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lu(cifer)

@mysteriouscircumstanceslut

queer, non binary, they/them, physically disabled

Does anyone have recommendations for books about disability/with disabled characters in?

Hi! I run a database that is primarily focused on queer rep, but it does also tag for disability, mental illness, and neurodivergence~

The database currently has 250+ books with disabled main characters, ~400 books for mental illness, and 150+ for neurodiverse. You can search by age, genre, year published, or a lot of additional tags like sub-genres and tropes!

If you create a filter and click on the header for the "Dis" column to the far right, you can toggle it to [Yes] to only show books with disabled main characters or [Some] for just side characters.

You can also run all of these searches at the same time to get, for example, a YA Fantasy with a disabled MC :)

Hey so. I'm not really ready to talk about this publically yet but no one here knows me so I'm going to vent about it.

I had surgery yesterday to excise endometriosis, because I've had chronic pelvic pain for 8 months and cyclic pain every fortnight since I was 15.

Turns out, I don't have endometriosis. They didn't find any.

The doctor came to see me briefly and said they found and removed a little bit of fatty tissue on my bowel that wasn't supposed to be there? But I don't know how that could have been causing all of my symptoms.

I'm honestly trying not to think about it too hard because I feel physically pretty crap after being cut open, but every time I do think about it, I realise I could have undiagnosed chronic pain for like. Forever.

Don't get me wrong, I don't think there's anything morally wrong with being disabled. It's just that my version of disability has been constant pain that has made me unemployed, tanked my social life, and been generally miserable. So the thought that that may continue on, undiagnosed, indefinitely is. Really bad.

Thanks to 14 years of therapy, I can ask my mother if she's okay because she seems upset today, rather than asking why she's being such a cunt

My dad and I were just talking about my crutch and he said if he ever needed a cane he'd get a sword one (very cool). And mum was like "ugh, I'm not hanging out with you if you've got a Cane 🙄"

And I'm just walking beside them with my crutch like. Hello???

Thanks to 14 years of therapy, I can ask my mother if she's okay because she seems upset today, rather than asking why she's being such a cunt

sincerely hoping I have some Japanese speaking LOTR fan followers because I'm really proud of this meme

Wearing a baseball cap backwards is such a slutty outfit choice. Like purposely choosing to shirk the sun protection of the brim which is the whole purpose of the hat, all so you can what? Suck dick quicker? Slut.

Fuckin HELL I have so much to do today to prepare for my surgery next week to hopefully treat my chronic pain BUT I woke up IN severe pain so I had to take drugs but BECAUSE of my surgery TO TREAT MY CHRONIC PAIN I cannot take IBUPROFEN so I had to take a BIG dose of codeine which means I am now TOO HIGH to do what needs DOING

People on Reddit are so strange. I posted looking for reassurance for my surgery because both the specialists I've seen gaslit me into thinking I didn't need surgery and should just try new birth control. I advocated for myself and the second specialist was like 'alright no worries, you're the boss, let's do it.'

And then someone on that post was like 'if they didn't want to do surgery, they probably aren't qualified specialists. You should find a better doctor.' Which grinds my gears because it undermines my judgement and treats me as though I haven't done proper research into who's treating me. My current specialist is an award-winning endometriosis surgeon. I think he knows what he's doing?? Also NOT a reassuring comment to receive on a post asking for reassurance 🥴

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just painted an onion on a cutting board and i think it’s the peak of my artistic career

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look at her…

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she gets stronger!

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the full painting is finally complete!

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This is giving me emotions that I myself do not fully understand

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Maybe you're just tearing up because someone has been cutting onions

so much of being an ok person is just 1) not panicking, 2) not taking things personally, and 3) not letting the vindictive gargoyle that lives in your head tell you what to do. this sucks because brains love doing those things