Anyone’s messages available to let me vent? i need it really bad
There's something really heartbreaking about looking at old pictures and seeing the slow progression of losing yourself. Watching the light fade from your eyes, and realizing you've fuckn lost yourself and you have no clue who you are right this moment. And you're only losing yourself more with every passing day.
"I'm not lazy, I'm just tired. and I don't mean because I've been working hard. Not at all. I'm tired from forcing myself to get out of bed everyday. I'm tired of distracting myself from the thoughts in my brain. I'm tired because all my energy is put to surviving and people don't understand that because all they see is how unproductive you are."
— depression is a disease and it's tiring
“I am fucking tired of staying up late and thinking about everything I have ever done wrong, and how much everything hurts.”
— late night thoughts
I never thought that weight loss surgery would put me so close to a eating disorder that I would start thinking about everything I ate.
Every gram of sugar I consume.
Every gram of carbs I consume.
Every calorie I consume.
Would just send me into a spiraling whirlpool of depression and hating my body more than when I was morbidly obese.
Why me?