madre de todos los líos

Dear friend, yesterday was tough. Im still left feeling very confused and upset but hey im alive still and thats a blessing itself. I wish i had replied sooner. Maybe we wouldnt have been in this mess. I wish i wouldve just bit my tongue once more so i wouldnt have set off your anxiety. I always worried about doing that, anxiety is never fun and i always hated giving you that feeling. But you were right, there were inconsistency on both parts. I got caught up with my own life that i forgot in the moment how to be the friend you needed. I guess that drift was very visible. I was just to scared to acknowledge it. We did establish that things would be different this time around. I guess i was so traumatized from the last times that i let fear run my actions. Sucks that we ended up here again anyways. I still never got an answer on what was said, the post was gone before i could see it. Its been tough at home. Me and him havent been talking. Ive been angry.. Its been pretty bad, i dont think its ever been like this but i could be wrong. It might just be my broken heart talking. Today marks the 7th day of me crying, i miss you. Ive been missing you. But i'll stay sending my love and support to your way. I know its hard to see what life holds in the future but i know that i cherish everything from the good and the bad. I really did love you. Youre my best friend..