“It's taboo to admit that you're lonely. You can make jokes about it, of course. You can tell people that you spend most of your time with Netflix or that you haven't left the house today and you might not even go outside tomorrow. But rarely do you ever tell people about the true depths of your loneliness, about how you feel more and more alienated from your friends each passing day and you're not sure how to fix it. It seems like everyone is just better at living than you are. A part of you knew this was going to happen. Growing up, you just had this feeling that you wouldn't transition well to adult life, that you'd fall right through the cracks. And look at you now, it's happening.”
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when james baldwin said “you think your pain and your heartbreak are unprecedented in the history of the world, but then you read. it was books that taught me that the things that tormented me most were the very things that connected me with all the people who were alive, who had ever been alive.” I felt that big, big time
me talking about how every great show since 1990 was influenced by twin peaks
DAISY DID THAT. DAISY […] AND IT SHOULD HAVE MADE ME FEEL BETTER BUT IT HURT, TOO. […] IT JUST BECAME SO PERFECTLY CLEAR TO ME THAT I HAD BEEN HOLDING ON TIGHTLY TO THE POSSIBILITY. THE POSSIBILITY OF DAISY. AND SUDDENLY, I WAS HAVING A VERY HARD TIME WITH THE IDEA OF LETTING THAT GO. OF SAYING, “NEVER.”
i love you albums! i love you listening to the songs in the original order! i love you intros and outros! i love you interludes! i love you concept albums! i love you music!
you ever read a story where you and the protagonist share such a specific brand of mental illness that you feel like you've been smacked with a mirror and you just gotta sit there with wet eyes as it lists all the ways you need to fix yourself. stories that say "this you? get help lmao". stories that equal six months of therapy. self recognition through the other? shoot that shit up my veins all day every day
conversations with friends by sally rooney
"Almost every woman I have ever met has a secret belief that she is just on the edge of madness, that there is some deep, crazy part within her, that she must be on guard constantly against losing control - of her temper, of her appetite, of her sexuality, of her feelings, of her ambition, of her secret fantasies, of her mind.”
Elana Dykewomon, "Notes for a Magazine," Sinister Wisdom #36 (Winter 1988/89).