constantly confused

Look what has happened, quick call the police! I'll Iie perfectly still.

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I was gunna put this in the tags but it’s a lot. When i first started going through the process of getting a diagnosis, i was labelled with ODD. I immediately took issue with this, it seemed like an unfair diagnosis based entirely on the session the psychiatrist had with my parents (which mostly consisted of “my child is being really difficult on purpose”), and Hoo Boy when i tell you ODD immediately strips you of your ability to call out anyone on anything, that would be an understatement. I couldn’t even disagree or bring up my concerns about the validity of MY OWN DIAGNOSIS without it being labelled as oppositional defiance. Whenever i displayed any negative emotion the “treatments” did so much more harm than good. When you label someone as ‘defiant’ (ugh), when that word is put on their medical record, that person is never allowed to complain about anything again. Knowing that POC are disproportionately affected with this diagnosis makes me feel sick, i can only imagine what’s being swept under the rug as someone just being “defiant to authority”, not even just in the medical field but as justification for police brutality and mass incarceration. When i say medical racism kills people, this is what i mean.

this is so fucking important. reblog.

if yall ever want like serious advice from me about how to solve burnout as a creative it's like...

literally ignore it. stop pushing. go do something else, enjoy your life, fill it with other things, do what brings you joy in the moment if you can.

go to the gym, take a walk to touch grass and look at dogs and smell flowers, cook dinner, watch tv with your friends, talk about your feelings as needed with ppl you trust, take a drive and blast your music, do the chores you need to do, the job hunting slog you need to do, read books that aren't for research, stop cordoning off your brain for The Craft or The Draft or whatever the fuck

forget about the project, stop thinking about it for as long as it takes to be excited again.

fuckin rest, basically

reiterating this--

stop pushing. stop blaming yourself for not working on creative stuff enough, stop tormenting yourself. remove all pressure and expectation. it'll be done whenever, you'll work on it whenever. who the fuck knows when that is, but it'll happen when it's ready.

stop doing shit that feels bad. do stuff that makes you happy and relaxed.

at a certain level of spoon usage from job, chores, errands, socialization and basic maintenance there will just Not Be Anything Left for your projects for awhile.

you have to let it build back up and then take your time getting back into it organically as it comes.

hope this helps someone else, bc I have learned it the hard-headed stubborn-ass fish-thrashing-in-a-net way and it's been agonizing.

Non-English DCA fans quick!!

Sun & Moon ask you to sing/play them a song in your native language.

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when I say writers, fanfic writers are always included — because they’re just as valid and talented as every other writer who writes and sells original works

"It's just the same art/writing/trope done already, it's boring and overdone" I do not care, it makes me happy. I drink fruit juice because it's my favorite, are you gonna tell me I shouldn't because everyone else also has a favorite fruit juice? We don't have to be mad. Ill buy you strawberry milk if that's what you like and we'll drink together

There are very popular headcanons and tropes I love and there are some that I hate and don't understand, but I like that if it's popular then it means that there is a good number of people who have found something they really enjoy together and there is love in that, even if I don't care for it

No more 'this hc is better' or 'this mischaracterization is wrong' because no one is correct or incorrect, the question here is 'is this fun'. 'am I having fun'

last reblog but you know what you're getting my tags

i know everyone says 'thats a symptom of adhd' to everything on the internet but fr. thats an underactive dopamine response.

Man, I don't even get the relief. I just feel like my soul is trying to crawl out of my body the entire time, and when it's done it's just... done. Nothing happens. There is no feeling.

If I made a really big change, multiple days later I might think, 'Oh, it is nicer in here now that I did that thing. That's nice.'

So yeah it turns out that was an ADHD thing all along. Why did no one tell me this.

I don't even remember last time I drew something on paper for fun. It's just studies nowadays