dont even get me started on my issue with jealousy. im probably the most jealous person i know. maybe its cuz i barely got affection when i was younger or cuz i was always alone as a kid but i hate when im ignored. by strangers whatever, but by friends. idk if its jealousy or just like fomo.
my friends got their nails done for a concert coming up and they didnt tell me about it. we couldve gotten them done together when they came down the day before, but they decided not to tell me wtf was up. like is that considered jealousy?
or i go to kansas for a month and suddenly my roommates start going out every weekend and having fun going to the fucking pool and shit. and then the minute i get back they stop again. no pool, no bars, no piercings, no tattoos, back to regular scheduled boring ass programming. like..... why the hell did they wait until i was in fucking kansas to start doing shit. and then i get back and they're telling stories like "you were there what do you mean?"
I WAS THERE????? WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN?? the fuck you getting on me for? i was in the fucking midwest digging a deep mother fucking hole in 105 degrees to find fucking arrow heads. the fuck you mean i was there.
not to mention, while i was in kansas they went and got piercings without me. when we had all agreed we were gonna go together one day. nah. they decided to wait until i was halfway across the country and then they're like "oh now would be the perfect time to get a piercing." the fuck dude.
they hit me with the fuckin, "you should still go! we'll go with you." no bitch i dont want this bullshit anymore. the whole reason i was gonna get one is because they were. im fucking scared of piercings and i was gonna gather the courage to do it with them and finally get the nose piercing ive been wanting since i was 16. but now its fucked. like i dont even want it anymore cuz no one else is getting one done....
is this even considered jealousy or what