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grandma, your teeth are honkin' big!

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lets be so serious the problems that a lot of people have with the gods is absolutely NOT the actions of the gods themselves. the gods have done a lot wrong and do have responsibility over their followers, but a vast majority of religious harm is just done by people doing bad things in the name of the pantheon, prime or betrayer. killing the gods may fix that (emphasis on MAY- removing the gods does not mean people will stop doing things in their name and may in reality just make it WORSE) but it will also cause a LARGE number of very massive changes that may or may not include the end of the entire world. there is no pros to killing the gods. the actual change that people are looking for is largely societal and we JUST saw that happen in hearthdell and it did not require the death of the dawnfather. grabs you. dont fall for ludinus's tricks and understand how bad the death of the gods would be in practice please

#This is my thoughts exactly!! like I get why a lot of people don’t have the context needed to grasp the actual extent of the gods’ influence#but like. It isn’t a lot anymore. A lot of that “the gods control the fates of people and tamper with their lives for their own whims”#that people cite as a reason to be against the gods is VERY pre-Devine Gate. They simply don’t have that level of control anymore.#in reality the people who DO have that level of influence over the the average person’s fate is the governing body they fall under#so people talk abt choice and free will as if killing gods will renew that free will but in reality not only will they be stuck with#the very same people dictating their lives but those same people will actually be vying for an even HIGHER level of control in the power#vacuum the gods will leave behind. like even if u could get rid of the gods without unleashing a GOD KILLER. there’s nothing that will#actually be gained? bc the ppl who have influence over what u do. the people who seek to use religion as an oppressive force. they’ll still#be there! they talk about wanting to have The Choice but by deciding FOR EVERYONE ELSE that the gods cannot possibly be worth having around#they take away that choice from anyone else who Does find solace in their belief and who do good with their faith#while still being stuck under the same oppressive forces that actually have the power to meddle with their livelihoods#like yes the gods are worth criticizing but it is beyond hypocritical to claim that the solution to the lack of agency u feel in ur life is#to take that agency away from everyone else.#Critical role#Bells hells#cr meta#cr spoilers#technically#anyway sorry I have lots of feelings abt this lol
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fandomification and shipping is fucking up how some of yall consume media and i mean it

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a worrying amount of people wont give the time of day to a piece of media unless it has characters that they can ship. and like, im not saying shipping is bad or you cant be drawn to a piece of media because of its characters, but also it wouldnt hurt you to think about something outside of shipping and making incorrect quotes

something im noticing is the redditors are just commenting on everything via reblogs with reckless abandon. and its so funny bc thats how youre MEANT to use this fucking website but we've trained ourselves out of it somehow.

I feel like a fucking chimp raised in a lab let out into the wild and just doing shit without understanding wtf is going on because I was raised to click the button to get cookie

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Love that they put “a sense of impending doom” as one of the symptoms of a heart attack, like girl, that’s just how it is to be alive these days, you’re gonna have to be more specific

This made me chuckle but after scrolling away I felt the need to come back to it.

Because as someone who has felt this I can not stress how different it actually is from anxiety. Which is saying a lot because I have a massive anxiety disorder.

I've only felt this twice in my life - once when I was going into kidney failure due to an infection and again when my body was going into shock due to dehydration and malnourishment due to GI issues - and I can not stress how much it saved my life. It's hard to even put it into words. It's not like a panic attack, or anxiety. It is a horrific gut turning feeling of absolute dread.

Especially if you have anxiety you'll know the difference honestly. It's so much worse. It's every cell in your body and your brain screaming that there's something horribly wrong in a way you've never felt. It's your brain screaming out that you are going to die in a way no panic attack has ever done before.

I can not stress how important it is to get yourself to the ER if you feel this way. Especially if your having other physical symptoms.

This is amazing and incredibly helpful, oh my god. Thank you.

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Seconding the above : I was going into shock from internal bleeding, and that sense of “something is gravely wrong” was entirely different from my day-to-day whirlwind of anxiety.

For me, it was very quiet. For me, there was a deep sense that I could just lie down on the floor and not have to ever get up again, no effort required.

That combined wrongness/relief was so weird and so unsettling that I drove myself to the ER.

