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weighed down by morning

@nebulous-apocrypha / nebulous-apocrypha.tumblr.com

[ jasper | they/them | minor | SE asian ] [ self indulgent shitposts and reblogs | feel free to ask me for my FL and FR usernames ]

welcome to my blog!

you can see my info in my bio, but to keep it simple: you can call me jasper, i go by they/them, i'm a minor, and i'm SE asian. these days i mostly blog about homestuck, vocaloid, and dungeon meshi

my art/oc sideblog is @apocryphally-nebulous, my wizardposting sideblog is @mystery-mage

if you want to easily navigate my blog: reblogs are tagged with "reblog" random posts are (usually) tagged with "musings" shitposts are tagged with "shitpost" fandom stuff is tagged with the relevant fandom ("[fandom]" or "[fandom acronym]" in some cases) i usually tag triggers with "[trigger]" or "[trigger] tw", lmk if there's something you'd like me to tag honestly this is a reblog blog for the most part i’m just here to mess around

if i overstep your boundaries in any way please let me know

dni: terfs, swerfs, radfems, “MAPs”/“NOMAPs”/pedos, ace/aro exclusionists, m-spec exclusionists, if you’re proship in the sense that you support ships involving incest or pedophilia (if you don’t but still are proship i have nothing against you but i’d really just prefer you not interact), 18+/nsfw blogs, idk i'll just block you if you're an asshole/bigot/make me uncomfortable. sorry if this is long and meandering but yeah. basically just go away!!!

yea that's basically it

hey guys, i solved it! optimistic fiction and pessimistic fiction have the same moral value! we’ve done it! we’re free

like, ok

i’ll just pass this on to kurt vonnegut and fuckin…elie wiesel shall i

lmao YES like…whether you’re fourteen and creating characters who explode the preps with their brains or you’re an adult writing existentialist french novels…there are SO many reasons to engage with those ideas and emotions that aren’t “i am a rampaging asshole who hates hope” the way apparently some people assume??

like, it’s even reductive of who is experiencing the (fictional) cruelty. “dreaming of the battlefield” in dark fiction is just as likely (or more likely??) to mean “processing feelings of despair by imagining MYSELF as a cursed foot solider in an unending war” as it is “processing feelings of helplessness by imagining myself as powerful and unaffected by emotion”

or like. “hey guys, i actually WAS a cursed foot soldier in an unending war and it sucked shit.” if those guys are pessimists, fine, they earned it

carrie. maybe even, caroline. what's her last name? we may never know. maybe it's also carrie. how about that

as you see, i did Not wait for her birthday (the date i originally joined fl, 12th june), but instead i've done this.... closer to my own birthday (which is in 3 days! woah)

...yes her design has changed slightly since i last did a coloured drawing of her, but really i'm mostly doing this because i couldn't stand the way i drew the last one. i expect at some point i'll realise "wait i really hate how i drew her there" and re-draw her ref yet again. such are the perils and horrors and etc. of drawing

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lineup for some characters from a place of honor! using a simplified style because i want to try animation in the future

barani (they/them) and asa (he/him) are orphans who swore an oath of siblinghood and decided to leave their small village to join the army. serai (she/her) is a former rotmage who faked her death and deserted her country when asked to develop a mass crop contamination ritual to be used for warfare; talem (she/her), her wife, believes that she was murdered and is trying to track down a killer who doesn't exist

I swear, putting your brain into the sea is a horrible idea, all the salt will just cause chaos. Moisturising twice daily will solve all problems and if you do it consistently your brain will never even get calcified in the first place. Stop this misinformation!!!!

The drama of standing on the cliff top is good for your emotions as well. Plus it is free, whereas your brain moisturiser is extortionately priced! You don't care about people, you're just looking for money

Hey everyone, I've got some awesome news 😸🙌😂

I just started my part-time job at a local restaurant, cleaning tables. I had a great first day, and they were happy with my work. It's three days a week, four hours each day. But, I'll have to wait four weeks for my first paycheck, because they have a 2 week hold back. I'm so grateful to all of you who've helped me so far. Your support has made it possible for me to get a haircut, a gym membership for showers, and sturdy shoes for work. Honestly, I can't thank you enough. But I still need a little help. The job requires me to wear black slacks and a black shirt, and I've got to cover the cost of my meds for June until that first paycheck comes in. It's absolutely vital for me to stay on my prescribed medication, they play a crucial role in maintaining my mental well-being. So, I'm reaching out again, asking for some more support.

Even if you can't help out with money, just sharing my post or sending prayers and good vibes my way makes a huge difference. I truly believe that we're all connected, and your support is proof of that. Thank you for being part of my journey, for making things a little easier. You all are amazing.

$0/$342. Tuesday May 16

My goal is $342.

(Work clothes $100. - Meds needed for June $242.)

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading this and for any help you can give.

Even if you can't donate, please consider sharing my post. It might reach someone who can help, and just knowing that people care is the only thing keeping me going.

If you are able to help me I’m in Canada and the only thing available here is PayPal and e-transfer, we don’t have any cash apps available. Thank you for considering me. 🙏

PayPal : MelodysFyAndMe@gmail.com

If you prefer to not use PayPal I have e transfer set up. It works like a cash App. Works the same way as it would to make a purchase on line, you log in to your bank and send the amount you choose and it will automatically deposit.

My e-transfer : pinkbloomings@gmail.com