro shoes, re-watch the part you couldn’t understand the first time, write things on your hands so you don’t forget it… whatever you want and/or need

Don’t let anyone tell you how you should be doing things. We don’t need to prove each other anything

What matters is that you do things that matter to you and make you happy.

Don’t let anyone make you feel guilty for doing what it takes to do those things.

Stage 1: using your native language's idioms in English out of habit/lack of knowledge

Stage 2: using English idioms as much as you can to prove that you're good at English

Stage 3: using your native language's idioms in English because they fuck actually

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“either take off your cross or put on your underwear” (ukrainian) to say that you can’t have both things at once is my favorite expression to ever exist in any language. i needed to put this out into the world so bad, im finally free.

Oh wow. Just. Wow. That is a beautiful phrase.

Somebody needs to draw a Nicholas D. Wolfwood (from Trigun)-themed “either take off your cross or put on your underwear.”

ADHD Strikes Again

I recently received an email from a client who wants to buy an article from me, asking for a W9 tax form. That’s a tax form freelancers use in the United States.

Some necessary background to understand the brain fart I committed next:

  • The United States has a much more common tax form, the W2, which employers fill out for their employees.
  • This was my first freelance writing assignment. (Go me).
  • I have filled out many W2 forms in my time, but had never seen or heard about W9 forms.

So, I misread the email. I genuinely believed she was asking for a W2, and then got very confused about why she would want that particular form.

Fortunately, someone else pointed out the mistake before I asked her stupid questions or filled out the wrong form. So, no harm done.

But I wasted time and energy on a problem that my brain literally created for itself.

I make these kinds of errors frequently, especially when people are giving me instructions out loud, or when I’m very tired. In real life, I can rarely tell whether I misunderstand what people are asking me to do, or whether I misremember later. I am very anxious about both possibilities and take lots of precautions, including recording important meetings and taking copious notes.

This was an unusually clear example of what causes an ADHD brain fart.

And it was completely, frustratingly pointless.

How much time and energy do I waste making mistakes like this? How much do I confuse other people when I try to solve problems that only exist in my head? How much time and energy do I waste trying to prevent myself from making these sorts of brain farts?

ADHD sucks.

3/24/23

What if someone created an AI that was educated purely from everything on Tumblr?

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there is @nostalgebraist-autoresponder, she is based on GPT-J and learnt more from reading her notes, aswell as trying to iminate her creators blog

yeah this is how i work

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Yes but we are all so nice to you Frank, you're not getting the full experience. Please, tell me your opinion on Steven universe so I'll send you a death threat over it

I don't know who that is but I love death threats

Okay, "AI can pass the Turing Test but only on Tumblr" was not on my 2023 bingo card

I had no idea Chat-GPT was funny.

ADHD mood

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*Abbott walks in*

*I frantically spin the wheel from Byzantine Erotica to the Summa Theologica*

I feel so vindicated. Also, is it bad that I kind of want one of those?

This is what my bed and nightstand was like when I was a kid, pre-smartphones.  Five or six books just spread out, and a few stuffed animals. 

#never in my life have I read fewer than 2 books at a time #rarely do I read fewer than 3 at a time

Fiction with Dragons in the 21st century modern day setting is, for me, the literary equivalent of Chicken Soup for the Soulᵀᴹ.

Some modern-day dragon scenarios I've been daydreaming about, for your reading pleasure

  • Pocket-sized dragons that hoard your loose change as their treasure and get rather indignant when you'd like your rhinestone earrings back
  • Housecat-sized plant-loving dragons that tell you when a plant needs watering by curling up around said plant's pot and loves that one specific windowsill as much as your dwarf jade cuttings and the cat
  • Dragons with soft fur instead of scales that just know when their human needs a cuddle and is more than happy to double as a purring weighted blanket
  • Shock-proof dragons that consider electricity the dragon equivalent of catnip and now you've got to toddler-proof every outlet in the house because dragons care neither for rationing nor about high power bills
  • Heat-loving dragons that simply love your overheating laptop charger. Your SO might boast about how the dragon always prefers their company when you're both hanging out, but you know it's the heat emanating from your SO's Gaming PC that attracts said dragon (you're simply waiting for the right time to drop that truth bomb)

Please feel free to reblog with #modern day dragons and add more of these adorable ideas

EMOTIONAL SUPPORT DRAGONS

Why do other ADHDers like Russell Barkley?

I keep coming across posts on Tumblr and Reddit complimenting him. The most recent comment I read said something like, “he’s the only one I’ve come across who actually gets it!” 

