#living with meaning

Purpose is being sick enough

In a sick town called my brain,

Success and talent lay dormant.

All that rules are feelings of worthlessness

Stars of failures and shortcomings fill the sky

The skyscrapers of self doubt, line the streets

Purpose is being sick enough

Success drives by often

But, drives off a cliff into an empty abyss

Cheerleaders line the street

Cheering to the tune of encouragement and faith

Yet, as soon as they begin singing soprano, they blow up and dissolve into thin air.

Purpose is being sick enough

This has become the mantra

This has become the song

Through this, my brain leads my life

And I’m here, barely holding on

My only hope is to be sick enough

The Eifel towers and me

Proud you stand

Above it all

Do you understand?

Don't you not see my appalled stare

As you so graciously stand

Stand you do

Stand above it all

"You shall not fall", cries the mall

Stand tall, high above it all

I will stand tall

I will represent your breathtaking physique

I will think of you as I sleep

I will wake, dreaming of you

I will walk and talk your dreams

After all, your dreams are my dreams!

I will be proud, I will be looked at with envy

All my sadness replaced

Slowly, the dream me is being consumed

Taken over by a violent disease

I can not differentiate me from you

It is all one big halabalo

Why aren't you bringing the happiness I seek?

How can I run from you?

Please help me see the light

Bring me the truth amongst all these lies

The beauty in the growth😻 (at Cattus Island County Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/CH9e_c9LelmT75VjCRcJVThRNoCbY5hkPjqW540/?igshid=r40npv95nui4

Skies are dark

Hope seems to sink

What to embark?

I can't even think

I look to the park

I can't help but wink

I know that one day I can make a mark!

Just hangin out with my girl😉😉

Help!!!