Unrealistic Fantasy

I have not known love,

nor experienced it in all its glory 

I believe to have known heartbreak 

by believing in something I had thought was love 

that love was disguised in chocolates and roses and childish fantasies wrapped around romance and love stories

and I longed to have that kind of relationship with you 

that longing became obsessive 

not only for you but for every aspect of love that we could have had together, something so real and something so perfect became a mere fantasy, a fantasy I so wanted to escape in 

That idea of love consumed my entire well-being so much it gave me pain. A fictitious pain turned literal, from wanting something so much but you know you can never have it. 

I have not known true love, 

and I guess the love portrayed in movies and tv shows and romance novels will remain just that-

love that can only be found in an unrealistic reality, 

I'm just hoping for some type of reality with you. 

-all I need is just one moment 

You still make me smile. Even if you are the main reason why I’m sad.

broken signs

Aries: becomes less talkative, watching others and observing, irritated easily, might give up on things or seem lazy

Taurus: irregular eating habbits, more quiet and thinking, tired, if you see the, crying it’s really bad

Gemini: might come off as rude or ignorant, tends to isolate themselves from others, talks much less then usual

Cancer: sometimes they can become very angry, screams and pushes people away from them, emotional rollercoaster, either binge eating or lack of food

Leo: angry, looks like they don’t want to talk to you and they don’t, can come off as rude, not as talkative/loud as usual, doesn’t really laugh and can be very pesimistic

Virgo: lack of sleep, might avoid people and overally talk much less, looks and acts tired, can be rude, doesn’t care about other people’s feeling at that very moment

Libra: looks tired, will probably try to talk to you about their problems but then will say something like “ahh don’t worry about it :)”, not as happy and optimistic as they usually are

Scorpio: will take everything personally, might be sarcastic or rude, complains, might actually cry in front of you, won’t tell you if they need help or a hug, tries to act normal

Sagittarius: stops caring, almost doesn’t laugh, distant from people, doesn’t really talk, might as well just disappear for a few days and you won’t know where they’ve gone

Capricorn: you can see it in their face, doubts everything they do, wants to talk about it but doesn’t know how, very quiet

Aquarius: can be rude, becomes more introverted; stays at home if they can, doesn’t talk to people, irregular sleeping

Pisces: maybe the most distant out of all signs, might avoid talking to people, can cry often but you won’t know, doesn’t care about things they normally do care about

-Excerpt from a book I’ll never write (excerptsfromstories)

i just want someone to look at me and say ‘it was you i was searching for the whole time’

When you’re in the middle of sobbing and you start dissociating so you’re like “okay I’m done now” and turn into an emotionless zombie

I’m allowed to be angry about what happened. I am allowed to be angry about what you did.

Being able to find someone you click with so naturally is the best feeling ever. You feel like you’ve been best friends you’re whole life, it feels like you’re coming home. You’re so comfortable with them. Maybe that’s what a soulmate is. Not someone who shares every single thing in common with you, but someone who feels like home.

“That’s just how I am lol” NAH. That’s a character flaw. Work on it. Fix it. Grow.

Personal growth isn’t about becoming a different person, it’s about fundamentally changing how you interact with who you already are.

Can I get uhhhhhhh…..uhh.. a significant other?

neck kissing is honestly the hottest, most seductive thing anybody could ever do to me. if you kiss my neck, if you playfully bite my neck, if your tongue touches my neck i will melt in your fingertips.

Kesha, 2017

by Olivia Bee

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