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Brainspazzing is like brainstorming, but spazzier.

@mbrainspaz / mbrainspaz.tumblr.com

Creator of the webcomic 'Black Magic' • traveling the world when I can • living wherever I land • any pronouns are grand •
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li'l reminder that I have a patreon that helps support the creation of my comic (aka my life's work). Patreon funds help cover my monthly Adobe subscription (60$), Annual Astropad (for drawing on tablet) subscription (78$), and other art tech updates. My full time ranch job (barely) covers my cost of living and my freelance work goes toward my 'maybe I can buy a shed to live in in 10-20 years' fund.

The recent Patreon updates have been pretty nice and I'm starting to use the platform more than I used to in hopes of engaging with more fans/supporters. For anyone just tuning in, Black Magic is a long form urban fantasy adventure about a notorious teenage sorcerer outlaw and his dragon-dad on a mission to rescue/kidnap an unsuspecting high school student from Virginia. It's a story about found family, dragons, scary cave monsters, dangerous cults, refugees, and rebelling against empires with with power of rainbow magic.

Black Magic will always be free to read on Webtoon and all my art social medias. On youtube I've got videos showing my process for every page.

If YOU are an independent comic artist please reblog and share info and links for your comic project.

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nyctoheart

movies where someone hears an important message only once and retains all the details….

girl if that were me, we’d be fucked. I have to reread emails like 4 times.

if it were me having to repeat my dead father’s instructions on destroying the death star:

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I was in a college psych class, and the teacher was doing some kind of exercise about memory, patterns, and retention. He began with, “for instance, if I asked you what number the first letter of your name is in the alphabet, you wouldn’t be able to tell me right aw–” “Ten,” I said. “What?” “J. J is ten,” I said again. He stared at me. “I happened to learn it while looking at the alphabet when I was five or six, and it just stayed in my brain,” I told him. Then we did an exercise on retention. “I’m going to tell you a story,” he said, “and then I’m going to send you out of the room for five minutes, and when you come back, you have to repeat as much of the story back to me as possible.” He told me a long and meandering story with no plot or structure, just a random series of events, place names, actions, etc. Then he sent me out of the room. I looked at the wall for a while. He called me back in five minutes later, stood me up in front of the class, and asked me to repeat “just as much of the story as you remember.” Apparently while I’d been gone he’d been telling the class about how eyewitness accounts aren’t reliable because people don’t remember things well after a certain period of time. So I told his story back to him– not verbatim, but certain phrases were exact– and watched the consternation in his face as I accidentally blew up his (valid! and extensively studied!) lesson about how bad people’s retention is. “It’s like a song,” I tried to explain to him, and the class. “Or a poem. Every part of the story has a little tag to remember it. I looked at the chalkboard while you were saying this part. My leg itched while you were saying that part. A chair squeaked during the next part. Then I just have to come back and go over all the sensations that I had while you were” “Sit down,” he said. I sat. Turns out I’m Autisms Georg adn should not have been counted

ADHD version: A friend asked, on a field trip, why I knew the scientific name for Caltha palustris, “Well, we did that [one week long] field ID course [three years previously] and we saw it in one of the bogs”.

This, I was informed, is very much not a normal reason to remember the scientific name of a plant for the rest of your life.

It took me five whole years to learn when my partner’s birthday is.

I can remember specific details about games I played over two decades ago that I have not played since.

I once forgot it was my birthday. On my birthday. And when my sister (Who lived several hours away) jumped out of hiding and yelled happy birthday, I looked around to see who she was talking to.

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I confused many many doctors when my mother had her traumatic brain injury and I kept explaining to my family how brain injuries work and why the neurosurgeons were doing specific things and the doctors were like are you a med student and I’m like no I write fanfic

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mbrainspaz

Reminds me of the time I was standing in a courtyard in a Buddhist temple and our tour guide pointed at the trees and said 'who knows what kind of tree this is?' and I just answered "Ginkgo biloba" out of nowhere. The class all turned to look at me like 'what the hell?' and I had to explain that my mom gave me her botany textbook to color when I was six years old.

