I am stuck

in my head

and my body

as I lay awake at night I pray for peace

I listen to the wars raging inside my head

I feel my heart skip a beat as the sun rises

I feel relieved but, exhausted from the night before

there's comfort in the delusional darkness

a revised loneliness

creeping in through the ice cold edges

of a broken heart

once, immense & blissful

insomnia wraps itself around my hollow bones

shakes my fearful mind

sending chills of electricity down my spine

awakening my entire being

waves of loneliness

I feel crazy within my mind

a maze within a smoulder of smog

my mind, my worst enemy

stuck within the wars raging inside

splashes of red

scars seen on the lifeless bodies

six feet under

the deadliest scars are amongst the living

ones hidden to the sight of the eye

the ones we keep beneath the flesh

days blur together

the count of sleepless nights continue

the bags under my eyes darken

as they scream off my pale porcelain skin

begging for peace

M.Mosley

pretty brown eyes, mesmerizing

wearing his scars like wings

they glow within the presence of the sun

you glow in the presence of darkness

yearning for your touch once more

as I trace my fingers down your soft skin

I feel the heat radiating of your body

I feel the warmth inside your heart

as I listen to every rhythm and beat

demanding attention from my cold bones

you get close

sending shivers down my spine

my body relaxes, mind calm

igniting my bloodstream with elegance

goosebumps form upon my skin

you were diverse

devoted to you

accepting of everything you are

you are the masterpiece

-M.Mosley

it feels as if i'm grieving the loss of someone who is still amongst the living

everything coated in ice

frozen in time

my heart aches more as days pass

into the night you crept like a ghost

nothing mentioned

empty promises floated away

lost in blues unimaginable

pleading for forgiveness

for a crime of innocence

M.Mosley

I can see the real you

even if you don't

i do

I can see that you're aching

broken beneath your beautifully painted mural

your eyes tell a story

one that's not meant for everyone

regret & bad decisions full your fire

you're about to burn out

your halo is on fire

fear of being unnoticed

craving attention of others

unaware that you're fading

killing yourself slowly

all but emptiness left in this body

M.Mosley

rare is hard to find

if you find that something don't give it up

he was rare in every way possible

his eyes were gold brown

in the sunlight

with constellations hidden within them

his touch was warm

and by warm i mean

i felt it through my entire body

i could feel my heart skip a beat i wanted to close my eyes

to feel him and i wanted to stay there

he was confident

but limited

he held sadness beneath his smile and within his heart

behind those eyes were storms unfounded to man kind

unknown to himself

he gave them permission to enter

storms of the past

the ungrateful kind

they destroyed us in the end

he was rare

rare was hard to find

-Madison.Mosley

how do you do it

how do you paralyze my body with one touch

you're constantly on my mind

a mist surrounding every thought except for the thought of you

everything about you is mesmerizing

your lips as soft as rose pedals

your eyes as sweet as honey

i got lost in them

in the vast yellows

the mountains of golden browns

in the unique features of the unknown

i'm withering away

as you drain me of your touch

I feel my bones revolt from within

as I crave you in the night

all things cold

nothing gold

when will the gold rush begin

-M.Mosley

love me instead of hurting me

give me better instead of thinking i deserve better

love me like no other instead of thinking you can't love me enough

give me your all instead of giving up

keep me instead of throwing me away

love me instead of hurting me

-m.mosley

how can one have everything to make one whole yet still feel empty inside

I feel heartbroken

yet i could have someone mend my heart

I won't let them

I have a hole as big as Venus inside me

I could ask them to fill it

but I want to be buried inside

I feel insecure

yet, I am given assurance

why was i broken & beaten so badly to the cold ground

my body numb

yet, I feel everything in tsunami sized waves

I want help or maybe guidance

but, i've been mislead one to many times to allow myself to take that chance

-Madison.Mosley

I can't stop thinking about you

and I can't stop writing about you

how the glory days are over

when there wasn't a single worry in my mind & there wasn't one in yours

now, your mind is filled with raging wars

every escape surrounded by fire

you're lost, you don't know where to go

you can't trust yourself

everything dark and gloomy

you no longer know yourself

feelings of sorrow and indecisiveness replaced with impulses & bad decisions

Madison.Mosley

I swallowed my pills

I exhaled the green

I laid awake & alone

I did what you wanted

I learned my lesson

the dishonest taste you felt last time

was real and a punishment

the loyal always rise

but you,

you fell, hard

I swallowed my pills

I exhaled the green

I laid alone

I did what I wanted

I learned my lesson

don't give all of yourself to someone

who won't give you anything in return.

-Madison.Mosley

as I run my fingers down my pale skin

I can feel my hip bones

trying to crawl there way to the surface

my collarbones beg for forgiveness

as I inhale then exhale

my knees buckle

as they struggle to hold my body afloat

my eyes are dark

from all the storms raging

my stomach aches

as it's craving to be cared for yet,

when I look in the mirror

my body slouches

as it knows the feeling of dissatisfaction

I turn away

as it is unbearable

-M.Mosley

may my body forgive me for these

sleepless nights

and the unforgiving thoughts coursing through my poisoned mind

i feel your absence within my sheets

and on my skin

there's a cold breeze inside my bones

the fire within has diminished

and only you could light it aflame

may my body forgive me for this

-M.Mosley

it hurts like hell,

it feels like Lucifer is lighting my bare flesh aflame

tears are for the weak

it hurts, everything hurts

my skin, tainted

my mind, destroyed

my heart, broken

cold enough to enter the flames of the abyss

a warm welcome he has given

M.Mosley