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ashleymacleanblog
You’ll end up disappointed if you think people care for you the way you care for them, nobody has a heart like you do. The the best way to avoid disappointment is to not expect anything from anyone. Fall in love with actions, not words. Don’t fall in love with ideas and thoughts instead of reality, it will be the death of you. Don’t be that person to be nice and apologize when you did nothing wrong, never make unworthy people a priority in your life. You deserve someone who actually gives a fuck about you, because you’ve spent your whole like making other people happy when all they did was leave and nothing hurts more than being disappointed by the person you thought would never hurt you, it’s funny how we let 1 single person disappoint us 1000 times. It’s like we all have this perfect picture in our minds of how things are supposed to be and that’s why we all end up being disappointed.

I have to stop getting my hopes up for things that will never happen. (via confessing-emotions)

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achingchest
we were never perfect. we let our insecurities lull us to sleep. we let ourselves believe that our hardships will always consume us and maybe we were right. some nights, i sit and wonder if you will ever be mine in the way i want you to be. but nights like these, i realize you are exactly where i need you to be. you are sitting on the corner of my heart as if it were a balance beam and nights like these, i want you to know that even though we don’t say it anymore, there is so much love between us that some nights, it makes me want to explode. and it’s difficult to accept that with so much love, we are only friends now and a part of me believes we don’t deserve this but another part of me knows it doesn’t matter. because even if we are never together again, we will always have each other. even if we are never together again, i am lucky i have someone who never leaves, even on the nights i tell them to go. i am lucky i have you. i am lucky i love you. i am lucky you love me. i am lucky that no matter what changes in my life, no matter what we go through, the love we share will always remain.

in any capacity, your love is always enough for me (via achingchest)

fiftyshadesofselfdestruction
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solidifiedsunshine
Self destruction takes so many forms other than a razor slicing into your skin. It is only eating sweets for days straight. It is being around people who don’t appreciate you. It is kissing people you dont care for. It is sleeping instead of feeling. And it is not sleeping when you feel too much. It is an inbox filled with unread messages. It is having coversations with those who only notice your physical appearance. It is having people in your life that are only there for their own interests. It is staring at a screen for hours straight when reality requests you. It is ignoring those who do care for you, and pushing them away because you don’t deserve their goodness. It is filling free time with activities that keep your energy stagnant, rather than doing things you love. It is engaging in old, retired habits, engaging with people who knew you only at a bad part of your life. It is constantly being around others. It is knowing your limit, and intentionally going past it. It is not showering, or washing your face. It is staying silent when you are consumed by feeling. It is avoiding responsibilities. It is acting on impulses like shopping, crossing, or touching. It is saying yes when you mean no. It is letting others take advantage of you. It is letting them manipulate you because it’s another trap you can “accidentally” fall into. It is so much more than hurting yourself physically. So what I’m trying to say is no, I haven’t exactly been okay.

(via solidifiedsunshine)