Spring break 2017!

Dude i just got a job i am doing good in all my classes. Spring break has been lit since the day it started i was with maddie the first 4 days and i was stoned every day since friday I was hella stoned i was gonna go to the party but it was busted it was annas and destinys party then on Saturday i had work maddie kaleb gabe (gabe works with kaleb and gabe was house sitting joshes house) (josh is kalebs and gabes boss) and justin came and picked me up and i was tryin to get litttt boyyy and i was cross faided as shit and every day after the i was stoned at the bone then the day i went home i went to a party i was honestly lit. Still not overr thooo 😋😋😋

A while.

Last time i was blogging on my tumblr I was with a meth head, Maddie and i wernt friends, and well honesly things were pretty shitty. Now Maddie and I are closer then ever and I’m not with levi. I’m with salih. Theres a  few things that bug me tho with him cause he never ever lets me finish my sentences EVER and its irritating asf. But he got me a promise ring and we got together on 4\20 and its the 26th! but i love him hes amazing 

Levi Anthony

a friend and I went to her ex boyfriends house and he his name was Levi Anthony Trunnell. When I first walked in there I could feel him looking at me. maybe because there was a stranger in his apartment (that was me) but I liked the way I could feel him looking at me. it was something new. maybe a little bit of butterflies. well I went home soon after and I looked him up on Facebook and sent a friend request. yeah it lame I know. he accepted really fast. and messaged me a day later or so and he just wanted to talk. after 3 days or so me and him hung out. just me and him and it was really nice. and when I went home I got a message saying that he had fun and I think that really really really cute when guys do that and he did that. later that day I got really sad and stuff and I was cleaning and talking to Levi but I was sad then he told me he had a girl friend and that crushed me. he told me that she made him happy. but I wanted to be the one to make him smile and be happy and stuff. but I wasn't and I couldn't because he had a girlfriend he invited me over a few days later and he had a friend there but I still went over. and we got bored so we went on like a 12 mile walk and stuff I had a lot of fun and I really really liked him and I just wanted to hold his hand and kiss him but I didn't cause I was scared. scared of rejection. and I wasn't ready to feel rejected. and that night I stayed at his house till curfew and when I got home I was really tired and I wanted to go to bed but he wanted to come over. so yeah I said come over and he came over and he told him him and his girlfriend broke up my heart smile. yeah pretty messed up but oh well. I was happy. the next day he asked me to come over again and hang out. I was at his house at like 5ish and we went to the greenbelt and it was dark so like the stars were out and it was cold. I could look at the water at feel him looking at me. he offered to give me his hoodie. but I didn't want him to get cold. we almost kissed when we were at the greenbelt looking at the water. but when we were at his house I layer my feet across him and he was being sweet and rubbing my legs and stuff. eventually I held his hand. we were on his couch and we got really close and started to cuddle and we smoked some pot so I got sleepy and wanted go cuddle and sleep so after a little bit I went and laid on his bed and he went and laid next to me. we were making out and I was able to put my leg over him and he put his arm around me so I had my hand on his peck and head on his shoulder. he kept kissing my head asking what I was thinking I was fine with that. I really liked it. I fell asleep and forgot to go home that night so I was able to stay the night.and went home the next morning and he asked if we we were official and we were cause I wanted to be and I was so happy and this was on January 26, 2016 he made my heart smile. later that day I hung out with his ex my best friend and stuff and it was a good we got super stoned so after I went to levis house and it was just to say hey and I guess we went a little further because I was taking his shirt off I was on top of Levi then he was on top of me and now I have 5 hickeys. oops

❤❤❤ #love 💞😘

I'm trying

I'm honestly trying as hard as I possibly can right now. I'm trying so hard I try to have friends I try to get my dad to love me again I try to make my mom proud I don't have any idea of what else I can possibly try right now. I try doing people right who did me wrong. and I just don't know how 😞