hey folks

im gonna be um. kinda changing this blog for personal use, mainly. new url and shit. going through stuff and i wanna.. move forward. so. yeah. if you're following for msm, do unfollow. I am no longer posting about it. i am dreadfully sorry. thank you for understanding.

if you still want to follow my art, i will be posting on @magemelonart from now on. mostly just.. my own stuff. pokemon. whatever. thats all.

may also experience many name and pf changes while im trying to find my footing again.

this may be tmi but I wanna share it because it is something I would like to say.

I've been making sure to wear socks and apply lotion to the places on my feet that I have a very bad case of picking.. to the extent that it bleeds and all this shit.. but I am trying my hardest not to do so. I've been so ashamed of the way the sides of my feet look that I refuse to get pedicures at all..

I'm gonna have a lot of scarring. but I wanna break the habit because I know the risks that are at play, like infections and an increased chance of skin cancer on those areas.

I've also been trying to keep my areas more clean , like cleaning up cups and whatever as well as cleaning a lot more too. In one day, I did the dishes and the litterboxes. the same week I was able to do the dishes again.

idk. maybe it's my new meds. but I am trying to work on shit .

i slept until 4 pm I think there is something seriously wrong. any help is appreciated