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Dreamers, you see everything in color while the world is getting darker...

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A Buddhist story; "Maybe"

Once upon a time a peasant had a horse. This horse ran away,so the peasant’s neighbours came to console him for his bad luck. He answered: “Maybe”.

The day after the horse came back, leading 6 wild horses with it. The neighbours came to congratulate him on such good luck. The peasant said: “Maybe”.

The day after, his son tried to saddle and ride on one of the wild horses, but he fell down and broke his leg. Once again the neighbours came to share that misfortune. The peasant said: “Maybe”.

The day after, soldiers came to conscript the youth of the village, but the peasant’s son was not chosen because of his broken leg. When the neighbours came to congratulate, the peasant said again :“May be”.

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Suicide Hotline:

Depression:

Suicide Hotline (US, UK, Canada & Singapore): 1-800-SUICIDE (2433)
Suicide hotline (New Zealand): 0800 543 354
Depression hotline: 1-630-482-9696
Suicide Crisis Line: 1-800-999-9999
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National Adolescent Suicide Helpline: 1-800-621-4000
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Crisis Help Line – For Any Kind of Crisis: 1-800-233-4357
Suicide & Depression Crisis Line – Covenant House: 1-800-999-9999

Domestic Abuse:

National Child Abuse Helpline: 1-800-422-4453
National Domestic Violence Crisis Line: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)
National Domestic Violence Hotline (TDD): 1-800-787-32324
Center for the Prevention of School Violence: 1-800-299-6504
Child Abuse Helpline: 1-800-4-A-CHILD (1-800-422-4453)
Domestic Violence Helpline: 1-800-548-2722
Healing Woman Foundation (Abuse): 1-800-477-4111
Child Abuse Hotline Support & Information: 1-800-792-5200
Women’s Aid National Domestic Violence Helpline (UK): 0345 023 468
Sexual Abuse Centre (UK): 0117 935 1707
Sexual Assault Support (24/7, English & Spanish): 1-800-223-5001
Domestic & Teen Dating Violence (English & Spanish): 1-800-992-2600
Rape Crisis England & Wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail info@rapecrisis.org.uk
Rape Crisis Scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight

Alcohol & Drug Abuse:

National Association for Children of Alcoholics: 1-888-55-4COAS (1-888-554-2627)
National Drug Abuse: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)
Al-Anon/Alateen Hope & Help for young people who are the relatives & friends of a problem drinker): 1-800-344-2666
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Drinkline (UK): 0800 9178282
Frank (UK): 0800776600

Youth & Teen Hotlines:

National Youth Crisis Support: 1-800-448-4663
Youth America Hotline: 1-877-YOUTHLINE (1-877-968-8454)
Covenant House Nine-Line (Teens): 1-800-999-9999
Boys Town National: 1-800-448-3000
Teen Helpline: 1-800-400-0900
TeenLine: 1-800-522-8336
Youth Crisis Support: 1-800-448-4663 or 1-800-422-0009
Runaway Support (All Calls are Confidential): 800-231-6946
Childline: (UK Only) 0800 1111
Kids Helpline (Australia) 1800 55 1800
b-eat youthline (UK): 08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm)

Pregnancy Hotlines:

AAA Crisis Pregnancy Center: 1-800-560-0717
Pregnancy Support: 1-800-4-OPTIONS (1-800-467-8466)
Pregnancy National Helpline: 1-800-356-5761
Young Pregnant Support: 1-800 550-4900

Gay and Lesbian hotlines:

The Trevor Helpline (For homosexuality questions or problems): 1-800-850-8078
Gay & Lesbian National Support: 1-888-THE-GLNH (1-888-843-4564)
Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, and Transgender (GLBT) Youth Support Line: 1-800-850-8078
Lesbian & Gay Switchboard: (UK Only) 0121 622 6589
Lothian Gay & Lesbian Switchboard – Scotland: (Scotland Only) 0131 556 4049

Transgender:

Transgender Crisis Line: 1-877-565-8860
Canada: (877) 330-6366

Self-Injury treatments:

Other Hotlines:

