I say a prayer everytime I look over my shoulder. Like a candle I light on fire, you tried to extinguish my flame…go ahead and say it, jealousy, jealousy it burns u up inside this time. Go ahead and spread lies. Don’t try to run and hide.
You wear a veil of shadows, ruining the lives of men whom look you in the eye. Not even the “chosen one” will make you a blushing bride.
Take me to a place. Take me back this time. I know we've changed. I'm running far behind. I've made my mistakes back when you were mine. I'm longing for true love, something I could never find. "All I want for Christmas is You", how much I hate this song, knowing you will never be mine and mine alone. All I need for Christmas is a small start, someone to fix this broken heart, and make everything better than might've been. All I want is a small start to finally fix this broken heart. Someone to make me feel okay. I hate the holidays. They aren’t a big party of my life. I wish I could wake up on Christmas morning and unwrap you and a smile in sight. Then maybe, I’ll find happier days in light. “All I want for Christmas is You”, how much I hate that song, knowing you’d never be mine, and mine alone..All I want is a small start, someone to fix this broken heart, someone to make it better than might’ve been. All I want is a small start, someone to fix this broken heart, someone to make it okay. “All I want for Christmas is You”, how much I love that song, knowing that you’ll be mine, and mine alone...
I thought that you knew me well; I thought you would bleed for me if i wasn’t feeling well; I wish the world would just go ahead and end and go straight to hell. I wish I could take him down, but the badge and gun isn’t worth the bloodshed. I want avengeance upon my foe and cast him straight into hell. Somehow he’s keeping you away from me and I can’t feel well. I don’t care if you’re just going along for the ride or to wipe me out of your life’ I will live to cast you both straight into the darkest depths of hell.
I don’t know why you decided that I was finally the heel; my fears have finally come into reality that you are not near anymore. Will you let him lead you like a dog on a leash or will you shy away from a friendship that was supposed to have never ceased? I will never understand why or how it was a part of your plan to go along with him and never see me again. If I were in your shoes, an engagement with him would be a way to ultimately lose. I want to know how you feel, but you won’t ever answer or be clear. I can’t believe you’re letting me go just because he’s nothing but a foolish, jealous foe.
It’s a chilly night tonight; everything has grown cold and old...just like my heart. I want everything to be all right, but right now is not the time. I watch you go on to become someone I never thought you’d be; I never thought you’d take the knife to me and my heart. The rain is pouring like the tears I’ve shed nearly a million times over you. You’ll never realize the damage you’ve done ‘til one day I’m up and gone way too soon. So, tonight, if you’re trying to find me...I’ll be lying in a freezing puddle of pouring rain and my tears...
I reached out to an old friend the other day. It’s hard for me to believe that someone in which you haven’t spoken to in so long can really turn around and make things right. I sit here on the end of the night hoping this is a new start, and if it is, it really never felt so right.
Maybe you didn’t realize, maybe you didn’t hear; when you decided to find someone else, that was my fear. You think he’s so perfect, you think you shouldn’t be denied in what you’re doing, even though it really isn’t right. Sometimes I wish heaven would call my name to save me from you making my life twisted and insane. I’d cry for you, I’d lie for you, but you would never understand this fear I’ve had from the moment you let him in.
I don’t need a badge, I don’t need a gun, and I don’t need to hear “perfect” near my name. I’m struggling to get by, I’m working hard to live again, but you seem to always break me down, my friend. I don’t have a life, I don’t have any fun, and I sometimes wish you would go back to the hell in which you’ve come. I sometimes wish you would go away because all you are is a leech to my veins. You’re burying me alive and about to drive this man insane. I don’t care if you get hurt in the end because it wasn’t my idea to make our friendship end...
Sometimes I’d like to think you care, but when I need you the most, you’re never there. You’re always off with someone else having fun while I’m here suffering, just waiting for the end to come. It will come back to haunt you one of these days. I’m tired of you never really being there for me much anymore anyways.
Take yourself, take everything all away. You don't know what it's like in my shoes, you don't know all I've had to lose. Today, I feel betrayed. I'd cast myself into the sun if if it'd make me get over you. I hope when you stare in the mirror, the reflection looking back cascades all the pain you put me through.
