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i’ll show you how to be afraid of the dark

@luvs1ckletters

lovesick lovecore sideblog in which i reblog what resonates-that is, all things heart shaped (main: @merridelicious)
adult, any pronouns, queer, my name doesn’t matter as long as you call me for dinner
under-16 dni, this blog may reblog suggestive content, discretion is advised

people are bad and all but when a stranger holds open a door for you and when a stranger picks up something you dropped and when a stranger smiles at you from across the street and when a stranger on a hike wishes you good morning and when a stranger hands you a rose and when a stranger lets you have their seat and when a stranger stops you to compliment your outfit and when a stranger gives you the 5 cents you’re missing and when a stranger jams their foot in the tram door so you can make it and when a stranger says bless you when you sneeze and when a stranger helps you with directions and when a stranger gets you something from the top shelf... maybe we are worth saving

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i would like. to learn how to make a good pie crust. to give someone else the window seat for once. to try aerial yoga. to hug my sister more. to learn what my body needs, and give it that. to cup a not-quite-tadpole in my palms and see the first kick of their fledgling legs, to hold in my hands that great gap of becoming. to see myself become a bigger, brighter, kinder thing. to become the kind of person who feels like tilting your head back and closing your eyes, letting sunbeams dance across your face. i would like. to keep us both warm

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i would also like. a pet crow

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my therapist gave me something to work with uncertainty and the future today

“acknowledge & expand”

first recognise your fear, name it, see it clearly

and then expand beyond it. what are the optimistic possibilities in what you are fearful of? what would be a beautiful outcome?

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she also helped me realise that the future is less scary when we imagine an interdependent future where we remain connected to others and it reminded me of this from parable of the talents

“Hector loved Andromache so much, her fate was why he fought as hard as he did. The fall of Troy only terrified him because her destiny and his son’s were attached to it. His greatest fear was the ruins of the woman he loved and his child because there would be no one left to protect them. Achilles loved Patroclus so much, he would have burned the entire world to the ground just to avenge his death. His grief was so mighty he would have ended the war single handedly had the Gods not intervened to stop him. Two loves that powerful clashed in the worst sort of way and only one of them could survive while the other died - and this is the devastating tragedy. The only lesson is look, look at what love can do. It can make you a hero or make a monster out of you.”

— Nikita Gill, Hector and Achilles

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when bjork said “you’ll be given love, you’ll be taken care of. maybe not from the sources you’ve poured yours. maybe not from the direction you are staring at. twist your head around. it’s all around u” SHE WAS RIGHT!!!!!! 

This morning I was walking upstairs from the kitchen, carrying your beautiful flowers, the flowers you brought me last night, calla lilies and something else, I am not sure what to call them, white flowers, of course you had no way of knowing it has been years since I bought white flowers—but now you have and here they are again. I was carrying your flowers and a coffee cup and a soft yellow handbag and a book of poems by a Chinese poet, in which I had just read the words “come or go but don’t just stand there in the doorway,” as usual I was carrying too many things, you would have laughed if you saw me. It seemed especially important not to spill the coffee as I usually do, as I turned up the stairs, inside the whorl of the house as if I were walking up inside the lilies. I do not know how to hold all the beauty and sorrow of my life.

— Cynthia Zarin, “Flowers”

thinking about “you haven’t met all the people who will love you” and like!!! you also haven’t found all the things that will make you happy!!!! there will always be new authors and musicians and artists whose work you will one day discover and love!!!! there will always be new hobbies and skills for you to learn and feel fulfilled by!!! there will always be new things around the corner that will bring sudden and unexpected happiness!!!!!!!!!!!