Eating is difficult

I'm sorry for making you eat more than you did, I now understand how hard it can be to just eat.

Ahhhh

I'm fine, I'm sick I'm fine, I'm sick

IM FINE, I'm shaking I am shaking,trembling,crying, and dying.

My gut feels like a washing machine.

I don't know, but I know that I love.

I'm fine, I'm sick, I'm fine, I'm sick I'm fine

I'M FINE, I'm shaking I'm sick I'm just stuck trembling, but I look fine I the outside and that's all that matters.

I can't fucking sleep.

If I cry can I sleep.

Never felt this before.

My mind feels nothing but things a million things.

My eye's stay open but my body is a thousand pounds.

I'm sleepy but can't sleep I want too but my heart just get's louder and louder keeping me up.

I'm keeping distant from everyone and leaving the door open to only a few.

I keep feeling waves in and at random times like I'm listening to the crescendo of the perfect song.

Never felt more trapped in a body more than I do now.

For now.. this helps I hope to see the future I've envisioned and not the one I've dreaded.

You can never really predict the future just influenc life to a hopeful outcome, wait and see.