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'Souvenir Souvenir' and facing the West's legacy of colonialism

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Souvenir Souvenir is a short documentary animation by 2011 Oscar nominee animation director Bastien Dubois, laying out a story of war trauma, family conflict, creative process and filial love. As the world’s governments continue to refuse to call for a permanent ceasefire for the slaughter taking place in the Gaza Strip, the film makes a vital case for facing the horrors of colonialism…

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sometimes the app will open and send me to a random post and I’ll read the first few lines and think “wow, what a freak” before I realize that the OP is me

one time I dropped my groceries on the sidewalks and screamed because I thought a guy was running at me. it was my own shadow

a couple months ago I heard a voice and got scared that there was a stranger in my room before I recognized it as my own thought

I’m like a shitty horse

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xinakwans

do i have to tap the sign

zionism and being jewish are not the same fucking thing. claiming that hollywood is all controlled by jewish people is spreading dangerous conspiracy rhetoric that further harms jewish people. are people being removed and fired from jobs in hollywood for being pro palestine? yes. is that because of all jewish people? no it’s fucking not. it is because of zionists. and zionists are not all jewish people and not all jewish people are zionist. if you start claiming FAMOUSLY ANTISEMITIC radio talk show hosts are “making points” because of the state of hollywood YOU ARE PROLONGING DANGEROUS RHETORIC

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I love when newspapers are like "why are people so pessimistic about the economy when stocks are up and inflation is slowing?" Maybe because stocks mean next to nothing to the average person? Maybe because inflation slowing down still leaves it astronomically high when wages haven't kept up pace? Maybe because rents and housing in general have increased far beyond normal inflation and people are only left with the choice to pay up or be homeless? Maybe because most people's lives are still a complete hellscape in the real world regardless of the theoretical numbers on your little spreadsheet????

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depsidase

10h

"In the instance an employer makes an illegal request for a photograph as part of a job application, you may submit a complaint to the United States Equal Employment Opportunity Commission." Successful violation fee collections are paid partially to the one who suffered the violation, which in many cases exceeds a year of work at these shit jobs. There's only two weak points to a corporation, and those are in the budget and in the supply chain. Hit them where it hurts.

Fucking word.

Learn your rights!

AUTO REBLOG IN CASE YOU MISSED THIS THE 1ST TIME AROUND.  It is important to KNOW YOUR RIGHTS.

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frodolives

1850s Tumblr Dashboard Simulator

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It really makes me sick to see people giving money to penny weeklies when Franklin's expedition STILL has not been found 😭 There are good men out there trapped in unimaginable temperatures and literally all that's needed is a little more funding for another rescue mission yet all you guys seem to care about are your vulgar little stories...

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the franklin expedition is dead as hell

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Disgraceful thing to say but I'd expect nothing less from a M*lville fan

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👨🏻‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻 hartgrindisreal

Sorry for posting so much about Tom Gradgrind/James Harthouse from Hard Times lately. It turns out that I was getting arsenic poisoning from my wallpaper? Anyway I took a seaside stroll and I'm normal now. Check your walls y'all

#whyyy did i assume they were committing unlawful actions together like where did i even get that from lol #hard times isn't even that good by dickens standards tbh

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Just painted this

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RIP Napoleon... you may have been unable to conquer Alexander's Russia but you sure as hell conquered Alexander's bed

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HERITAGE POST

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How does this have less than 100k notes you could literally not avoid this post back in the 20s lol

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poets just aren't dying young in mysterious water-related incidents like they used to :/

#as useless and degenerate as i find 'the living poets' and i'm glad we're finally moving on from them #i have to agree with op in this respect

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I finally got a daguerreotype of myself ^_^ Porcelain urn for scaling

📜 bartlebi-thescrivener

i think i hauve consumption

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🐋 whaler4life

They found oil in the ground??? WTF. THIS IS LITERALLY THE WORSTTTT. FUCK MY LIFE FOR REAL THIS TIME

