idk why i’m saying all this i just feel like this is the only place where i can say things without feeling like a dumb bitch for it...it feels better to organize my thoughts and write them down so i can finally let go of them. i’m just drowning in all of these negative feelings but i keep it to myself cause i feel ashamed of being sad. i don’t wanna put my insecurities on other people or make my problems public. all my loved ones have their own issues and i don’t want to burden them. i just always have this fear that no one will be there for me the way i am for other people, which is probably not true and i support my friends because i love them and not for something in return. but that fear literally eats me alive lol. i wanna open up and i don’t think it’s wrong to crave security and acknowledgement, it just makes me feel guilty to burden others. but bottling everything up is SO incredibly lonely. it makes me feel disconnected from everyone in my life. i’m not really sure how to fix it either. ultimately i guess you have to confront your negativity head on or it will consume you......thanks for coming to my ted talk
hi babies i’m playing some horror games for halloween i’m gonna play layers of fear tonight if you wanna come hang out with me!!
twitch.tv/melongorl
i was in the shower the other night and i was thinking like damn why do i not read anymore? cause i used to read so much for fun even through high school and i only stopped reading in the past few years but i decided to start reading stuff for fun again. i set yearly goal and stuff. i read To Room 19 yesterday and right now i’m reading her body and other parties and the vegetarian which are both good so far. pls recommend me books if you’ve read any good ones lately
This is one of the funniest things I’ve seen
It makes me SO mad when people act like Janet isn’t relevant anymore. Janet is the blueprint. She will ALWAYS be relevant 💗
this is still the most dramatic thing i’ve ever seen
Me
Okay but drop the link for that blonde unit…
LMAO
hewwo im streaming a card game slay the spire might play overwatch with my friends later if you wanna hang!!
ok!! now i'm streaming my bns raid forreal if you want to watch
https://www.twitch.tv/melongorl/
im trying to stream my raid :-)
actually ill try to stream a bit later cause i don't wanna lag in raid maybe the next boss
I really hate doing this, it’s kind of embarrassing and makes me feel bad as a parent, but I’m really struggling right now. I’m having my son on Friday and I’ll be out of work for six weeks. My kids dad was laid off from a seasonal job in December and has been struggling to find work since. He recently found something but he won’t even start training until next week and his pay is biweekly so we are basically looking at living for a month with no source of income at all. I have a toddler and I will have a newborn and I just really feel stressed because we won’t have any money for diapers or gas or groceries in this four to six week period and I hate that I’m spending the week before my son arrives stressing so hard over money! My blood pressure is at some seriously unhealthy levels over it and I’m just really scared about how we are going to stay afloat. If anyone could spare any money at all or diapers or anything to help us out, it would be so so greatly appreciated. I hate asking for help this way but I don’t know what else to do!
I have a cashapp, cash.me/$mamaguwop
I also made an amazon wishlist, it’s pretty much just got diapers and wipes on it, http://www.amazon.com/registry/wishlist/NR4F2F1L6JBG
Thank you guys!!! Any little bit helps!
the only thing about the baby lotion is that some of them are really thick and i hate that consistency on my skin i don't like how it feels. i like cetaphil baby lotion cause it's thinner
I just saw your post about using baby lotion as moisturizer and I’m just wondering what’s your skin type and has it been working for you?
i think my skin type is normal to dry and yeah it works fine for me. i mean if it's good enough for a baby it's good enough for me right? lol i just have a lot of baby lotion lying around cause of my baby brother and i use the organic one. it doesn't break me out or anything. it does the job
hi!! im in an ldr and my bf has always visited me, I've never been to his country bc I've been a broke college student throughout our relationship. But recently I was given the chance to study in his city and he straight up advised me not to? I asked why and he gave me this explanation about how it won't necessarily enhance my employability and he's also busy with his brand that he's set up.I feel insecure abt it..wouldnt he want me to be close to him no matter what?
hmm. i can see how that would make you feel insecure. but it could also be nothing. like maybe he really is busy and wouldn’t have time to spend with you properly or he prefers visiting you. you should just talk about it more. if it’s a big deal to you, you should communicate your feelings of insecurity and that you really want to visit. then you can work out the issues
Tips on retaining length?
i literally do nothing!!!! i keep my hair in protective styles constantly. so i guess that would be my first tip. no heat if/when you do want to keep your hair out? i know thats not the best advice lol but its what i do.