Hi guys! my name is Manuel, but you can call me Mac or Alex, the reason behind Alex is a long story haha. But my blog is depravedbliss it’d mean a lot to me if you guys would check it out :) If you have any questions don’t be afraid to ask, I’ll answer any questions asked! Love you guys! Hope you all have a great day! :)
how are they still friends?! lmao wingbeifong
OH MY GOD
queenie appreciation post part one
1. Razors are a pain in the ass to get out. 2. Don’t ever let something get to the point where you can’t control it. 3. Shaving will never be the same. 3. Cuts hurt way longer than just when you’re in the shower. 4. Sleeves move around, and they won’t always be covered. 5. The fabric from your jeans will make your skin feel like it’s burning alive. 6. One cut will never be enough. 7. Every line, mark, scrape you see turns into a trigger. 8. Blood smells really, really gross. 9. The scars will constantly remind you, even on the good days. 10. You’re not sure why it feels good, it just does. 11. ^^ Sometimes it doesn’t feel good at all and it will make you cry. 12. You’ll start to see yourself as disgusting. 13. Sometimes the blood won’t stop and you swear it’s your last time, but it never will be. 14. Bandaids, Neosporin, and razors cost a lot of money. 15. Sex becomes very awkward with the lights on. 16. Cuts itch. 17. Then people ask why you’re itching. 18. You’re too hot to wear that hoodie? Too bad. 19. You’ll throw away your razors and the next day feel like a psycho when you’re digging through the trash. 20. No matter how many excuses you make up for doing it that day, none of them will be valid. Ever. 21. People will think you do it for attention, so you’ll start to believe them. 22. You’ll want to stop, you just won’t know how. 23. It will tear your heart out when your best friend does it once. 24. Some places feel better to cut than others. 25. Skin doesn’t always grow back the way you want. 26. You’ll feel like a charity case. 27. Some people will treat you like you are one, too. 28. You’ll start to think more about your back up plan for if you start to bleed out rather than college. 29. You’ll get angry if you forgot your razors. 30. Your mom’s going to cry really hard when she finally sees them.
these are all very valid and very important to know
my parents never gave me the sex talk and here i am knowing more than i should
The worst feeling ever is like, “well I’m really fucking used to this happening but it still really fucking hurt”
I would just like to say fuck you to everyone who made me feel inadequate growing up and ruining my self esteem for years. You all suck and I’m glad I don’t talk to any of you any more.
(via hxpiest)
this really works for some people (like 10-30 new followers) so give it a try!
Seven years ago I remember thinking that my life could not get any worse. I was so uncomfortable as I went through puberty and my body started changing. I was failing school, and I was a drug addict. I spent years attempting to take my own life and even spent some time in the hospital.
Five years ago I came out to my parents as gay and tried to bring home my first girlfriend. That entirely ended my relationship with my strict, abusive father. He told me that if he could exchange me for a “better” child, he would.
Three years ago I packed a suitcase and moved across the country to live with a girl I met online. The relationship turned out to be really emotionally abusive and I became isolated very quickly. When the relationship ended I spent four months homeless, sleeping in parks and showering about once a month.
About a year and a half ago I met my current girlfriend and her 5 year old daughter. I moved in with them and eventually came out as transgender. It was hard at first, but they truly accepted me for who I am and encouraged me through therapy and doctors visits.
Today I am nine months on testosterone, in a stable office job making very good pay, living in a safe part of my city, and happy.
I have done it. I have made it through everything life has thrown at me. I have conquered my own feelings of self loathing and here I am, being the confident man I kept contained for so long.
I know that what you’re going through is not easy, but you can do this. You are all so strong for coming as far as you have. Keep going. Things do get easier.
i miss you so much (via clinginess)
i bet you’re sittin’ in your chair by the window, lookin’ out at the city, and I hope sometimes you wonder about me
this is pretty sad actually
sorry i only like people that i never have a chance with
I am cryingggggg. They are goldd.
This is me on a random Thursday. Puh-lease!
I need this
This is me RIGHT NOW