The “impending” part is really key to that symptom, I think, based on my experience. It’s not the existential dread of late-stage capitalism grinding the world into nurdles. It’s a ghost crow on your shoulder whispering “it’s here, it’s now.”

Impending doom is also a feature of anaphylaxis, something I’m intimately familiar with as someone with mast cell dysfunction.

For me, its the overwhelming, near calm certainty of doom that distinguishes it from the jittery panic of “but something could go wrong.”

There’s no “what if?” There’s no room to question it. It just IS. And it’s very different from the “calm” of disassociation too. I’m not disassociated from myself when it happens. I’m probably actually the most present ever.

I’ve turned to doctors and told them calmly and with utter certainty “I am going to die” and the reaction that calm certainty gets is immediate intervention because doctors also recognize that stillness as the body not bothering to waste any time on fight or flight and just going straight to “death is imminent due to some internal failing, act accordingly.”

The opposite of “only vaginal intercourse is sex” isn’t “all sexual contact is sex.”

It’s “sex is what you and your partner want it to be.”

The opposite of “sex is a huge commitment” isn’t “sex is meaningless.”

It’s “what does sex mean to you?”

The opposite of “sex exists to make babies and keep husbands” isn’t “sex exists to give pleasure.”

It’s “sex exists for the purpose you use it for.”

The opposite of “you should be ashamed of sex” isn’t “you should be shameless about sex.”

It’s “sex is a thing people do.”

quick what is everyone doing right now

okay reblogging this again just to say that i love love love reading these,, like it's so incredible how we're all doing such vastly different things at the same time...ik it's an obvious thing but it's also insane to think about.

"dont die" is my favorite thing to tell people when they say theyre gonna go do something. going to the store? dont die. going to the bathroom? don't die. going to Mars? don't die. going to write an email? don't die. driving to the gas station? don't die. it fits every situation except for maybe a funeral visitation because then i think thatd be a little bit rude

This is the worst joke I’ve seen and I am crying

Every round of combat with Team Issylra is like

Liam: Does a fun bouncy combat trick

Marisha: Does a fun spooky spell

Emily: Makes an incredible tactical move that has like 8 moving parts and foundationally alters the encounter to the party's advantage

Utkarsh: *throws up*

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leverage is so fucking funny. man manages to find the most mentally ill and neurodivergent group of thieves on the market + an even more mentally ill guy whose literal job description was trying to chase all of them, and forces them into a found family speed-run by trying to blow them all up. they lowkey stage a full fucking country wide coup and are like eh 🤷 just another wednesday. this might be a fun place to vacation tho i guess. sophie shows up to her own funeral twice. they're so good at convincing people of their shit that they make a guy's body start reacting to an illness he doesn't have because it isn't real. go completely out on a limb and basically hand this one guy a new password for his computer so they can get into it and he goes with it. parker and hardison have straight up just "fake it 'till you make it"d into the fbi without even attempting to cover their tracks beyond just These Two Guys. half their clients never asked to be their clients and don't know they're their clients, and the other half are random people who find them who fuckin knows how, meanwhile no government agency can track them down without selling their soul to sterling. they make a point to have a dramatic scene w a Big Bad Shadowy Government Guy who doesn't actually get caught or brought to justice or anything telling them he's going to hunt them all down, and in any other show this would probably earn at least a minor arc later on but he literally never shows up again. an entire season finale hinged on a cake and a bunch of clams. they accidentally made eliot a celebrity not once, not twice, but three times. parker blew up her foster parents' house when she was like. nine. and it's hardly a footnote. hardison is just casually an artistic prodigy but it's only ever brought up for the most background of background gags. eliot's biggest beef with parker and hardison for like two and a half seasons is that they won't stop making weird food with lasers and refuse to realize they can't make a decent beer to save their lives. sophie's immediate response to being shot is to call her shooter a wanker. there's a character who has literally killed a man with a mop and they had the audacity to only put her in one episode.

i think it’s really funny when fandom people make fun of nonfandom people for not recognizing a fandom url. shit like “jackstanifold” or “strifesuccubus” or “hobocop” are not immediately recognizable as fandom references dude

“how did you not immediately recognize tumblr user ‘bigbluesoup’ as a fandom reference 😂” girl how was i expected to.

anyways put in the tags if you have a fandom url and how recognizable you think it is