Mestrel_ka

you deserve a more tender tomorrow.

yes, even you. reading this, agreeing without applying, hands in front of your eyes. i'll pass this on, you think, but it doesn't apply to me.

i know because i have spent the last 2 weeks trying to say out loud: "i deserve good things." i only get to "i deserve g-" and then i break out into a cold sweat. who am i to deserve anything? there are people out there suffering. there are people out there who need good things to happen. i don't deserve anything. i am just a person. a filament. if a good thing was supposed to happen to me, i hope it passes over and happens to someone more - deserving.

but just because you can endure the present does not mean it should be something so painful.

you deserve a tender tomorrow for the same reason you deserve water, food, or air. you deserve it for the effort of survival. you are surviving, aren't you? doesn't it take a toll from you, staying here?

goodness and kindness and tenderness should not be a commodity; to be doled out in quantities. you should not feel that life exists as supply-and-demand - your happiness does not come at the cost of someone else. it does not take from some gallon of global happiness. it does not promise that a stranger will have an equally-tragic reaction to tip the scales back into balance.

there is just you, deserving. you didn't have to earn it. there is no calculation of time-enjoyed versus time-spent-suffering.

trust me. you (yes, even you) deserve peace.

So much time has passed, but rebel Merlin has returned to my blog

Merlin: if there`s a prize for rotten judgement....

Holy shit that's so cool

Finally “do you love the colour of the sky” got compressed for our convenience

This is now my favorite photo

so my friend brought me a fun something, so i went and did said something

I made them do that

This concept has been sitting in my head for a while now and I just... didn't do anything about it. But then I thought: "What`s stopping me?"

Merlin is an improvised leader of "magic rebellion", who occupies forests not far from Camelot. He wears a mask, barely speaks and is trained with a sword. He helps magic creatures and saves magic users from hostile kingdoms, gaining acquaintances as the time goes by. Merlin makes a point of not using magic during knight encounters to prove that it is not the powers that are evil.

Obviously the mysterious forest figure is a sore spot for the anti-magic Camelot politics, so Arthur is often tasked to take down the warlock-robin-hood. Think of this as a relationship between a superhero and a supervillain: when one pops up, the other rushes to stop him. Scouts and knights are sent, traps are made, plans are ruined, etc.

i may steal this…. once i finish the million other things that i’m writing

edit: i have started writing this and will credit the original once it’s up. this is literally such a great idea and i really hope i can do it justice <333

My writer-summoning-finger-crossing-ritual worked!!!

This is SO awesome! Tysm!