"I'm sick of feeling like a tourist around my own friends."
I'm so exhausted. Everything is too much.
"unlearn the idea that love means possession" <- i need to understand that more and more
Having a motivational down is not good when u actually have no time left to do something.
Why am i so sensitive? One word that is clearly not even meant bad. Still I'm close to tears. My skin gets uncomfortable and i feel like I'm the biggest burden ever. Like I'm a mistake and that I can never be accepted the way I am. I talk to much. I don't talk enough. It's always wrong. I'm always wrong. Better if i dont exist at all.
Everything gets worse.
You seem to enjoy this. Finally peace, right? Go fuck yourself.
I'm not saying that I'm angry about something. That's my fault.
Your not seeing or feeling that you hurt me multiple times.
Thats your fault.
Your not able to know everything but you don't need to look close to see that I'm not doing good.
It's a fact that you're just ignoring it. You don't care. You're annoyed. You're not taking me seriously.
Sometimes I'm getting so disappointed and sad that I'm getting angry and then I just want to leave and never speak again.
I have to pretend I'm ok with how things are every day. But I'm not. How can u be okay with this. I'm acting like I don't love you everyday. How can u be like this if u love me?
I cannot believe you anymore.
Of course I'm dramatic and totally mentally sick but this is not just my mind. I still know that I'm not supposed to be treated like this.
Am I even a priority at all? It seems like everything and everyone else is more important and like I'm just a burden.
I don't want boring love. It's not a fucking friendship. I want you to treat me everyday like the first just like I do. If u love me u should not get tired of loving me. This is useless.
Well, I know I'm a piece of shit but if you choose to be in my life you should not treat me like I'm for granted. My time is not worthless and I am not there just for entertainment. If u don't see that I'm a human, then please go. I'd rather suffer alone.
If u only like me at my best, then u don't deserve me. I'm more. I'm not a stupid idiot. I have feelings and just because they are irrational doesn't mean that they are not important. Fuck u.
I'm in pain and I cannot ignore it.
I'm disgusted
I'm not happy but I'm so scared of loosing love forever. Is it more important to keep love or to keep myself?
My mind is confused. It should not be confused. Maybe it's time to end it. Maybe it's time to end it all.
Kinda unstable now but there are people who care.
Am I dumb?
I'm a piece of shit. Worth nothing at all.