You don't respect me, you don't desevrse my respect

Sadly I've learned this too many times

So another sad and cold shoulder kind of day. Why does he got to do this to me?

That moment when you him. And your heart skips a beat. And you forget about everything and your so focused on him. But they he flashes a smile. You look behind you and you realize the smile wasn't for you. You realize where you are and what's going on. The sadness that comes with it is so unbearable. Someone help?