Honestly same it’s been one hell of a struggle. I’m kinda like ‘well damn what do it do now’
Potential physical symptoms of dissociation that don't get talked about enough (I.e things that are generally consistent across our dissociative episodes)
- Feeling numb or like you're floating
- Dizziness or loss of balance
- Sensory issues (may intersect with Autism only though IDK) especially sensitivity light or sound
- Difficulty focusing (vision may be slightly cloudy, etc.)
- Sleepiness or fatigue / needing to lie down
- Change in body temperature (we tend to get this weird cold feeling in our bones or chills)
Non-physical symptoms that aren't talked about enough
- Becoming more sensitive to triggers (be it panic/trauma triggers or phobia/OCD triggers)
- Increased susceptibility to delusions or hallucinations if experiencing psychosis
- Different emotional levels than normal in any direction (I.e might be Very Sensitive to emotions/emotional suddenly and unable to properly control this or may feel nothing emotionally when you normally feel some things)
- Struggling to hold conversations, speak, or think clearly
- Struggling to make small decisions or being more vulnerable to suggestion or manipulation (similar to IRL hypnosis but not to be confused with fictional hypnosis/mind control)
- General temporary cognitive impairment (may struggle to read, write, recall facts, solve equations or perform academically while dissociative)
- Short term memory loss/amnesia (for example once as a teen we were dissociating and trying to record a log on what we did that day and kept saying variations of "I know I did things important today but I can't remember at all...I can't remember what did I do today?")
- Getting overwhelmed easily/getting "stuck" on basic tasks or efforts
- Age regression or regressing to act like an animal or inanimate object (can be a coping mechanism or if plural blurring with or switching to a younger or alterhuman headmate)
- General feeling of panic because "everything feels off" or you feel vaguely ill but don't know the cause of it/have any notable symptoms
A lot of the time people only understand dissociation as "not feeling real" or "the world around you not feeling real" and often that's part of it but there's a lot of other symptoms to look out for and be aware of. This is just stuff we personally experience so there's bound to be more (feel free to add to this if you have any) and these may intersect with other disorders we have
No matter how beautiful a night can be. No matter how many memories it can create. If you are going to feel like shit you are, no matter what. Those nights are the ones you get angry, because you know your mind just spoiled what you wanted to be perfect with your body and soul.
If somebody gets the courage to tell you what’s going on with their mental illnesses, you fucking listen and be attentive. Especially when it’s shit like a Depersonalization Disorder or BPD. You don’t fucking ignore them and expect everything to be fine. When they express to you that they’re afraid of an episode coming on, you fucking check to make sure they’re okay. Common fucking sense.
depressedanxietydeath
Problem with being a rational person with an irrational disorder. I am very aware that it’s not healthy, not good and I know where it came from. I just can’t get myself to change it
hey uh brain can you stop fantasizing about various ways you could die for five seconds
blakepd
i will now feel nothing for the next two hours and dissociate into the void, and then afterwards i will be ready to party as if absolutely nothing weird happened
that dissociation feel when your eyes unfocus, everything goes fuzzy and every sound your hear is muffled, distorted and changing frequencies and you don’t even know if you’re real anymore
What do you do when even those who are supposed to be your friends make you feel so horrible that everything comes back again?
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entra pure, prego, fa come se fossi in cuor tuo siediti, serviti lo so, c'è un po’ di disordine e non hai visto la testa, lì c'è un casino…ma la metterò apposto.
having a warped sense of reality more like “did i actually do that or did i just imagine myself doing it”
depressedpatata