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I swear this website has 0 reading comprehension skills. Darwin NEVER claimed we "evolved" from apes like if one of you guys actually bothered to open his new book you'll see all his arguments are backed up by evidence. He actually makes a lot of sense

#sure there's nuance like i don't fully agree with all of it #but his general theory of natural selection seems pretty sound imo

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Of course these are the finalists lmao this website is so predictable. Anyway vote Heathcliff if you dont i'm going to assume you're a phrenologist

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It's not problematic to acknowledge the fact that Heathcliff was a brute like he literally killed dogs in case you forgot. Anyway #rochestersweep

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I love the implication here that Rochester never did anything cruel either. He literally locked his wife in the attic and lied to Jane about it 😭 like that was a pretty significant thing that happened

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And? God forbid women do anything

#why'd you have to pit two bad bitches against each other #anyway i'm not attracted to men but still went with rochester #bc in terms of living quarters thornfield hall > wuthering heights easily

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👨🏻‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻 hartgrindisreal

Not the Russian tsar dying immediately after hartgrind became canon

#i know dickens hasn't technically confirmed it yet but like. SOMETHING was strongly implied ok #see: my previous post #dickensposting

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👨🏻‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻 hartgrindisreal

LORD HELP ME. THE BODY LANGUAGE. THE WAY THEY'RE LOOKING AT EACH OTHER. AHHHHHH

#this installment!!! im-- #dickensposting #i can't fucking cope #dickens wants to KILL us he wants us DEAD....

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⭐️ newamerican

Hi guys sorry I haven't been posting lately it's been so difficult getting to California 💀 I'm finally here now though just need to find a pickaxe and soon I'll be digging! :-) wish me luck lol

#gold #gold rush #gold rush grind #california #adventure

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I think that if you asked Shaggy what his gender was he'd say "you're, like, livin' in a prison of your own creation, man" and then eat a huge sandwich in one bite

obsessed with this interaction

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[ID: An edited version of YouTube's anti-adblock popup. It says:

"Going to pee during the ad break violates YouTube's Terms of Service

  • It looks like you selfishly left the room while our ads were playing. Don't you konw that by watching youtube you entered into a [caps] contract [end caps]?!
  • We killed the competition by operating at a loss for a decade. We paid good money tobe the only game in town.
  • Now that there are no other options, we can start to make that money back however we like. So turn your webcam on so our advertisers know you're paying attention"

Under that there's two option buttons, one says "Let us program our brain" and the other says "Foot the bill directly". end ID]

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Scott Pilgrim is, I think, the best example I can think of for establishing a setting's Nonsense Limit. The setting's Nonsense Limit isn't quite "How high-fantasy is this". It's mostly a question of presentation, to what degree does the audience feel that they know the rules the world operates by, such that they are primed to accept a random new element being introduced. A setting with a Nonsense Limit of 0 is, like, an everyday story. Something larger than life, but theoretically taking place in our world, like your standard spy thriller action movie has a limit of 1. Some sort of hidden world urban fantasy with wizards and stuff operating in secret has a nonsense limit around 3 or 4. A Superhero setting, presenting an alternate version of our world, is a 5 or 6. High fantasy comes in around a 7 or so, "Oh yeah, Wizards exist and they can do crazy stuff" is pretty commonly accepted. Scott Pilgrim comes in at a 10. If you read the Scott Pilgrim book, it starts off looking like a purely mundane slice of life. The first hint at the fantastical is Ramona appearing repeatedly in Scott's Dreams, and then later showing up in real life. When we finally get an explanation, it's this:

Apparently Subspace Highways are a thing? And they go through people's heads? And Ramona treats this like it's obscure, but not secret knowledge. Ramona doesn't think she's doing anything weird here. At this point, it's not clear if Scott is accepting Ramona's explanation or not, things kind of move on as mundane as ever until their Date, when Ramona takes Scott through subspace, and he doesn't act like his world was just blown open or anything, although I guess that could have been a metaphor. there's a couple other moments, but everything with Ramona could be a metaphor, or Scott not recognizing what's going on. Maybe Ramona is uniquely fantastical in this otherwise normal world. And then, this happens

