You’ll be in my heart, always.
“You are worth finding. Worth knowing. Worth loving. You and all your one million layers. Always hold that close.”
— Danielle Doby
It really hurts when I see couples tell each other they wish they met sooner so they could love each other longer and like… I don’t have that. I don’t have someone who loves me that much to want to have known me sooner in life. I don’t have someone who thinks it’s unfathomable to live life without me. I continuously get taken for granted. I don’t get chosen. I don’t even get a text back. My heart is seriously broken.
It hurts a lot when you tell someone not to do something to you and you’ve explained over and over how it affects you, but they still do it.
I don’t think I’ll ever be truly happy. I don’t think I’ll ever get to experience the kind of love I dream about. For the last four years, I’ve been waiting. Hoping that now is the time, but it never is.
I hope one day someone takes my heart- that’s been shattered and poorly put back together, pieces missing- and holds it so gently and promises to take care of it for the rest of our days.
I’m tired of feeling the way I feel. I want to erase everything. I don’t want to carry all of this anymore.
And I wondered what it was like to be chosen.
I was never chosen.
I was a maybe, a probably, sometimes even a definitely but never the one,
never the chosen one.
Unknown
We live completely separate lives. I’m afraid we always will. I pour myself into you, but you never see it. It’s never enough for you. And somehow I’m always the problem. I feel like I don’t have you, and I miss you. It’s crazy to feel that way when you are here. I’ve been hurt so many times by this whole situation and I wish I could say that I believe things will be different this time, but I should know better by now.
But I will still dream about a day where I get to come home to you and sleep next to you and get to hear your voice and see your beautiful face. Where I get snuggles from you and the kids. And everything is safe and cozy and just right.
I think you’re right about depression. Maybe there isn’t anything or anyone who could truly cure you. Maybe you think you’re doing better, but then it all comes crashing back down. Maybe that’s just how life is going to be now.
“The cost of not following your heart is spending the rest of your life wishing you had.”
— Unknown
“Too often, the only escape is sleep.”
— Charles Bukowski
“Making love was never about you and me in a bed. We made love whenever we held hands.”
— Iain Thomas, I Wrote This For You