unstoppable force (wanting to be the kindest version of myself) vs immovable object (all the anger and hatred I have inside myself)
The future devil slaps.
He does a silly dance.
Girlbosses his way into a viewer seat of one of most tragic events in the entire manga and sings some silly tunes.
I made a baby blanket for a pregnant woman at work and I went back and forth about it like “is this weird? To like hand make something for someone when we’re like friendly acquaintances not like bffs. God why are you so fucking awkward.” Anyway I gave it to her and she said she loved it and in the back of my head I’m like yea she’s nice and probably just humoring the weirdo. Well she texted me a picture this weekend of a scrunchy faced newborn at the hospital wrapped in the blanket I made her. And I’m like. Wow. She loved it so much she took it with her! To the hospital! To give birth! She wrapped her newborn it! I am just so filled with love and joy right now.
People will love the things you make them. Because you thought of them and you cared.
i was not built for college but unfortunately i was also not built for anything else
Tbh if you're a teenager who is marginalized and feels rejected by society the coolest thing you can do for yourself is get really into metal bc it's a subculture that's proud of being outside of the mainstream, it's got a HUGE breadth of diversity in style, the uniform is black t-shirts with gross designs which look good on everyone AND the experience of going to your first show (or just sitting in your room w the music up loud) and headbanging til your neck is sore is SO life affirming
“She loves deeply regardless of the love she gets back in return, and it is both her biggest strength, and her biggest weakness.”
— N.R. Hart
“She is sensitive. She does not see the world as it is. She's a bit up in the clouds. She cannot fit in.”
-Christa Wolf
“Lonely people have enthusiasms which cannot always be explained. When something strikes them as funny, the intensity and length of their laughter mirrors the depth of their loneliness, and they are capable of laughing like hyenas. When something touches their emotions, it runs through them like Paul Revere, awakening feelings that gather into great armies.”
― Mark Helprin, Winter's Tale
kinda confused over the people calling dream “cold” and “emotionless” because hELLO did we even watch the same show? he literally cries over jessamy’s murder, even chooses to stay captive far longer than he has to, all because he couldn’t forgive her murderer. he grins from ear to ear when he finally sees lucienne’s lovely face again, whispers her name like a prayer, clasps her hand tightly and takes a moment to let go because he’s clearly missed her as much as she’s missed him. he holds grudges like nobody’s business (see: nada). he hesitates to get close to matthew because he doesn’t want another bird to die on his behalf again. he’s just as heartbroken as cain and abel when he has to reabsorb gregory, and is definitely amused when he meets jed walker. and don’t even get me started on his arc with calliope and orpheus. because even in the short amount of time we see them interact, dream is nothing BUT feeling. he seethes with quiet anger over the woman he once loved being used and discarded like a common plaything, he practically begs her to let him help, and at the end, when all is said and done, it’s revealed that he’s still in the process of grieving their only son, so much so that he can’t even talk about it just yet, even after thousands upon thousands of years, and in this essay i will
the thing about dream is that he feels a lot very strongly all at once. he never stopped loving calliope, he never stopped loving nada, but that doesn’t mean that he doesn’t feel other things about them too. he’s proud, he has a temper, and he’s a champion grudge holder. calliope blamed him for what happened to orpheus, and he was furious and resentful and also mourning their son’s fate. nada killed herself after the destruction of her city and he tried to take her to the dreaming rather than let her go with death and she refused him three times, even after the warning that she’d go to hell. it seems pretty petty that he won’t forgive her and release her from hell, but imagine someone that you love, that loves you, saying they’d rather be in hell than live in the same country as you. it would fuckin hurt. yeah, it’s petty to leave nada in hell for 10,000 years, but she thought her city’s destruction was divine retribution for their love, which, as a petty champion grudge holding individual myself, i would kinda take personally. and i’m not holding the hopes, dreams, fears and nightmares of every being capable of dreaming within my being.
dream can be petty and cruel, but it’s not because he’s cold and emotionless it’s because he feels so goddamn much and he thinks he has to do everything himself. the first time he was imprisioned he asked all his siblings for help and desire was the only one to send help, everyone else said ‘i’m busy, deal with your own problems’. then desire engineered a love triangle for their own amusement and dream’s lover cheated on him. like. once bitten twice shy. that level of betrayal from the one family member you think you can rely on, and you’d be kinda prickly, stand-offish and repressed too, right?
fuck, if i were as ancient, powerful, and frequently betrayed as dream, i sure as shit wouldn’t let people know when they scored a hit against me either.
Do not allow them to take away your creativity.
-Maria Callas