I'm ready to go, I'm ready to watch you fall. In the end, perfect has no meaning at all. I hope you will fade to dust. Someone's gonna knock you from your pathetic high horse someday. Eventually one day, you'll pay for everything you've ever done to me. Reality will break you in half just as the same way it did me.
I am not too far from broken; as of this moment, I’m severely shaken. It’s nothing more than a short stint; after all, I’m trying to learn how to walk again.
Don’t make me go back in time just to make me be with you. I’ll have an army and a Trojan horse waiting to lead an ambush and rescue you. I’ll fight tens of thousands of men, spill oceans of blood just to be with the one whom I adore.
You can’t climb the walls that you seek over Alexandria; no, she don’t know and she can’t see those who seek her love. Oh, Alexandria.
This city’s a blazing now, I’ve went and burned it down. Nothing but the walls of stone stand tall in this wicked land. They’re gonna need some water and sand. I’ll need some water to douse this blazing flame on my heart tonight. I’ll walk this desert road ‘til I find you.
You can’t climb the walls that you seek over Alexandria; no, she don’t know and she can’t see those who seek her love. Oh, Alexandria.
I’m not ever gonna give up; i am gonna find you! I’ll bring down these walls with the strength hidden within, given by the divine. I’m gonna bring down these walls, don’t be afraid to fall. We'll watch the world burning down tonight!
You can’t climb the walls that you seek over Alexandria; no, she don’t know and she can’t see those who seek her love. Oh, Alexandria. Alexandria! Alexandria! Alexandria!
Go ahead, break my heart and lead me on; stab the knife into my back and cut me to the bone. I wish I knew how you felt back then, so it wouldn’t haunt me now. I’m trying to learn to fly again; I’m just trying to get up off of this cold ground. I’m falling apart in your very eyes, but It shouldn’t have been no surprise. I love you and I always will; I thought you knew how I truly feel.
I never thought I’d see the day, I never thought I’d face the truth...that I’ll never be able to be with you. My happiness is slightly coming back because I’m trying to confide in someone new: she’s beautiful, she’s sleek, she’s really anything but you. I never thought I’d step out of your way; I’m trying to make it through the days saying “I’m over you.”
I’ve got a girl on my mind, and it’s not the one who hurt me. You seem to bring out my better side; you make me want to believe! When I think of you, I can practically do anything that’s set in front of me! The problem is I sadly don’t know you enough to ask you out, so we wouldn’t really know what we’re all about. I love you, can’t you see? I hope someday you’ll be off of my mind and right by my side in this weird, crazy life.
It doesn’t matter who wins or loses; when it comes to love, everyone has bruises. I wish that I could shine a light into this darkness, and I can’t see because I’m blind. I am looking for a higher power from above to show me the meaning of love. I don’t know where to start or being; all I know is I am needing your might to help me love again.
I’m just the shy kid you thought you knew. You think I have a life, but you don’t have a clue. All I do is go to work and then back home; at night, I face the world alone. Nobody to talk to, nobody to understand, when all I needed was just a friend. I don’t go anywhere, dress nice; I wear a fake disguise in a smile that I flash everyday, to make everyone happy and laugh for the day. Nobody’s gonna miss me when I’m gone; you think somebody’s home, but I’m all alone. I wish I had the courage to ask you out, but then again, I doubt you know what I’m about. You aren’t interested in dating me; I date an evil fiend, known as loneliness. Nobody to talk to, nobody to date, nobody to hang out with or to feel and appreciate; I’m just a low life waiting for his soul to be taken and one nobody appreciates. I’m the shy kid and you ALWAYS forget about me…
Talking to you more and more each day is my own therapy, but sometimes it doesn’t help my heart as it bleeds. More and more, each and every day, I’ve noticed that I’m still falling apart; I’m still faltering hard; I’ll eventually fall into a thousand pieces. I want to be in front of you to see my fall; I’m clinching tight to every cost; I want you to see me fall into a thousand pieces.