Self-Injury Support: 1-800-DONT CUT (1-800-366-8288) (www.selfinjury.com)
Eating Disorders Awareness and Prevention: 1-800-931-2237 (Hours: 8am-noon daily, PST)
Eating Disorders Center: 1-888-236-1188
Help Finding a Therapist: 1-800-THERAPIST (1-800-843-7274)
Panic Disorder Information and Support: 1-800-64-PANIC (1-800-647-2642)
TalkZone (Peer Counselors): 1-800-475-TALK (1-800-475-2855)
Parental Stress Hotline: 1-800-632-8188
National AIDS Helpline: (UK) 0800 567 123
Samaritans (UK): 08457909090 e-mail jo@samaritans.org
b-eat eating disorder support (UK): 0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: help@b-eat.co.uk
Mind infoline (UK mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: info@mind.org.uk
Mind legal advice (UK): 0300 466 6463 legal@mind.org.uk
Cruse Bereavement Care (UK): 08444779400 helpline@cruse.org.uk
Eating Disorder Support: 01494 793223
Anxiety UK: 0844 477 5774

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I was diagnosed with severe obsessive compulsive disorder and GAD at the age of 10, but I remember having moral obsessions as young as 5. I would think and rethink answers to questions because I was afraid of I answered incorrectly, I would be a “liar” which would result in negative consequence. My obsession with lying caused me a great deal of internal distress, but I had a difficult time conceptualizing my strange thoughts and slowly began developing compulsions to combat them. If I touched a certain number of items in the grocery store, a “lie” that I had told months ago would be “excused” by some kind of higher power or moral judge. If I didn’t preform the compulsion, my sins wouldn’t “go away” which caused me horrible anxiety. My entire family got stomach flu on Christmas Eve in 2008 and that triggered a massive obsession with contamination on top of my moral obsession. I wouldn’t eat at restaurants for fear of food poisioning. I spent my days at school on edge because of the illnesses I was exposed to daily, or in tears as soon as someone went to the nurse. Recess was a rarity because my work was never done, due to erasing and rewriting every question. If it wasn’t done “right”, it wasn’t really “done” and I would be lying if I said it was. Then I spent most of my hours at home doing homework and crying because I couldn’t get it done “the right way”. I developed a sleeping disorder where I would wake up in the middle of a panic attack and time seemed move at different speeds.

I had a hard time maintaining friendships in elementary school/middle school because of my obsessions and compulsions. I had scabby hands and was almost always crying. I would only walk in certain hallways or chew on a certain side of my mouth and if I ever saw anyone doing something against the rules, I had to tell or I would be a “liar”. It was also at this time that I discovered I was queer, and made up rituals to make me “straight” that I had to preform whenever I thought about the subject. The only way to combat my OCD was through exposure therapy- facing my biggest fears, on purpose, to diminish my anxiety over time. That was by far the hardest thing I’ve ever done.

My mental status has improved greatly since I began treatment and have dismissed doing rituals until times of high stress. It continues to impact my life and my relationships but I am coping in a healthy and progressive way. Not many people know that I suffer from this particular mental illness, and I hope that by doing this I can help others!

If anything, please remember that most mental disorders are not visible. For people with OCD in particular, anything you say to them can become an intrusive thought that repeats over and over, which can result in an obsession!

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Anonymous asked:

I saw your post about saying people with OCD are strong. I have OCD and right not I'm having a really bad moment and I want someone to tell me everything will be fine

galaxies-of-apple-trees answered:

Dear lovely anon:

OCD is a tough illness–it evolves with your brain, so that every time you think you’ve stymied it, it finds some new piece of “evidence” to feed your intrusive thoughts. It literally can be one of the most debilitating mental illnesses there is. But it is so very treatable, and it comes down to you. You are strong, even when you feel your weakest, because that shows that you are still fighting. To fight against OCD is your proof that everything will be okay–you know what side you’re on, and who you really are.

I don’t know what your situation regarding care is, in terms of meds you’re on or doctors you’re seeing or if those are even an option for you. But I’ll share with you a mental exercise that worked wonders for me before I was on meds. Here’s how it goes:

Picture in your mind a room. It can look however you want, just note that there are windows on opposite sides of the room, and a comfy chair in the middle. You are sitting in the chair, maybe wrapped in a blanket or holding a mug of tea. Get cozy in your mind.

