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Attempting To Survive

@luv4dad

22. When he realized he couldn't help me, he left. and I died

THESE GLASSES HAVE SPECIAL LENSES WHICH TURN LIGHTS INTO HEARTS

edit: for everyone asking they’re called love lenses & they were $20 on lovelenses.com

Bitches really paying $20 for an astigmatism… its me, im bitches

THEY ACTUALLT WORK this changes everything

THESE MAKE LATE NIGHT WALKS AMAZING

The hearts are way clearer than you’d expect and they don’t mess with your vision too much to walk in them

this is how harry styles sees the world

these seem like a truly necessary purchase

question, how do i wear these if i have glasses…?

They’re pretty big so you can probably fit them over your glasses and they also work as a sick ass filter over your camera lens!

I just bought these impulsively

alright don’t be mad but. i never read the great gatsby. i know i was supposed to. yes, it was assigned to us. i even know, more or less, what happens in the book. technically, i wrote an essay about it, i think, once or twice. 

at the time, i hadn’t read any book assigned to me. ever. it wasn’t that i didn’t like to read. i loved reading. but homework took place in a function of my brain that i couldn’t access. i would sit in libraries or at my desk and just. not do my homework. i spent hours like this, days like this, years like this. just not doing what was assigned to me, no matter the consequences, no matter how badly i wanted to be doing it. i just wouldn’t. and i wouldn’t go to class because i didn’t want to deal with the fact i didn’t do the homework. and then i wouldn’t get the homework. so i didn’t do it.

i remember realizing while i was doing college applications that i had actually, real-life fucked up. that it was permanent, what i had done. that i had a C- of an average and no future to look rosy at. and i still couldn’t make myself do things. i tried to submit applications only to realize i’d shoved off the date to the very last moment. and i was fucked.

it takes me three years and two transfers and three new starts before i am actually real-life trained how to study, how to read, how to enjoy being assigned things. 

and i watch parents of my students yell at students for being the same person i was six years ago: screaming at an A-, confused at skipped classes, punishing missed homework. and these students don’t have an answer. they just don’t do things. even if they want to. and they look at me, confused and defeated and without an answer for their parents. “i just can’t,” i hear a lot, and i understand.

parents don’t like “executive dysfunction” as a reason. “anxiety” and “depression” are often misdiagnosed as “procrastinating” and “lazy”. kids just learn they’re like this. that they’re always going to be. that it’s their fault, permanently. they are surrounded by books they didn’t read. and it doesn’t feel good. it feels like suffocating.

today i started “the great gatsby.” i promise. one day, it’ll feel easy.

I don’t usually reblog things that have nothing to do with RPGs, but I want as many people as possible to see this. This exactly applies to me, even to this day.

I agree with monstrous. I rarely post outside of ttrpg ideas and dragon stuff, but this is so god damn important.

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This is the lucky clover cat. reblog this in 30 seconds & he will bring u good luck and fortune.

THIS ONE!!! THIS IS THE ONE THAT WORKS!!!!!

I reblogged him the day i started treatment and 1. GOT TO MY APPOINTMENT ON TIME 2. FOUND A FREE PARKING TICKET SOMEONE LEFT IN THE METER FOR ME AND 3. GOT FREE STARBUCKS AFTER MY APPOINTMENT!!!!!

I’m convinced bc I reblogged this on Friday, got hired at a job I had a million interviews for, went on a first date that went well, and got kissed a billion times so like hell ya to the luck cat

To everybody needing it:

  • I’m really sorry to hear your day sucked
  • I’m not sure if tomorrow will be better for you, but it’ll be a reset
  • You’ll find the courage you need to do That Thing
  • You are perfectly okay. You’re doing just fine…more than just fine, even. There’s nothing wrong with you. 
  • Take care of yourself tonight. It’ll be okay.
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reasons to stay alive

1. discovering yourself (you are worth discovering) 2. how silly people get when they’re sleepy 3. sitting in hammocks 4. long hugs 5. going to the zoo 6. carving pumpkins 7. cute baby animals 8. kissing in the rain 9. singing 10. the smell of baking cookies 11. picnics 12. warm blankets when it’s cold 13. you are so loved 14. octobers 15. staying up all night and sleeping in 16. water balloon fights 17. making babies smile 18. movie marathons 19. foreign cities, languages, people & foods 20. those “this never leaves the room” moments 21. rainbows 22. you will be missed 23. drinking hot chocolate/coffee/tea 24. binge-watching a series 25. slow dances 26. you are never alone 27. meeting new people 28. traveling 29. watermelon in the summer 30. sunsets 31. naps 32. road trips 33. finally understanding what something means 34. late night phone calls 35. listening to rainstorms 36. cuddling 37. climbing trees 38. going for walks 39. doing crazy things with your best friends 40. getting married some day 41. kind comments from others 42. tears of joy 43. drawing 44. cartoons 45. laughing really hard 46. making other people happy 47. sleeping in 48. doing things that would make your parents angry if they knew 49. jumping in puddles 50. getting lost 51. flowers 52. you are needed warm showers 53. fireflies 54. undiscovered forests 55. art 56. really good books 57. finding love of all kinds 58. jumping really high on a trampoline 59. hugging 60. full moons 61. crunchy leaves 62. see yourself recover 63. concerts 64. stargazing 65. kisses 66. secrets and promises 67. autumn leaves 68. knowing all of the lyrics to a song 69. orgasms 70. the smell after rain 71. getting handwritten letters in the mail 72. halloween 73. clean sheets 74. the first snow of the winter 75. petting puppies 76. city lights 77. late night walks 78. building forts 79. smiling in the middle of a kiss 80. people care about you 81. you are important 82. bonfires 83. thunder storms 84. having kids if you want 85. getting hickies 86. sunrises 87. when a baby holds on to one of your fingers with its whole hand 88. going to comic con 89. kind strangers 90. bowties 91. tree houses 92. music 93. solo dance parties in your room 94. new video games 95. long drives 96. being awake when everyone else is asleep 97. eye sex 98. smiling at strangers 99. onesies 100. you could save someone’s life 101. the sky and it’s pretty colours 102. suspenders 103. walks on the beach 104. sitting on rooftops 105. paint fights 106. there will be a time you’ll see that you’re glad you didn’t do it 107. pillow fights 108. lying on grass and watching clouds 109. you matter 110. watching fireworks 111. graduating 112. snow cones 113. bay windows 114. silence that isn’t awkward 115. messy hair 116. when you start smiling and can’t stop

