when i watch other people my age, i see that they have this kind of effortless way about them that i don’t think i’ll ever have. the way they talk to each other and the way they go out and pursue what interests them without having to think twice about it. the way they know how to conduct themselves, the way it all comes so naturally to them, like breathing or swimming or riding a bike. it’s like they all have something ingrained in them that i just don’t have, and it’s so embarrassing and it’s fucking killing me. i wish i knew how to be okay.
do you ever feel embarrassed to be in your own skin like please just dont look at me i wish i didnt exist sometimes like i want to disappear because i cannot handle being me
someone: what's wrong?
me, torn between the need to overshare and the fear of people Knowing about me: um
you are growing from this you are growing from this you are growing from this
satanhaus-deactivated20220217
you ever catch yourself being really emo and you’re like lol calm the fuck down gerard way this isn’t 2004 pull yourself together
ask-bot
What simple task are you surprisingly bad at?
teamnowalls
being mentally stable
what people think coding is: type some stuff, the stuff does other stuff, you go to the next thing
what it actually is: i was trying to make a box expand and collapse for nearly and hour and it turns out i'd forgotten to type 1 (one) symbol and now im crying at midnight clicking a box over and over again because it finally works
self care is unfollowing people who post negative shit about stuff that makes you happy
if you want to know how much money i’ve made from tumblr dot com, the total number is $0 (for my british followers that’s £0)
I’m the goddess of death. What were you the god of again?
Thor: Ragnarok (2017)
I close both locks below the window. I close both blinds and turn away. Sometimes solutions aren’t so simple, Sometimes goodbye’s the only way.
Rest in peace, Chester Bennington (20.03.1976 — 20.07.2017)
When my time comes, forget the wrong that I’ve done, Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed. RIP Chester Bennington (20th March 1976 - 20th July 2017)