Oh no, you must've misheard me. I never said morally GRAY, I said morally GAY. As in he takes a certain homosexual approach to dealing with ethical dilemmas. Also he's killed 200 people
can't stand the word "heck" not because i think it's inherently Cringe or w/e but because i just don't think there's another word that can improve on the tone and imagery that "hell" already evokes
refusing to share your post because i disagreed with it on literary and thematic principles
can't stand the word "heck" not because i think it's inherently Cringe or w/e but because i just don't think there's another word that can improve on the tone and imagery that "hell" already evokes
I love it when characters are immune to psychic attacks/emotional manipulation magic/psychoactive drugs or whatever, but for DEEPLY mentally ill reasons.
Fear gas? I already have an anxiety disorder. Also you don't know the meaning of fear until you have a category 5 autism event in the middle of a social scene and know you'll get severely punished if you act out
Depression aura? Bitch I live an economically productive, nutritionally balanced and physically active life that other people rely on like this.
Haunted? How would my ADHD ass even know?
Pain machine? Hm. If your machine's "10/10" is my "4", I should probably talk to my doctor about better meds.
Oh, we're all mutually unintelligible? This is Tuesday with Autism and Audio Processing issues.
There's something very cathartic about a character facing down the horrors and laughing because the antagonist can't even get close to what they already live with.
male and female are not opposing forces that cancel each other out. you're allowed to be both, at the same time, even, if that's how you feel. you can be a boy who's a girl. you can be a girl who's a boy. same with masculinity and femininity. they're not mutually exclusive. you don't have to sacrifice one to have the other. you dont have to choose one to like and one to hate. you CAN have both, again, if that's how you feel.
you know when somebody says this that they mean either a short amount of time, a long amount of time, or maybe just neither
I don't wanna further hijack that poor poll, but the thing about Harrow's schizophrenia is that it's canon. The author has confirmed it, and shared that it's based on her own experience.
It's a pretty obscure bit of canon, so of course there's no shame in not already knowing, but that's why I'm so obnoxiously persistent about letting people know.
Whatever else is up with Harrow, autism or cptsd or any number of likely headcanons, she is also schizophrenic. I feel like that's too important to be handwaved away as a difference of opinion.
It's also in the afterword/author's note of Harrow, iirc. So not explicitly in the story, but in the book at least. Harrow has schizophrenia, but at least on the Ninth, almost no healthcare and absolutely no mental healthcare to provide any kind of language or understanding of her condition.
The 201 ghosts are certainly complicating factors.
It sure is heavily implied in the acknowledgements of Harrow the Ninth!
If anyone is looking for the authorβs confirmation that Harrow has schizophrenia, specifically, it apparently happened at a panel at Boskone and someone tweeted about it:
I know of one written interview where she talks about it, too:
Ciara: Something that stands out about your books is how bizarre yet honest and authentic they feel on a very deep level. It doesnβt feel like you write for anyone but yourself while trusting that those who will love it will find it. In a time where it feels like marginalised authors are more tokenised than ever, and often boxed in by expectations of βminority storiesβ (whether they be about women, lesbians, mental illness or anything else), how do you stay true to yourself and your vision? Tamsyn: Itβs very difficult. There are people who talk about Harrow in terms that are fundamentally thoughtless and unsympathetic to mental illness, and the tragic thing is that I know a lot of people who discuss it would probably rather eat their feet than say something hurtful, but because Harrow doesnβt flag itself up as a story about the mentally ill they have no idea what theyβre doing. They almost need those flags to remind themselves to be kind. There are other people who have dealt with that particular brand of mental illness and one or two of them have reached out to me and gone βThis is the first time Iβve seen this, I understood it immediately,β and itβs wonderful, it will carry me through to the rest of my life. I didnβt intend Harrow to be a compliance test or a gotcha, itβs just interesting to me how some people talk about the book in terms that make me feel tired. But I knew that going in! When I wrote about this topic I had to write a very long letter to my editor coming out of that particular closet, and he and my publisher were wonderful about it but I knew it would happen. I just wishing anticipating it would take away the sting.
Also also, you don't even need to look to Word of God or authorial intent or any of that, it is in the text! When Crux thinks Nona is Harrow, he asks her about her mental state, about her delusions and hallucinations, confirming that Harrow's account of her history of schizophrenic symptoms to Ortus in the River bubble aren't a product of her being haunted - it is an actual genuine account of her life up to that point, one that Crux corroborates. Her schizophrenia is textual!
(forgive me for adding a long personal anecdote, but this post comes to me two days after finishing HIXth and it is so intensely relevant to my recent experiences that I feel like I gotta, if only for myself. All I can say is: that person quoted saying "I recognized it immediately"? INDEED. That.)
As a diversely mentally ill person who has been, of late, extremely, excruciatingly, unprecedentedly, more in the shit than usual-- experiencing hallucinations, fractured personality, inability to sleep, being trapped in looping mental rehearsals and arguments that I have no ability to shut off, having dead and/or illusory people keeping me company, feeling perpetually on the precipice of a cataclysm that will tear me apart, having night terrors and hallucinations of being violently dismembered or ground up, only to be put back together seamlessly so it can happen all over again, completely unsure at times whether I am real or if only I am real or if nothing is real, and otherwise being stuck in a non-linear horror show of fractally repeating grief and heartbreak,-- DECIDING TO FINALLY READ HARROW THE NINTH FELT SOMETHING LIKE THIS:
I kept reading lines that felt not just autobiographical but *prescient*; stuff I was not only going through while I was reading, but also stuff that I then experienced afterwards almost exactly as written. It was like it was narrating the exact landscape of my brain back at me. Which might as well happen, I guess.
Anyway it was very surreal, and strangely comforting; during this time where I've been feeling trapped and alone and invisible it looked me right in the eyes and shook my hand, and that's a hell of a profound thing for a book to do for someone.
call your girl Bluetooth Speaker the way I made a temporary connection with her that she will always remember
yuri is when thereβs themes and motifs and yaoi is when thereβs two blokes who do fuck all. if you reblog this you love trans people
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car conversations so good bc of removal of eye contact expectation. let us all learn from this
been listening to a lot polish folk songs today so β¦ slavic desert duo sketches before sleep :)
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