SANA AKO NAMAN

Sana.. Ako naman yung iintndhn, ipaprioritize, mag-aadjust para sken, hndi hahayaang msaktan at higit sa lahat mamahalin. Sana.. Ako nmn yung isipn ninyo hndi dahl may kailangan kayo dahl alam nyong kailangan nyo ng kaibgan na tulad ko na kaya kayong pasayahn khit simpli lang ang ginagawa. Sawa na.. sawa na akong ako lahat gumagawa nyan para sanyo. Pagod na ako.. pagod na akong utuin dahl alam nyong paikutin ang tulad ko. Will you take my disadvantages?

The feeling of preparedness and all the readiness I've done to come up with the decision of seeing him again *my ex* with his family AGAIN and to visit their home, my home before where all the emotions I encounter. When I see their house I was surprised because everything was change, I saw him pretending that I was also surprise with his look but I know his new haircut. When I enter and hear the voice of his Mom there's a part in my heart that I missed everything about the days we spent with the whole family. His father was also surprise and I saw his smile because he saw me. The conversations become uneasy I observed their shyness and uncomfortable being their visitor. The beautiful girl who they once a daughter but now a simply visitor. I look around and having my own thought and try to remember the details of their house before. Just like me, everything was gone and changed. I don't know what to feel that time. I'm so thankful that there is a videoke where the sadness in my heart will not be visible. I was expecting that his new girl was inside the house. The girl who took everything to me and now she's living her all life with the new house and with the person I love. We're staying for a couple of minutes and suddenly her mom whispered to my friend that the girl is there. They approached me if it is ok, I nod and my heart was followed I got a little heartache but I still manage to show a smile at them just to make them comfortable and let the night be pass with full of enjoyment. We sung, dance, chat and laugh all night. But I never forget the times we look each other's eye. He never mind that as much I do, I know. The girl is walking out the room, he introduced the girl to us and I give a smile. A simple sentence that I can't barely explain the feeling I get. I'm so thankful with her looks, she's ugly than ever just like the comments I get from my friends and worst to her part, I got so many compliments with mine. Avisala with that. We walk around the streets to buy something to eat. We talked about everything we see and observe and of course the look of that girl. The night was became good because of happiness but never a fairytale. Because I'm not the princess anymore. The worst thing about last night is typing all these things and yes! I'm not fully moved on because I still get heartache whenever I think about the happenings last night. I miss those days. I badly wanted to see his new room but when I saw the wall, I said.. I'm not welcome anymore. Can I get my pictures and the cardpaper frame? Please don't use them. Those the only treasure I can get. P.S I don't wanna see you anymore 😔