having a special morning today. opened the windows and the wind was cold and refreshing, had coffee on my balcony, cleaned around, put on eyeliner not because i felt the need to but because i just wanted to, and i will be reading during my commute to work soon. i have been trying hard to be someone (myself) and not just exist. it's difficult and i have been crying often due to the vulnerability but at the same time it's very worth it to be able to feel real and important. i want to have an impact in the world around me even if it's small.

from now on i will make a daily effort of being myself . of being a real breathing woman with aspirations however big or small, living in the world

watching a movie midday can fix you

i'm in love with the same person after over 4 years and he is with me as well. i woke up this morning and immediately started touching him and loving him and we had really good sex . i'm the luckiest woman even if only for that

i think everyone is getting better around me, but i'm stuck still depressed and unhappy and unsure of what i want my life to look like in a few years. i need to make decisions and i need to be more active but im also so tired constantly.. i only find solace in the fact that i am still very young and have time ahead

first rainy cloudy day in months .. happy september. i have had candles lit all day and cleaned around and painted my nails red and black . i will now have my second cup of filter coffee and read in bed

good morning it's 7am and i'm so tired .. my next day off is on friday and i don't think i can make it

i really love this copy

drinking prosecco in my boyfriend's bed and watching a kielslowski film rn

I am a girl with a big nose, truly. It's nice and it's odd

seeing this right now .. all the shades of blue

slow quiet peaceful day

breakfast and lunch today at the summer house

putting a slice of lemon in my tea every day

i had the perfect sunday off . i won't say much but it was quiet and slow and beautiful

my august aspirations are to do another month of yoga with adriene, learn to bake something new, go on a small vacation with my love, read three books, and as always improve on my sincerity and love. i used to heavily dislike summer since it gets too warm here but this year has been different and i am still trying to appreciate everything around me

im ready for change and i will make it happen

after almost 2 months of working i finally feel adjusted enough to do more than rest in my free time . im thinking of baking again and reading which i've neglected almost entirely lately .. i want to feel more things and use my body differently

recent date nights with my love ..

seeing a friend and smoking at her terrace tonight after work . keeing my heart open and true