Thank you times infinity. I’m doing all right...I knew I was panicking so even before i’d come to my senses, i’d booked in to resume the psych appointments. Friends were reassuring me that they’d have to be truly daft to try and show up again, especially right before their hearing, and even though I know this person doesn’t lead from logic, I also know they (when sober) are desperate not to look bad. I can only hope they don’t get completely blotto one night, get stuck in their peculiar way of thinking, black out, and decide to pay a visit.
(Oh, I finally heard back from the victims services place - they located my file and the court session coming up is a proper hearing, not just to follow up on their delays and attempts to dismiss. So I can expect to be subpoenaed, and they’ve offered a place in their Prosecutor Clinic leading up to it, where I meet with police prosecutors and get guidance on that process. I kinda have to give it a boot up the arse but things are moving again.)