Suddenly, a fantastical element (A shitty local indie band finishing their set with a song that knocks out most of the audience) is introduced unrelated to Ramona, and undeniably literal. We see the crowd knocked out by Crash and The Boys. but the story doesn't linger on the implications of that, the whole point of that sequence is to raise the Nonsense Level, such that you accept it when This happens

Matthew Patel comes flying down onto the stage, Scott, who until this point is presented as a terrible person and a loser, but otherwise is extremely ordinary, proceeds to flawlessly block and counter him before doing a 64-hit air juggle combo. Scott's friends treat this like Scott is showing off a mildly interesting party trick, like being really good at darts. The establish that Scott is the "Best Fighter in the Province", not only are street-fighter battles a thing, Scott is Very Good at it, but they're so unimportant that being the best fighter in the province doesn't make Scott NOT a loser. So when Matthew Patel shows off his magic powers and then explodes into a pile of coins, we've established "Oh, this is how silly the setting gets". It's not about establishing the RULES of the setting so much as it is about establishing a lack of rules. Scott's skill at street-fighter battles doesn't translate to any sort of social prestige. Ramona can access Subspace Highways and she uses it to do a basic delivery job. It doesn't make sense and it's clear that it's not supposed to. So later on, when Todd Ingram starts throwing around telekinesis, and the explanation we're given is "He's a Vegan" , you're already so primed by the mixture of weirdness and mundanity that rather than trying to incorporate this new knowledge into any sort of coherent setting ruleset, you just go "Ah, yeah, Vegans".

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raddagher

hello google chrome refugees

don't use any of these browsers, they're also chrome

Here are my favorite firefox plugins for security/anti-tracking/anti-ad that I recommend you get

please get off chrome google is currently being investigated for being an Illegal Monopoly so get outta there okay love you bye

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mbrainspaz

working from home

1 PM : a whole afternoon of productivity lies ahead

2 PM : set up computer and stare at the screen while my soul writhes inside the husk of my tired body

3 PM : call somebody to complain about not getting any work done and get zero sympathy

4 PM : yell, do push-ups, yell some more

5 PM : wrestle with dogs

6 PM : watch a TV episode

7 PM : interpretive dance at the dogs while they stare in disbelief until they lose their nerve and bark at me

8 PM : dinner & a dog walk

9 PM : start working

10 PM : still working– wow this is easy

11 PM : work done. Now… feel like crap ‘cause it should have taken 2 hours instead of 10.

ADHD. I have ADHD.

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mbrainspaz

I have one day left to complete an important art commission that will take me at least 9 hours so naturally, after months of feeling no desire to write whatsoever, I suddenly feel like I will die if I do not open Word this instant and write until my hands fall off.

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a little worrying, as I find myself getting closer to a handful of new people, to find myself thinking ‘I wonder if I should warn them about me?’ If not me, then ‘maybe I should admit to having super-villain parents, and I can’t say it hasn’t affected me.’ I keep thinking about what wholesome kind people they seem to be and psyching myself out. To be rejected by someone I actually admired would hurt a lot more. One of them kind of gets it at least. They’re still so sweet and haven’t shown a speck of meanness. I just live in fear of conversations like one from the other day where I mentioned dumpster diving and my date and their friend went off about their long past of collecting for charity and working on political action committees or something. Love that for them but what could they ever see in me, a disgraced henchman? My parents were soldiers for the evil empire and I haven’t helped many people since escaping their death cult. I can barely keep myself together. But hey at least I’ve finally found 3 or 4 people in south texas who believe white supremacy exists and is a problem. The odds of achieving that were not in my favor.

I’ve had old friends tell me I’m being ridiculous and should give myself more grace. I know better than to sabotage myself. I do wish I could reconnect with some of my more spiteful abrasive friends but they’ve been dodging my calls for a couple years now.

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taking stock of how feminine I want to look on any given day like an old sailor testing the winds. gender forecast

#licks my thumb and sticks it out the window to see which way the gender is blowing