Now, when you feel anxious or panicky, visualize the feeling (as an animal or person or cloud or anything) coming into the room through one of the windows. It will cross the room, going past you, never approaching you, and go out the other window. It might come back in again, but it will always go back out. It will not hurt you–it will just take up a little space for a bit.

You can repeat this exercise as many times as you need to. You might need to do it ten times an hour. You might do it once a day. Treatment for OCD is mainly about letting the intrusive thoughts sit comfortably in your head without reacting strongly to them, because they are entirely untrue. This exercise got me through the stretch of time prior to diagnosis, and is still one that I do.

I hope this all helps, anon. If you need anything else, have no worries about bothering me. I’m here to help.

You are strong. People with OCD are, by default, strong.

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The first time I saw her… Everything in my head went quiet. All the tics, all the constantly refreshing images just disappeared. When you have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, you don’t really get quiet moments. Even in bed, I’m thinking: Did I lock the doors? Yes. Did I wash my hands? Yes. Did I lock the doors? Yes. Did I wash my hands? Yes. But when I saw her, the only thing I could think about was the hairpin curve of her lips.. Or the eyelash on her cheek— the eyelash on her cheek— the eyelash on her cheek. I knew I had to talk to her. I asked her out six times in thirty seconds. She said yes after the third one, but none of them felt right, so I had to keep going. On our first date, I spent more time organizing my meal by color than I did eating it, or fucking talking to her… But she loved it. She loved that I had to kiss her goodbye sixteen times or twenty-four times if it was Wednesday. She loved that it took me forever to walk home because there are lots of cracks on our sidewalk. When we moved in together, she said she felt safe, like no one would ever rob us because I definitely locked the door eighteen times. I’d always watch her mouth when she talked— when she talked— when she talked— when she talked when she talked; when she said she loved me, her mouth would curl up at the edges. At night, she’d lay in bed and watch me turn all the lights off.. And on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off. She’d close her eyes and imagine that the days and nights were passing in front of her. Some mornings I’d start kissing her goodbye but she’d just leave cause I was just making her late for work… When I stopped in front of a crack in the sidewalk, she just kept walking… When she said she loved me her mouth was a straight line. She told me that I was taking up too much of her time. Last week she started sleeping at her mother’s place. She told me that she shouldn’t have let me get so attached to her; that this whole thing was a mistake, but… How can it be a mistake that I don’t have to wash my hands after I touched her? Love is not a mistake, and it’s killing me that she can run away from this and I just can’t. I can’t – I can’t go out and find someone new because I always think of her. Usually, when I obsess over things, I see germs sneaking into my skin. I see myself crushed by an endless succession of cars… And she was the first beautiful thing I ever got stuck on. I want to wake up every morning thinking about the way she holds her steering wheel.. How she turns shower knobs like she’s opening a safe. How she blows out candles— blows out candles— blows out candles— blows out candles— blows out candles— blows out… Now, I just think about who else is kissing her. I can’t breathe because he only kisses her once — he doesn’t care if it’s perfect! I want her back so bad… I leave the door unlocked. I leave the lights on.

OCD, Neil Hilborn (via london-apparel)

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“you’re gone and I gotta stay high, all the time, to keep you off my mind..” IDK I THINK MY BEST FRIEND IS KINDA HOT I GUESS KAY ENJOY THIS❤️

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There was a point in time where his eyes lit up when I walked in the room. He used to find ways for us to be touching (and I mean that in the most innocent way) like standing too close or ever so slightly pressing his foot against mine under the desk. I remember when he texted me first and once he even told me he would be my Prince Charming. There was a time when the boy I am in love with loved me too, even though he was too confused to admit it. But nowadays he talks to me like he talks to anyone and he complains about doing favors for me. He says “sorry” and moves away when he gets too close and he doesn’t smile as much when he looks at me anymore. It’s been 2 years since those three words left his mouth, a couple girlfriends inbetween, and here I am, still waiting patiently for them to come again. I realize now how stupid that is. I am crazy for holding on to a boy who has long since grown detached. But fuck we could’ve been so in love.

It’s time to listen to the signs (via fuckyouveryveryymuch)

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What you SHOULD say to people dealing with any of these

Anxiety: This too shall pass, even if that sounds corny and cliche. Your anxiety will subside, you are not dying, you will not die from this, everything is going to be fine. Keep taking deep breaths, try and stay focused.

