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@murobrown

My life might be boring shit but at least it has cool soundtrack. Cringy introverted melancholic. I love music, movies, cats and hot musicians more than myself. Cancer.
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#now I'm just too anxious to sleep#there's just not a single normal thought in my head#only worry worry worry#and I'm tired#I don't know how and why did I spiral back like this....i just want to be normal again#i feel so scared#I just want to sleep but I'm scared to let myself fall asleep#i started to hate bedtime because it means I'm completely alone with my anxiety and I can't fight it#i want to just not care about anything for a while I truly want to not give a single fuck about anything at least for one night#I don't want to let this win over me#i got through so much shit and I need to get through this too#worst about is that I can rationalize my fears but they're still bigger than me#those fears are so stupid and it's so frustrating that i can't control them#and I'm tired of my body being in constant pain it's not fun anymore#it's getting hard to enjoy pretty much anything like this but I want to enjoy life so much#after so many years i actually like being alive and I want the most out of it#i should try to close my eyes and try to think some happy thoughts#i just needed to vent this somewhere#i love living on my own so much but sometimes I wish there would be someone who would tell me that everything will be okay#... everything will be okay my friends ❤️ goodnight