TODAY IS THE DAY

I get to OFFICIALLY resign from my job today and I have so much anxiety about it and have been awake since 4:30 thinking about it. BUT I told my old boss yesterday and he was really happy for me and told me I have no reason to feel bad for leaving.

I have been spoiled because the last two days I’ve been on client visits which means I haven’t even really been in the office. Yesterday when I was traveling with my old boss, we talked about it and he told me he feels like he may be in a similar position because he’s not very passionate about the staffing industry as a whole. We got to go to my fav lunch spot and got ice cream and then walked the Beltline since the weather was amazing.

I can’t wait to come home around 10am and just hopefully lay the fuck down while Eric picks up weed so i can smoke, and be happy/relaxed.

Tuesday morning

Now I know why I called out sick yesterday. This week is giving me so much anxiety and the thought of going into the office today is putting me on the edge of a panic attack.

Thursday morning, you can’t come soon enough.

this week:

I called out of work “sick” today because I am emotionally drained in faking my daily duties with my current job.

I printed out my resignation letter today too and am so not ready for the part. My loyalty complex is my biggest weakness but nothing would make me stay in my current role considering that my new job is the perfect job for me.

I fly home to Florida on Saturday and Eric isn’t sure if he’s going home or not yet and I worry about him being alone on Christmas but he’s doing a good job at making me think he’ll be okay.

I’m ready for this year to be over and for this new beginning. 2019 is for getting my shit really together.

it’s been some time...

but I need to write this somewhere.

I fell asleep too early and woke up at midnight so now I can’t fall back asleep. This long weekend was so necessary but now I really don’t want to go to work...especially because I got a new job (that I’m actually EXCITED about). I don’t start until January though so I have to act all “business as usual” until December 20th and that just seems so hard.

I was negative PTO from when I got bronchitis last month but as soon as I have 8 hours in the bank again, I’m taking a day off. I’m ready for my 2.5 weeks of unemployment now.

Haven't posted in awhile. But having a dilemma. I just moved to this new amazing city and I'm really happy and loving it.....my job however I really don't enjoy, which is something really important for me. Maybe it's just this week since I am in training but I have to be at work by 6am most days and I don't usually leave until after 3pm. I can't enjoy my evenings because I'm worried about being awake by 5:20 the next morning. Ugh idk what to do.