i hate nerves and anxiety. oh nooo i am scared of acting like a weird bitch to remedy this i will act like a weird bitch
"Stop saying 15 year olds with weird interests are cringe, they're 15" this is true however you should also stop saying adults with weird interests are cringe because who gives a shit
To wit:
I want to share some wisdom from my high school art teacher.
In my AP Art class, there was a girl who was just starting to experiment with mixed media. At this point she was still playing around, trying to decide what direction she wanted to go with her portfolio. So one critique day, she brought in an abstract canvas with some rhinestone highlights and painted and real peacock feathers. She loved sparkles and peacock feathers so she thought she’d try introducing them a *little*. And after everyone had given some input, the teacher gave her his advice, VERY roughly paraphrased here:
“So here’s the thing… I do not like this style. These are just elements that do not speak to me personally, but I see that you like them, and you’re doing interesting things with them.
“My biggest critique is, I only merely *dislike* this piece. I want you to make me HATE it. Go crazy with the things that you like. Don’t hold back trying to make it palatable to people like me. Because I am NEVER going to like it. And if the audience does not like it, it should drive them crazy seeing how much YOU love it.”
Her portfolio was chock full of neon colors and glitter and rhinestones and splashes of peacock feathers and it was a delight. Our teacher despised every piece lol, but she got great marks and I think even won some awards. And more importantly, she was happy and proud of the results. Because she didn’t limit herself by trying to appeal to people who were never going to enjoy what she enjoyed.
Takeaway here: be as cringe as you want. Don’t limit yourself based on other ppl’s tastes. They’re not you, and you are incredible 💕
It's a unique type of frustration when you agree that a character is deeply flawed but other people keep missing what's actually wrong with them and assigning them new flaws that they don't even have it's like free my man he did none of that. He did a bunch of other shit tho.
my role on tumblr is of the listener friend who listens to their talkative friend go on about their life for hours
a family can be Just Some Guy, his one co-worker, his two and a half adopted children, his favorite novels protagonist (who stabbed him once), the woman who also stabbed him once, a third woman he picked up (platonically) in a 7/11 months ago, a member of the military, his “biological” child and a dog
the way orv beats you over the head with "you can never fully know a story, you can only ever interpret it, this being true doesn't make your love for the story any less real. through communication and interconnection we can grow our understanding of a story. this also applies to yourself." and then hits you with the combo of "now replace Story with Person" and knocks you out cold
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he is shitty and a danger to society but i love him so pls don't be mean to him he is just babygirl you gotta trust me you don't know him like i do he is baby i promise
she’s a 10 but she’s trapped in an eternal cycle of misery
who is yoo joonghyuk
when it comes to adaptations, I fully believe that ORV would do best if the medium can provide a first person pov. shaky hand held cam footage. a fps (first person sworder) video game like dishonoured. a visual novel with a faceless protagonist. the point is to blur the line between reader and reader (dokja), between viewer and actor, between character and observer. Kim Dokja is an exercise in this-could-be-you. He is meant to evoke empathy. He's meant to be you, railing against the fate of your beloved characters. He's meant to be you, the you who wants a happy ending, who will pick up a pen or a brush or a phone and make that ending you want to see. to show Kim Dokja (before the censor on his face is removed), is to make him distinct, to add him to the narrative before he considers himself to be a part of it. the point of Kim Dokja is that he is not a character.
tldr; an adaptation of orv should force you to kin Kim Dokja.
kim dokja's flavor of mental illness makes me so crazy. he's like "i deserve nothing good i want to make something good of me none of me matters i need to try to stay so i don't hurt them there's nothing wrong with me i'm completely normal i will cause problems on purpose i didn't want this to happen i'm unlovable i will fight for our happy ending you loving me was a mistake i want to hold your hand and i want you to let go and it's okay if i go as long as you live i want to stay and i worth less than any of you"
he just like me fr
the ending of orv is very open-ended, to the point where you could say that orv has no ending. the conclusion is ultimately up to kim dokja, up to the readers, up to you because everyone who read all 551 chapters of orv could very well be some scattered soul fragment of kim dokja. orv is a story written for its one and only reader, its dokja, who is you. and you as the reader get to decide the story.
han sooyong wrote the novel and yoo joonghyuk wrote the epilogue but only the readers can determine what conclusion they want to see.
when hes 28, 176cm, aquarius, his name always gets misinterpreted, likes to read, manipulative, wears a white coat, has three adopted children, dies every other arc, nicknamed 'demon king of salvation', utterly traumatized, has a garter belt kink, constantly gets called ugly, a sacrificial bastard, always has a plan, murdered his dad, split into 51/49, prince of the underworld, and gets killed by the one he loves most
me: *dies*
I am so tired and this tiredness is too strong to be combated with small breaks. I want to hibernate for eight months at least.