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Searching For Wonderland

@nekoluver / nekoluver.tumblr.com

Just a depressed 30 something with a blog Icon by @shanikins42

truthfully I only truly support celebrities making tumblrs IF they’re incognito about it. i want to make a niche internet friendship exchanging leverage throuple porn and then we slowly graduate to becoming discord friends and eventually I carefully dox myself like “yeah haha I sort of work in [redacted] industry and visiting your city (I think?) if you want to grab coffee” and then my good mutual eliotslesbiancock or whatever is like “haha no doubt. Also btw im keanu reeves”

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simple angst sentence starters

  1. “Does it hurt?”
  2. “Please don’t hide from me.”
  3. “Hold them down.”
  4. “I won’t hurt you.”
  5. “Stay close to me.”
  6. “Why can’t I hurt you?”
  7. “Don’t let it end like this.”
  8. “Help me.”
  9. “I don’t need to be protected.”
  10. “I can’t do this again!”
  11. “Be strong.”
  12. “I know that you’re scared.”
  13. “Don’t try to fight back.”
  14. “How heartbreaking.”
  15. “Are you going to stop me?”
  16. “Just stay.”
  17. “I can’t sleep.”
  18. “I can’t breathe.”
  19. “How much did it hurt?”
  20. “You look like hell.”
  21. “Break or be broken?”
  22. “Don’t you dare speak to me.”
  23. “Don’t cry.”
  24. “This is not goodbye.”
  25. “You won’t see me again.”
  26. “You know I can’t feel that way.”
  27. “Leave it be!”
  28. “I thought this was supposed to be happy.”
  29. “Cruel, isn’t it?”
  30. “I can’t love you.”
  31. “I can’t hate you.”
  32. “Leave me alone!”
  33. “Forget me.”
  34. “It’ll never be enough.”
  35. “Swear to me.”
  36. “Don’t look back.”
  37. “Get away from here.”
  38. “Look at me, and you die.”
  39. “Hold still.”
  40. “Do you think I wanted this?”
  41. “Goodnight, my love.”
  42. “This has to be the end.”
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feel free to send one in!!

[ID: A black cat stepping into an open pizza box. Right onto the pizza.]

this is the only instance of someone writing a tumblr image description of a funny image that actually captures the essence of the image

👁 🦚 Romanticization | Codependency | Projection PT. 1 Limerence (The hopeless Romantic Archetype) A codependency on the fantasy, illusion, and romanticization of a relationship. Experiencing extreme highs and lows with emotions ranging from infatuation to desperation. Viewing a person in an identity you created for them based upon your expectations, beliefs, desires, and judgements. Self-limiting belief that we have control over one’s free will by projecting our perceptions onto another person to place them in a desired “role” in your life. Can stem from childhood trauma and the need to create an illusion that fulfills the needs that weren’t met in reality. We become avoidant to our actual needs, because we haven’t yet learned how to access them and our environments were not equipped to.
👁 🦚 Romanticization | Codependency | Projection PT. 2 Limerence (The hopeless Romantic Archetype) ****continued**** This keeps us from experiencing true and unconditional love that is reciprocated. It distorts our ability to recognize and maintain healthy connections, because we’re too busy trying to upkeep this fantasy. Because we felt like we had to “create” love in order to receive love as a child, we take this behavioral pattern with us in adulthood. The awareness here is that we need love, but we did not yet understand how we needed it and searched for ways we could fill these empty spaces. Ask yourself what you really want. Know that you are worthy of receiving love and you don’t have to pretend that it exists in places it doesn’t. Free yourself and others in your life from the false identity you held onto as a coping mechanism. Practice unconditional love, without the condition of a person, place, or thing.

Cats never understand that you're helping them get their claws unstuck from fabric. They're just like "you're tormenting me at the worst possible time I hate you"

every episode of spn is like okay we’re gonna spilt up dean you go confront an element of the narrative that will make clear how the abuse you endured as a child continues to harm your self worth and makes you repress every desire you’ve ever had. sam you go interrogate the milf

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biggest protection from internet brain poisoning is remembering the idea "are people making up a guy and then getting really mad at that made up guy?". sometimes you gotta just take a step back and go is this this an actual issue with actual discourse or is it just something like four people on tiktok are saying? By getting mad at this do I sound like new stations talking about a "new teen drug craze" that 100% is not a thing?