Depression: You are valid and your emotions are valid. You are a good, strong person, even if you don't feel like you are right now. Things DO get better, and I know you can get through this.

Sexual Orientation: Your body, your life, your bedroom. You choose what you do with it, and I get no say in the matter, because I am not you. I'll respect you no matter what.

Bipolar: The sun also rises. For all your bad days, weeks, or longer-- you also have good ones just beyond the horizon. You know better than anyone what it means to finally hit those "highs" in your life, and I hope that you just keep growing and strengthening yourself through your treatment to extend those happy moments.

Self harm: This is your body and I'll never pass judgement over you for the things you choose to do with it. However, you should really consider speaking with a counselor about this. Not because you're "bad", but because I just want you to be safe.

Eating disorders: It's okay to eat, you have permission. Eating will not make you fat, ugly, or worthless. Eating will make you strong, healthy, and lively. You deserve to eat, you deserve happiness.

Abuse: What they did was wrong, and you had no consenting part in it. You have no need to feel guilty or shamed, although I understand that may be exactly how you are feeling right now. They're the ones at fault here, and the ball is entirely in your court if you choose to report them for that, which you are rightfully entitled to do.

Suicide: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You are valuable and your existence is valuable. There are billions of people on this planet, and even if you think everyone hates you and no one cares, they do and they will. You can find so many friends and loved ones if you just allow yourself the time to look for them. The world turns out to be a beautiful place and you deserve to be alive to see that.

Sexual assault: What they did was vile and disgusting. Yes, you're now left with this horrible, traumatic event to move on from, but your life is not entirely lost. Recovery is possible, and an unfortunately large number of people have to go through that-- but they make it to the other side. So can you, you can do this. You're not dirty, you're not a "slut" or a "whore", you are a human being whose rights were violated. But you are strong, and I know you can move past this in due time.

Multiple Personality Disorder: I'll always love you no matter who you are. I only hope the absolute best for you during your recovery and treatment, and maybe one day I'll be so privileged as to love you as one whole.

Post Traumatic Stress Disorder: The pain of suddenly reliving horrific events is almost unimaginable for me. Please try and remember that although it feels like it's real and it's happening right now, that it's not. You are okay, you are fine, and you are safe. You are in the present here and now, and that past can't manifest itself again to come and physically hurt you. Everything is just fine, these feelings will pass and you're going to be okay.

Schizophrenia: I am real and I can promise you that. I care. Try and find something grounding for you, an object that you can cling to to help you distinguish between whether or not you're hallucinating. You are not a freak, you are not a monster. You're a human being with rights and emotions who happens to be ill right now.

I saw the what "not" to say post and had to make my own variant of that. I lava you

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My heart would’ve stopped

Same.

By just reading this, made my stomach drop

Can this be a book? cus I would so read it.

holy

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Go to my ask on/off anon
Imagine I’m the person you hate the most right now
Get it all out
I will not reply

Example: “fuck you for cheating on me, I loved you” “you think you’re the coolest but you’re just the most obnoxious person I’ve ever met, and you were very mean that time you told my secret to everyone, I trusted you”

Note: it’s okay, seriously, you can insult me all you want, I won’t take it personally.

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― Little Birds (2011) “I feel like something’s stealing all my air.”

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23.05.14 “i want you“ (x)

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Don't kill yourself, please.

If you’re suffering from depression and are looking for a sign to not go through with ending your life, this is it. This is the sign. We care.

If you see this on your dash, reblog it. You could save a life.

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Alexandre Saint Yves d'Alveydre - Archeometre, 1903. The term “Archeometre” originates from the Greek and means “the measure of the principle”. Archeometre is it the measurement of the “Archee” (Universal Cosmic Force). Is it a process, a key which makes it possible to penetrate the Mysteries of the World. It is a measuring instrument of the first (primary) principles of the manifested Universe.

Archeometre shows the original Atlantean alphabet, and is represented by a circle, which has two scales from 0 to 360 degrees and 360 degrees to 0. It is divided into 12 ranges with 30 degrees each. In the individual ranges we can see planets, colors, tones and the letters of different alphabets. The Archeometre is a Universal canon (guide), which points out the relationship between the astrological indications, tones, smells, letters and colors.

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