Things to do...
I am worried about my future.
I have always done things that I wanted to do. I chose things that I believed will make me a better person, things that fed my intellectual needs... But for the first time I feel like I have to make a decision according to what other people think.
I have been committed to do TFA for two years after finishing up my master's program. But this also means I will have to push off my medical school applications until the 2016 cycle; because applying with the intention of deferring a year will not reflect good on my application. Also, after talking with many deans, advisors, they think my future aspirations (MD-PhD) don't align well with my want for doing TFA.
Anyways... there are a lot more variables to this story, but to cut it short... I feel like the things I value at this point in my life is not the best choice for my future goals, and I have to decide what I will be doing... and I DON'T WANT TO DECIDE!
Sorry about the whining, but I needed to vent somewhere...
On a positive note... I am having a very intellectually stimulating time in my lab. I am learning so much, and really getting an idea of what kind of person, especially what kind of researcher/doctor I want to be.