R.I.P

My forever friend I remember how bad I wanted a puppy of my own, so when I got her I was so happy! She was a Bichon Frise who was super sweet and loved to be with Me. She loved riding on jet skis and sticking her head out of the window. When I was nine years old I got a brand new puppy of my own and we named her Bailey. She was quite spunky and full of life. Bailey always knew how to make people smile whether she was playing with toys or just flat out being her silly old self. She made alot of friends on her journey, one of them being Groucho a pretty awesome German Sheppard. Bailey was always sweet and always there for me from the good times to the bad. There were times in my life when I needed someone and I could always count on bailey to be there. She always knew how to make me feel better. When I would cry from either depression or a bad break up she would be there to dry my tears with her Soft fur. She would give a bunch of kisses, make me laugh, and she would always sleep in my room with me every night. Habitually bailey and I were sleeping together when I noticed she was breathing heavily. After trying to figure out what was wrong I began to worry so we brought her to the vet. A few days later the doctor told us that she had cancer and there wasn't much they could do. Unfortunately we had to put her down. Even though I was crushed I held her during her final hours and told her everything will be okay. It wasn't until after I felt the life leave her body, I broke into tears. I decided on cremation so I could always have her with me. A while after the tragedy it was time to move on and create a tribute for bailey. She is always in my dreams sometimes I feel as if they are real . Bailey was and always will be my best friend and I will always miss her. She may be deceased but she will always be alive in my heart. Bailey is my forever friend. Over all bailey was the best dog anyone could ever have. Forever and always in our hearts, dreams, and minds. She brought happiness and joy everywhere she went. Rest in peace bailey you were a good dog. ♡♡♡

You

I don't know why I feel this way..it's a feeling I've never felt before...but every time I'm around you my heart aches and my emotions go Heywire..I think I might of fallen and it's a problem for you don't feel the same for me..we are a perfect match, soul mates even for we are completely compatible...my only given wish is tht you could see tht..yes we have a lot in common and practically are the same person. I know you like a little conflict but you must understand tht it's not always "opposites attract"...I wish you could see tht I would never hurt you nor say things I don't mean..I know humans tend to say "I'll never hurt you" and then leave..but I couldn't/wouldn't ever do tht..you mean to much to me..yes we haven't known each other for long..but it's not how long you have known someone it's how well yall connect and how much yall care for each other...I hope one day you can see us for wht we should be, but until then I'll be here as your friend patiently waiting and in the mean time be here for you and help you out no matter wht..even if it hurts deep inside...as long as your happy I'll be happy for your happiness means the world to me

Nothingness

I love to deep and fall to easy...I move way to fast, but the pain feels like an eternity ..I'm so tired of being hurt and the pain kills me..I don't know how much more I can take..and I only wish tht I was wanted and loved..I'd give anything to not feel anything anymore.. I'm so lost in betrayal and nothingness tht I'm starting to believe tht I'm no good..it hurts a lot and it's very scary, I'm not afraid to die just mostly afraid of living for when you live you feel and when you feel it starts to make you wonder why..why do we live only to go in circles and Nothing really changes. I think I might be insane...or maybe this is all just a dream and I'm finally waking up only to realize I truly am alone..

Devastation

What is love but only a word..it seems like everyone around me is enjoying all these bullshit relationships and are happy having fun and all I have been wondering lately is why can't I find this so called love everyone is talking about. I'm starting to believe tht it just doesn't exist..thts wht this generation is coming to, emptiness and soullessness..I'm in a world surrounded by sex addicted demon robots and thts all anyone wants now a days and it sucks being a human who actually wants something more then just tht..there ain't tht many people left in this world who wants wht I want..and the ones tht do want it either don't want me or are already taken..

Saving myself

I'm starting to realize tht maybe the reason I've always got hurt is only becuz I let myself get hurt and thts so unfair to myself..the correct definition of insanity and doing the same things over and over again and expecting the results to be different when in reality they always end up the same..so by tht note I truly am insane and it's time I change tht for I'm done allowing myself to get hurt over things tht I truly don't need to be worrying about...it's time I do me and start believing in myself..no more petty relationships tht mean absolutely nothing...no more endless heartbreak

Forever alone

The pain inside kills me  Makes me feel so weak,  I wish I knew what I did Or how to fix it...I think it might be broken...this is a problem and I hate it...why must I feel this way...I think I might love you but I don't know if I want to..for if you walk out of my life I can say it was only a dream...a wonderful dream tht I unfortunately woke up from..now I'm back in the real world and nothing feels right, My only regret is not knowing what I did...what I always do to some how fuck things up just as my feelings grow stronger. Maybe the reason is because I fall to easily and love to deep and I feel it all like a punch to the gut

It's true tht we do meet people for a reason but lately I've been wondering why..is it to teach us all a lesson or is it really just a blessing in disguise