That's it do I have to say more not much played some games. That was fun, ate some cereal that was cool to. Now at work listening to podcasts. This is my life and that's not a bad thing. Do I want it to be more? Yes I do. How? That I don't know. All I can do for now is just do what I do and let life happen to me and hope for a hell of a ride.
Today was a big day for me. Yup I got a new "skinny belt" so don't worry world you won't be seeing my butt anytime soon. Now for the back story about a month ago my old skinny belt broke. Not cuz I'm a tubby it was just old. So I had to use my "fat" belt and that was cool till I started to loose weight again. So after much deliberation I went with the Grip 6 "ninja" that mean it's just black on black. Now I can tell you after 8 hours of hardcore work my pants have stayed up all day.
Fucked up way to start this one but I promise there is a point to it. So after we went to show my oldest his class room *wipes tear* because he starts class tomorrow. We get home and I have a headache no big surprise there I've been having a lot recently. Anyway I go to get some aspirin and my youngest distracts me for a second and I grab my antidepressants and as I swallowing the pill, the second pill I took in two hours I realized what I did. Now am I going to die no. Will I still have a headache yes. Any way
Life is full of changes. No shit right? Well what's been in my head today is how do you control said changes. Is that a question that can be answered? I don't think you can, I'd like to try it seems like in my life I've only been able to do that a hand full of times. Those times have been the happiest times of my life.
Slime rancher on the Xbox one is one of those games that... I don't want to say make me feel good maybe a better thing to say is how it puts me in a mind set that I have not been in for a very long time. Other than a couple of TV shows that take me out of reality for a short time, it's been video games that have been doing the work more often than not.
I really just don't know what I want to do anymore. Heck even just writing these post that no one ever reads, just don't seem appealing anymore. That being said I want to so something. Ok so let's look at what I do, do.... That don't look right but I'm cool with that. Anyway one thing I do is go to the gym. Ok fitness good eating and a whole lot of no drive to do it on any regular basis. Ok then something that's pretty obvious is social media. Cool I like being noticed ok when was the last time I posted anything on Instagram?
It's been a long time since my last post so what's been going on? Well a new phone for one thing and trying to decide if I needed to download this app. Obviously I decided to do it because I like this out let. Yeah I have the YouTube and yes I have vid.me but this feels better, and I don't know why I just do. So what am I going to be doing here in the future. Simple more videos don't know why no one is watching them. Much like this I guess it just feels good to do. Well for now that's all I got to say I guess.
At the ripe old age of thirty-five I'm sitting here in my favorite chair, bones aching slightly hungover wondering where has the time gone. Today four years ago my first son was born, and in that instant my life changed for ever, And I would not change a thing. Wow 4 years with plenty of ups and downs, lefts and rights. Never have I been more happy and sad. What I don't recall people ever telling me is how much children are contradictions on themselves, and how that's going to be the hardest and easiest part about having them.
Ok so I'll be the 1st to say I got issues and I'm sure I've said that tons before.
As 2016 is coming to an end I've got a lot to say
I still can't figure out why I always want to write when I'm in a bad mood. I really need to get back on my meds. I need stronger meds. Well at least I have some good podcasts to keep my mind occupied.
So I sit here and down my 3rd 22oz beer from my local watering hole and I can't help but think why am I doing this. Yes the beer is outstanding, yes the service is amazing. But I've been here almost every day sense they've opened. Nothing is new. Nothing is special. But I have the buzz and that's it. Am I happy? I don't know but all I can think is how much better I could be doing with a beer. Look this is the realist I've ever been. Every person in there right mind would look at my life and say what's your problem? You have a great life! And all I can say is I don't know. I just don't know. I really wish I had some one to talk to. I know other people have there problems. So I don't know what I'm looking for
I’ve probably said this already three or four times but it’s nice, heck even amazing not working for the hyatt anymore. I do miss the F&B industry but not that location. Now am I saying that I love my current I will not go that far. But what I will say is its acceptable and because of that this is the happiest I’ve been in a long time.
Ok so I know I've been doing super good in the past three months. But does anyone else have problems with "friends" being FRIENDS I can't help but think what I'm doing wrong. So what I've come up with is a bit of an idea that might make me seem like an ass. But I don't fucking care this is my blog so go fuck your slef. What I'm thinking is the people I try to make my "friends" are more fucked up then I am. And in my opinion that's saying a lot and that's what really hurts? I don't know if that's the statement I'm trying to make but it works for now.
Now you're looking at the title think #wtf right? Well what I'm trying to say is how honest should I be here? I've started doing this because my family never talked and I don't want my boys to ever wonder what's in dad's head.
So I'm coming off of a nice little buzz and the family is sick. Now what I should say is I really do get sick. It takes alot to get me sick and even when I get sick I'm still functional. But the fam tends to be or go out of commission. Now I've always had problems with loving myself but when I love myself like now. Thank you booze. The wife and kids don't feel well. Have I ever told you I don't know what the fuck I'm talking about most of the time. So that being said love me damn it. Also remember some days everything is just purple.
Everyone tends to hate Mondays I say to those people have you ever seen Thursday?
If you did not already know I have a new job. We won’t go into why I lost my last job. All I know it’s been a good thing. I’m not a huge fan of the job I got know but at least I have one.
So stuff I want to say about this job. The big thing I’m proud of is the over ten pounds I’ve lost in just the month I’ve worked here.
some people might say I'm working harder and there is some truth to that but it's not a hundred percent accurate. I've cut out alot of achool from my diet and I'm moving around more. At least ten miles a day compared to five miles at best and that includes the gym. Well I'm not sure if I said what I wanted to say but I did somthing. If you got this far thanks. And remember some days everything is just purple
Anyone with a three month old knows you don't get much sleep. That being said I've been blessed with an amazing wife that has has lost more sleep with child. So why am I talking about sleep? Well I'm old and my body is turning against me and I've lost so much sleep do to heart burn. I know who cares right? Well I do because here I am sitting in my favorite chair on a Sunday morning wishing I was asleep. So what can I do to stop this? First diet is the big one all the triggers are foods I love. Second the time I eat plays a big roll to, I need more early bird specials in my life. Well I think that's it for now. Remember that some day's everything is just purple!
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So it's been an officially a week sense I started the new job and well I can say this. Well I happy I can pay my bills as soon as I get paid. I was looking for something mindless and I was ok with back braking. That's what I got. The problem and you know this was going to happen. Yup I'm going to be negative, just a little wait for it... my Co workers are wet breaks. Thanks for reading and Remember that some day's everything is just purple
