I’m ok. I’m gonna be ok. I’m gonna live a beautiful life and I’ll get to know beautiful people. I will create things of beauty and be surrounded by flowers. And I’ll love myself, and I’ll be soft, I’ll be kind. And I’ll be ok.
be the person you wish someone else would be for you. get up early so you can go get your coffee from your favourite coffee shop on your way to work. pick yourself back up when you fall down. be soft and guide yourself out of the dark places you fall into within your mind. stop waiting for someone else to come into your life before you start living it. stop assuming that being single is a storm that you have to wait out until someone comes along to pull you out of it. get to know yourself. learn to enjoy spending time by yourself. be so in love with the life you have made for yourself, so that when someone does come along, you’ll have no doubts about whether you’re in love with them or in love with the idea of not being alone. because being alone won’t frighten you anymore. because you’ll know that being alone will be better than being with the wrong person. because you’ll have learned that being alone will help you choose the person who’s right for your heart. and after everything you’ve overcome, that’s what you deserve.
this woman is my fucking queen
I don’t how that image manages to capture the raw energy this post into one reaction but it does.
When you see him rub his feet together, be happy
It's his small way of saying I love you when words can't express his happiness
When he puts his hand on your thigh while driving,
It's because he can't stand to be away from you for even a moment
When he starts to snore and you can't sleep
Push him onto his side. His snoring will stop.
When he gets mad while playing video games,
Leave him be. He's not mad at you, he's just angry his teams sucks ass.
When he farts around you,
Cover your nose because it will stink.
When he kisses you on the forehead,
Feel safe.
When he gets home from a long day at work,
Rub his neck. It's his favorite place to be massaged.
When he cuddles into you and lays on your chest
Play with his hair. He'll never ask you but he loves it.
When he feel like he's worthless
Assure him that he is not.
When he dances with you
Appreciate it, because he hates to dance since he knows he can't but will do it because you like it.
And when he finally says "I love you"
Let the love overwhelm you. Let it flow all through your body. Love him back.
Yesterday, I can’t really say it was good nor can I say it was great, it was stupendously superb in the most remarkable way in a lack of a better word phenomenal. Since we worked on valentine’s day we decided to spend it together all day yesterday since it was our only day off. She took me to Shakey’s which was my first and it was nice and I got to know more about my girl, I took her to K1 Speed which was her first. While we drove home she casually suggested that we go to the casino which was my first as well, though I did not enjoy it as much as I thought I would I wouldn’t mind going back. After the casino we in a spontaneous agreement that we go to Borrego Springs to see the sculptures ( 9 pm if I may add ) which was a hour drive. We arrived at 10 pm, under the moon lit dessert that felt like a waste land with spooky silhouettes of animals 10 feet tall staggered across a desolate Wasteland of sand that was the most scariest and eeriest feeling that I’ve ever had in my life. There were camels, elephants, scorpion and a cricket, but the this weird thing of small sized sculptures of humans where I said no to. The wind was maybe 15 mph more or less and a low temperature did not help the feeling of being watched by someone or about to be attacked by a animal and the rickety sounds of the sculptures that were hallow added to the fear. But in one moment while we stood there in this vast emptiness, cold adrenaline ridden feared bodies I looked into my beautiful girlfriends eyes and my heart stopped. Not because I was too cold, not because of fear nor the possibility of us about to be killed but seeing her standing there admiring the sculptures the moon hit her eyes just right the wind blew her hair as if it was dancing with it and when see smiled…. I’ll admit I have never seen anyone in my entire life look as beautiful as she looked in that moment, and as my eyes locked with hers I didn’t feel cold, I didn’t feel fear, I wasn’t scared in the slightest because I knew I was with her I have never felt as calm as I did with her that moment my whole body became warm, I felt at ease my life felt like it was normal and valuable because of her being in it all my moments of depression, worries, problems in my life they were nothing but a grain of sand that we stood apon and I’ve never felt that way ever not even once at a gathering, with family, at work never except in a Wasteland I did……all that in a small 10 second gap that felt like years but it was time to go. We made it back around 12 or 1am and fell asleep together after recapping everything we had witnessed, my heart happy and my mind calm fell asleep next to this amazing women that said yes to being my girlfriend. Our relationship was made and created by adventures with each other and with this world being so big and vast we still have so many more adventures ahead and I am more then happy to stand next to her and see them.
I will never forget this moment. If you ever read this, I love you from here until our next lifetime. I wish it would have worked out. I wish we both did things differently. I wish so many things, but you, I will never regret. You were and are one of my greatest loves. You broke my heart but you also made it grow so much. If you ever think of me, even if its 20 years from now, know some part of my mind will always be thinking of you. I will always remember you as my first true love. No matter what happened between us, I love you. I know you fell out of love, but I hope you realize you are everything. You've always been everything. I will learn to love myself and I hope you learn to do the same, and maybe one day we can meet again. Less strangers to our own selves and more sure in the way we move. I hope one day we come back to each other and continue to have adventures. I hope somewhere deep down you do still love me. I hope you're happy and
I forgive you. I forgive you for breaking my heart. I forgive you for lying. I forgive you for everything.
I hope you can forgive me too.
-11:32pm
“It’s not easy. It never was.”
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At some point, you will come across an image of him and still feel your heart shattering. At some point, your mind will suddenly remember how happy you were with him and still break down and cry. At some point, you’ll feel that certain void in your heart as your mind goes blank all of a sudden. At some point, it will randomly hurt—no matter how hard you try to hide it. It will hurt so bad, just like how it always did. At some point, you’ll get sad. You’ll just feel all of it.
But let me tell you one thing.
You’ll get through it. You’ll survive. You’ll overcome all of this because you are strong and you never give up.
Trust me. You can do this.
— the pain is unbearable
Timing, is key.
- Nicholas Sparks
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— I was just his latest plaything
-1:55am
it doesn’t matter how you loved me, it matters how you left me.