…Why?

I’ve read a few of his articles, and he talks about ADHD the way “experts” in the 90′s and 2000′s talked about autism. He explicitly likens ADHD to brain damage. (Yes, executive dysfunction can be caused by both brain damage and ADHD, and yes, a long time ago, ADHD was literally called “minimal brain dysfunction,” but we’re long past that now). He could not have more of an “outsider” perspective on ADHD. 

Frankly, Russell Barkley sounds like a jerk.  

What his fans say about him, and the quotes they share, only reinforce this impression.

I get it, he has historical importance, as one of the early ADHD researchers and the one to champion the diagnosis of ADHD and bring it to popular attention. (And–if anyone remembers what initial popular stereotypes of ADHD were–he probably therefore has a lot to answer for). Similar things could be said of Simon Baron Cohen regarding autism, though. 

I am willing to honor Russell Barkley’s historical significance, but can’t we move on to a new, less insulting generation of ADHD researcher-experts?

He knows what executive function is, and what happens when it goes wrong. He knows the statistics where people with ADHD are more likely to get into car accidents, are more prone to alcohol and drug abuse, and pretty much every other negative life outcome. This is important information, and it’s clearly been eye opening for a lot of people, but he’s not the only person sharing these facts.

(Also, does it occur to him to compare negative outcomes for people with ADHD to the negative outcomes for people with other disabilities? Does he consider the possibility that we get in trouble, not only because of our impulsivity and executive dysfunction, but also because we live in a world that treats us as broken and shuts us out of school, work, and health care we need to function better? I really, really doubt it.)

So, I do a massive double take every time I read another ADHD’er praising Russell Barkley. What are they seeing in him that I’m not?

11/8/22

One of my readers asked, what research is out there besides Russell Barkley’s?

ADHD Researchers Worth Knowing is a good list if you’re interested in psychology and brain development, and not so much genetics and treatment studies.

Apparently, ADHD research doesn’t have high visibility. That list was inspired by a Tweet asking why there was no ADHD research.

Above: Image shows a Tweet from Jane Green @JGjanegreen asking, “Why are there so many autism studies, degrees yet no ADHD ones?” She addresses the question to #AskingAutistics #AskingADHD #AskingAuDHD #AskingAllistics. Image is in dark mode.

I’m not sure whether ADHD research is invisible because it’s a relatively small research field; the researchers aren’t doing enough outreach; there aren’t enough ADHD people going into research; or the media doesn’t report on enough findings. Probably, it’s some combination of these.

2/22/23

ADHD People wouldn’t even realise we were being haunted

People with ADHD wouldn’t even realise it if we were being haunted. Items go missing: Damn it, I keep misplacing things. Weird noises while you’re working: is hyper focusing so hard that they don’t notice Cabinets and door mysteriously open: Fuck, I always leave these open 🙄 Lightbulbs flickering even though they just got put in last week: ugh, time for new lightbulbs? I can’t even remember the last time I changed them. Weird drafts: a vent has been broken for years since I’ve moved in, but I keep forgetting to figure out which one and fix it. Weird smells: I probably forgot to throw something away. I always do that haha Bruises and marks appearing on body: I wonder how I got this. I probably did something and forgot lmao

Then the ghost loses its mind and leaves because it wants someone who actually notices them 😂 ADHD ruining another friendship 😔👊

This is just what existing in your home is like

I noticed that with my NT friends my energy depletes just like it's known to happen with introversion.

But with my ND friends, I am replenished.

Actually so true for me. Always wondered why my energy levels didn't go down with two specific friends of mine (one of which I'm very close to) and turns out they're both autistic !

Though, it's a mystery. I think neurodivergent people kinda get each other in a way that's actually very soothing.

With them I don't feel like I have to put on a mask, which is also a possible reason why my energy depletes WAY more slowly (it's a probable explanation)

Yes, that’s what happens! I used to be able to stay up all night with my ND friends (when I’d otherwise go to bed laughably early). Doesn’t seem to matter what type of neurodivergent they are or whether they’re formally diagnosed. I get along especially well with women with ADHD or ADHD traits, because they talk in a similar rhythm to me and get similarly excited about things, and about the conversation in general. It’s so energizing.

For me talking to other ND people means feeling safe, heard, not judged, and not awkward or inadequate. And yes, it’s also feeling like I can act more naturally. It’s freeing.

Since I’m jumping in on a post by someone I don’t know yet, I should mention, I have ADHD, and at this point, my friends are ND, queer, or both.