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@maisondemichel

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Haven’t felt like myself lately. My anxiety is through the roof. It’s crippling. I need something, and I just don’t know what that something is. I hate how I look, I hate how I feel, I hate the person I’ve become. I hate that I don’t know what I want. I hate that I don’t know what would make me happy. It’s just all very dark.

Hands.

I'm attracted to big working hands. I don't understand guys with small dainty hands.

Ready for my cute ass Andrew Christian underwear to get in.

Clean shaven uncut men are a walking contradiction. If you are natural, I want you au naturale.

It's like... bitter sweet.

I'm hungry... but I've just brushed my teeth... That's what you get when you cum after you brush your teeth.

That's what you get when you piss me off... I shot cum in your beard. :P

I'm in utter shock.

That's now been twice. Two times. 2nd chance within this week that I've tried, and when I say try, I mean begging, for my "boyfriend" to have sex with me... butt ass naked, dicks out, lube in hand, sitting on top of him... and "I said no".. This is the second time I have redressed myself. The second time where my ego has been shot way down, and just for a little reminder, 2nd time this week. Second time I've been laying here thinking about, if this relationship, or maybe I should call it a glorified friendship, is going to be at an end any time soon. It's been a year and 5 months, and as of recent, it's really felt like we've grown apart.. I need answers. I need someone who I can talk to about this stuff and they have answers. Should you have doubts? Do relationships go through odd periods like this? Is it me? Is it him? Is this normal? Am I stupid? Am I missing something? Should I be freaking out? (currently am) What the fuck?