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Bleeding Profoundly

@miniar / miniar.tumblr.com

40, trans, poly, pan, heathen, icelandic, physically disabled and mentally ill.

was in the car with my friend when I saw the car we passed had the license plate "SADNESS" and I went oh wait we gotta slow down so I can get a pic, but every time we went slower the other car also slowed down. so I looked behind us to see what was going on and the passenger also had their phone up and wheezing the same way I was, and that's when I remembered my friend's license plate is "LOSSJPG"

you think I would do that? just go on the internet and tell lies?

I’m sorry friends, but “just google it” is no longer viable advice. What are we even telling people to do anymore, go try to google useful info and the first three pages are just ads for products that might be the exact opposite of what the person is trying to find but The Algorithm thinks the words are related enough? And if it’s not ads it’s just sponsored websites filled with listicles, just pages and pages of “TOP FIFTEEN [thing you googled] IMAGINED AS DISNEY PRINCESSES” like… what are we even doing anymore, google? I can no longer use you as shorthand for people doing real and actual helpful research on their own.

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i love cishets and their somewhat ugly pride merch that lets us know they're at least fairly safe to be around i'm serious. like genuinely being like 13 and seeing random adults at the store in black "love is love" shirts where every letter is a different pride flag and the whole thing clashes horribly was the most comforting thing.

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^ type of guy id see in the local walmart age 13 who would give me the will to live for the next 5 years

Hey non-Jewish leftists and progressives who consider yourselves allies to Jews or, at a minimum, not antisemitic: now is an exceptionally great time to step up

This is shockingly similar to Henry Ford — i.e. an automotive mogul seen as an innovator in the general public uses his fortune and outsized influence to establish a large media presence and spread antisemitism.

There are some important distinctions, but nothing that makes me feel better about the situation.

1. At its height, Henry Ford’s publication, “The Dearborn Independent,” had a circulation of 900,000. The largest circulation in America at the time was 950,000.

While it was certainly influential, it wasn’t unmatched. In comparison to Musk’s 140 million followers, Ford reached a relatively small number of people.

2. Ford marketed explicit antisemitism, which eventually led to the downfall of his publication — you’ve probably heard of “The international Jew” and “The Protocols of the Elders of Zion.”

However, as with most antisemites (on both the right and the left), Musk hides behind the thin veil of dog whistles and oversights, leaving a layer of barely-plausible deniability.

3. Ford was eventually forced to publicly apologize after he made the mistake of attacking Jewish attorney Aaron Sapiro for more than a year, until Sapiro eventually sued Ford for libel (i.e. he fucked around and found out lol). Ford eventually lost the case and was forced to publicly apologize (his apology was written by associates and his signature on it was reportedly forged). The magazine was shut down soon afterwards.

While I can’t predict the future, something tells me Musk’s obfuscations and the current political climate will allow him to continue to operate with impunity. Dancing around the issue allows at the very least for greater longevity of your bigotry (say it with your chest you coward).

Despite everything, Ford was able to secure his position in history, albeit with some, um, unfortunate footnotes and the occasional caveat being mentioned.*

All in all, this feels very similar to Trump copying David Duke’s run for the Louisiana legislature, but that’s a story for a different day.

* some additional footnotes and caveats:

- Hitler quoted Ford in his infamous book

- Ford was a notorious union buster

- Ford received the Grand Cross of the German Eagle in 1938, the highest honor a foreigner could receive from Nazi Germany, with personal congratulations from Hitler

- After issuing the aforementioned “public apology” in 1927, Ford said that he would like restart the publication of “The International Jew.” In 1940. 13 years later.

- It’s just my personal opinion, but we probably shouldn’t honor literal nazis, but whatever

- To this day, no one at my synagogue will buy a ford car. I don’t know if this is the norm in other places, but I imagine that it’s not uncommon.

- Yes, I’m aware that nobody explicitly praises Henry Ford anymore, and everybody knows what a shithole he was. While “Henry Ford hated the Jews” is a common refrain, specific knowledge of his hatred is lacking, and I think it’s important to point to explicit hatred in the past, because hatred is normally hidden nowadays and needs to be identified outside of the group receiving the hatred.

This is an incredibly important addition

The Least Intimidating bakery in the village has closed for good so now I’ve got to go to the Intimidating Bakery, it’s awful. If you don’t have a PhD in being French I don’t recommend going to that bakery, here’s the humiliating account of the 3 times I’ve visited it so far:

  • the first time I went in there I pointed at one of those extra-skinny baguettes and said “a flute, please” feeling pretty sure of myself, and the baker said “… that’s a ficelle” (you idiot) (was implied) “a flute is twice as large as a baguette.”
  • That’s insane, first of all, a flute is a skinny instrument. Call your fat baguette a bassoon, lady—I made some timid remark about how it would make more sense for a flute to be a skinny bread and the baker said, “In Paris it is. I thought you were from the South?”
  • oh, that hurt
  • I guess I’m from the part of the South that’s so close to Italy the bread’s waist size matters less than whether it’s got olives in it, but I left the bakery having an existential crisis over whether living in Paris had made me forget my roots
  • the Least Intimidating Bakery just had normal baguettes vs. seedy baguettes vs. horny baguettes (easy mode, some have seeds, some have horns), while the new bakery has breads that are only different on a molecular level—there’s a good old loaf and then another, identical loaf called a bastard? google told me a bastard is “halfway between a baguette and a bread” but denouncing them like “those are not regulation-sized bastards” would get me banned from the bakery for life
  • on my 2nd visit (while I stood in line discreetly googling baguette terminology) there was an English tourist who asked for a baguette while pointing at what was either a rustique or a sesame and I felt a bit worried for them, but the baker just clarified “this one?” to waive any responsibility if they found out later it wasn’t a classic baguette, then handed them the bread without educating them in a judgmental tone and I felt envious
  • I know it’s because she thinks the English are beyond saving but still it made me want to come back with a fake moustache and an English accent so I wouldn’t be expected to play bakery on expert mode just because I’m French. I asked for a pastry this time and the baker asked “no bread with that?” which felt cruel, like she wanted me to sprinkle myself with ashes and admit out loud that my level of bread proficiency isn’t as advanced as I once believed it was
  • The third time I went, I had lost all self-confidence and I hesitantly pointed at a bread and said “I’d like this, uh—what is it called?” and the baker looked at me in disbelief and said “That’s a baguette.”
  • God.
  • for the record, if that stupid bread had been flanked by a skinny bread (ficelle) and a fat one (flute) then yeah of course I would have known to call it a baguette, but in the absence of reference points I now felt lost and scared of being called a Parisian again
  • it’s hard to express the depth of my suffering so I’ll just let the facts speak for themselves: this morning a French person (me) stood in a French bakery in France surrounded by French people and pointed at a baguette and said “what is this called”

bruh if people want me to stop sympathizing with villains they need to stop making the villains the ones who want to change broken systems

The broken systems are the ones allowing media to be made. The entire setup of “villains want to change the status quo” is kept propped up by our current status quo. So they’ll paint anyone who questions authority as “villains”. This is on purpose. Much like cops in movies and shows never following correct procedures or policies and made to look like the “good guys” for doing so

Do not cite the deep magics to me, witch. I was there when it was written.

^ This.

You kids are so cute with your “remember Windows XP?!” That’s very sweet. When I started using computers, everything was run by typing in DOS commands.

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My first computer looked like THIS.

My first computer was an Atari 130XE, which–wow!–had DOUBLE the memory of my dad’s Atari 65XE. That, btw, is 130k total system memory. I started COLLEGE with this beast (though ended it with an Apple Mac SE with no hard drive, only floppies.) Before that, I wrote fic on a typewriter, and before that, on paper.

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Hey an Apple //e! I had one of those bad boys! And a //c at some point, and I was very, very envious of my elementary school having a handful of IIGSes. Those things seemed so cool at the time (let’s be real, though, they’re still cool as hell actually).

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I'm old enough to say that by the time we had our first at home computer (that I was permitted to use) it was running on a relatively new operating system that at one time gave us the best error message any computer has ever given me. "Keyboard not detected. Press F1 to continue." Good times.

To other autistic people, do you have an "odd sleeping schedule"?

It’s called my psychiatrist texts me at 10 and reminds me that sleep is a thing that should occur well before 2 am.

Otherwise I’d be up to wee hours of the morning and sleep till noon.

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Actually a lot of folks with autism/ADHD have a sleep phase disorder - either delayed, advanced, non-24hr, or irregular sleep-wake. It's super common but gets brushed off as either insomnia, hyperfixation, or a conscious choice. In my experience, most neurodivergent people who have difficulty with sleep regulation have one of these. Treatment usually includes a combination of melatonin supplements, lightbox therapy, and limiting bright lights at night.

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Delayed sleep phase disorder means that if you go to sleep when you're sleepy and get up when you're done sleeping then you're going to bed and getting up at least 2 hours later than neurotypical people with "normal" circadian rhythm.

It's literally defined as a disorder because if you sleep the way your body and brain wants to sleep then that will be in conflict with the opening hours of things like schools, and banks, and your job.

If it wasn't for those things, sleeping when you're sleepy and getting up when you're done sleeping wouldn't cause any issue.

In fact, by forcing your body out of it's natural rhythm, even when doing all the treatment things of light control and melatonin supplementation, you are liable to develop symptoms of sleep deprivation. These symptoms won't be severe to begin with but will get progressively worse over time.

These symptoms are things like: - reduced attention span - slowed reaction times - difficulty focusing - memory issues - headaches - light sensitivity - difficulty with thermoregulation of body (constantly feeling cold/hot and body temperature fluctuations) - reduced awareness of surroundings - weakened immune symptoms etc, etc, etc...

If enough sleep deprivation builds up a person may even develop full blown psychosis.

If any of these symptoms already exist for you (f.ex. if you have chronic pain issues, ADHD, or any number of neurodivergencies) the slowly building sleep deprivation of forcing yourself to get up 2+ hours earlier than your body and brain naturally wakes up at will make those symptoms much worse.

If you have ADHD, you're Extremely Likely to have delayed sleep phase disorder.

And it's only a "disorder" because our social environment won't let us rest when we need it resulting in literally making us sick.

Why do you think we burn out so hard?

whats the best way to trim the crest+beard of a silkie? this lady can barely see with all that floof! 

apparently some people use little headbands to keep the fluff out of their eyes

80s chickens

yo im late but when i first got my polish frizzle bantams years ago from their breeder their crests were up to keep them out of the mud (because they’re show birds) and the result was amazing

chef hats/make-up brush hair

i love them thank you for the advice

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!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I had to Google what frizzles looked like normally and