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me: i'll give you two dollars
college: .........tuition is $39,000
me: you're good. 2.50
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He was never my constant. He was never someone I looked at and went “I would love to marry him some day.” He was my shooting star. He was there one second, and gone the next. But oh, how I found myself wishing when I was with him.
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I never really understood why it was so easy for me to leave him. How could I doubt it when I knew he broke me. How could I doubt it when he left me numb
(via wrecked-to-the-core)
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It’s 6am while I’m wondering about all the things you did to break me. Funny how I’ve been up all night.
(via wrecked-to-the-core)
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And for days, I asked myself why he didn't come back. It took me a while to realise that I was the one who pushed him away. I was a walking mess and he suddenly didn't follow his heart anymore.
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Oops, I did it again 😁
*chokes on air*
*Loses ability to breathe*
*drools*
*faints*
Reblogging my own pictures, because reading comments like this one always put a smile on my face 😄
I’m always surprised about the notes and various reactions that I get on my bookshelves.
Thank you to all of you, lovely people, for your kind words!
littlebookofstudy
HOLY MACARONI THAT’S THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING I’VE EVER SEEN
YEZ I NEED THIS IN MY LIFE
Source: moluskette
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hipster-and-thoughts
Source: words-in-the-paradise
31 December, the day you forgot me. 11am : I’m not getting out of bed. It doesn’t seem worth it. You aren’t around. I’m all alone.
12:30pm: I’m starving myself. Being in the kitchen reminds me of how we cooked together. Of how you left a trail of kisses on my neck as I made you pancakes.
3:15pm : I’m standing in the shower. The water is washing my tears away. It’s what I want it to do. You aren’t here for that anymore.
5pm: I’m in front of the mirror in my skinny jeans and blue tank top. You said it looked good on me. I’m holding on to all I have left.
5:45pm: I have burns on my fingers from the curling iron and my makeup is on my face. A little more than usual but without you, I feel insecure.
8pm: The first glass of wine has touched my lips now. I see you over there, standing with her. Maybe a few more shots won’t hurt. At least not as much as this does.
11:45pm: I’m laughing at my pain. There are guys around me trying to dance, but I push them away. In still laughing and all you’re doing is burning your glare into my soul, like I’m doing something wrong. The alcohol did what you didnt. It stayed.
11:59pm: I’m dizzy now. My body is nothing but toxins. It’s a minute before midnight and all I’m doing is finding you. But now,
It’s 12am: And I’m kissing a random stranger. I can’t help think of how these lips don’t move the way ours did. Because it’s her candied mouth that you were feeling. And just like that, I’m a nobody.
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Source: these-times-shall-pass
I'm not scared that you'll cheat on me or suddenly stop loving me. What I'm scared off is this: I'm scared that one day you'll wake up and look at me in your sheets with regret. That you'll look at my shut eyelids and wish for my brown eyes to be blue. That instead of pushing my hair out of my face, you'll stare at it in disgust and think about what a mess you got yourself into. It scares me that maybe you'll then turn your back towards me and hate all my scars and cringe at my absurd body. And that you'll pick fights and jealousy at the pickiest of moments. It scares me, that you might just hate that all the things you once loved about me and probably hate that I talk too much. And then you'll walk into the kitchen to make yourself some coffee, feel my scent in every room and realise that you don't like it any more, and just like that, you've fallen out of love. --- this time I won't bother you // it's like you lost your path
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And I know a lot of the time it feels like I don’t care
But I promise I do
But sometimes life is too much for me
And the smallest things
Like taking a shower or replying to your texts
Like talking to people and smiling
Become harder and harder
As my motivation to keep breathing grows weaker with each breath
And you attacking me with accusations
Of not caring and not making an effort
Don’t make it any easier
So if sometimes it feels like I don’t care
Please remember that I do
I just don’t know how to show you
I’m already lonely, don’t isolate me anymore (via words-of-a-damaged-soul)
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This
is how
to die
tell your best friend that you are over the boy you still miss and watch her fall for him. let the sound of them looking at each other- the silence of it-
break you. let it into your head so it bounces around and around until it makes your ears bleed
who knew quietness could be so deafening.
stay up until four a.m. sitting alone in your room talking to boys that only want you for one thing. let them have that one thing. let the guilt eat away at you until you delete all their numbers and carve apologizes into your headboard.
go for a run at 11 o'clock at night and stand in the middle of the road. pretend like the cars can see you. wave to them as headlights flash.
push away everyone and blame it on them for not trying to stay. isolate yourself from everything and scream your loneliness into your pillow when no one texts you for a week. let the aloneness of life seep into your bones and crack them open. walk on your broken legs to the nearest hospital and tell them you got a paper cut.
this
is how
to die
but i hope
you would rather
live.
taking life lessons from a ghost– Lily Rain (via wont-time-love-us)
•I have no 11:11 wish anymore. No desire, no envy, no want. I'm done with my 11:11 wishes. Because it came true, I'm not gonna lie. My wish came true. And now it's just become worse. So I have no 11:11 wish anymore. It's like I never wanted one.•
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Kind of new to tumblr but here are some of my drawings. You can share if you would like to!
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Sometimes you need to remind yourself that you were the one who carried you through the heartache. You are the one who sits with the cold body on the shower floor, and picks it up. You are the one who feeds it, who clothes it, who tucks it into bed, and you should be proud of that. Having the strength to take care of yourself when everyone around you is trying to bleed you dry, that is the strongest thing in the universe.
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The first time we met
You smiled like you already knew what we were going to be
I looked away afraid of the mystery in your eyes
The first time we talked
Your words were sweet as honey
I faltered like I was choking on all the things I left unsaid
The first time we touched
Your fingers found the small of my back and you held onto me like a was a fragile creature
I clung to you like you were the only happiness I’d ever known
The first time we kissed
Your wine stained lips found mine and you knew exactly how to make my knees turn weak
I filled myself with all the air in your lungs desperately clinging onto the remains of your love
The first time you saw her
You smiled like you already knew what you were going to be
She looked away afraid of the mystery in your eyes
I was never enough (via words-of-a-damaged-soul)