if you are reading this, something good will happen to you very soon, don’t give up

Y'all the wildest thing ever happened today I need to tell you… Mom got a call from Washington DC telling her it was an emergency and she had to call back instantly. Of course she did, and she was put on the phone with this young man with a very very thick Indian accent… he gave his name and position and badge ID and basically told mom that he worked for the IRS and there was an issue with her taxes and she was being sued by the government for 8000$ and should she fail to cooperate her drivers license would be revoked and a policeman would be over to arrest her.

But what the guy didn’t know was that mom went to a prestigious law school and both her dad and uncle are lawyers. She was an active member of the union strikes in the 80s-90s and even had a lawsuit against them be taken to the Supreme Court. She knows the law and the workings of the government REALLY REALLY well, and she could tell something was up. She demanded evidence that they could identify her and after asking for her zip code he gave her the address of her house but she said that that information could be found online. She asked for her social security number or even her email and he said both were classified. She asked to speak to his supervisor and he said that he “didn’t have one available.” She kept on asking question after question that she already knew the answer to as someone with a really extensive background in law and his answers were really sketchy. Finally he told her that “the call was being recorded and if she didn’t comply and answer his questions he would send out a warrant for her arrest” and so she answered a few questions and THEN he said “okay I’m switching you over to my supervisor.” NOW HE HAD A SUPERVISOR.

So mom was transferred over to another man, this guy sounded older but he also had a very very very thick Indian accent. He also gave his title and full name and badge number and then told mom that she had to wire the $8000 through an online source immediately or she would be arrested. Mom was pretty sure this was a scam now but it was so elaborate and they had been so convincing that she didn’t feel right hanging up so she started interrogating the guy, demanding proof that they could identify her, telling them in detail about all of her past interaction with the IRS, demanding they provide literally any evidence that they were really part of the IRS and any of this was real. The guy on the phone started to get really aggressive, he kept yelling at mom for “wasting their time” and “accusing them of lying to her” and kept on telling her that if she kept this up he would send a police officer to arrest her and take all of her possessions. She ended up getting rightfully mad and YELLING at the man; yelling about her background in law, about how he wasn’t providing any evidence, about how his information didn’t line up at all with any of her past experiences, etc etc. She screamed at this guy for like a solid 20 minutes and you could hear him starting to totally falter. Finally he went “I’ve pulled up your house, I can see it right now, I’ll send authorities immediately.” and mom said to prove it and he said “you have basketball net out front, a brown garage door, and a brown front door.”

OUR DOOR IS LIGHT BLUE…

So now mom is really mad and also really sure this is fake but he keeps threatening legal action and she has a job and four kids and these guys are legitimately threatening her so she doesn’t want to risk hanging up yet. So she keeps yelling at him, calling his bluffs, and demanding he provide her evidence. He refuses to even email her. Then he slips up and goes “Look, after you’ve sent me the money I can tell you-” and mom LOSES IT going “Are you saying that if I PAY YOU, A MEMBER OF THE IRS, EIGHT THOUSAND DOLLARS IMMEDIATELY, only THEN will you give me information?? Did you really just say that to me??” And the guy starts going “no no I didn’t say that! That’s not what I meant!” Mom now has me google all of the information we’ve had so far (she’s been on speaker the whole time and I was listening in and taking notes at her request). I couldn’t find any information on the identities they had given, but I did find an article about a huge tax fraud scam taking place out of India that’s conning people out of thousands and thousands of dollars. Mom took the article and started reading it out loud to the guy and he legit goes “Ma'am, listen, I don’t care about all of that” and mom goes “YOU DONT CARE THAT THERE MIGHT BE PEOPLE TRYING TO IMPERSONATE YOU, THE IRS??”

So now she knows it’s a scam and at that moment a police car (highway patrol) happens to drive up. We were getting lunch at the time. She STANDS UP and goes “At this moment I can see a police officer and I’m going to ask him to trace this number.” The guy starts begging her not to, and then she just hangs up. Like… 10 seconds later she gets another call from a different number. She answers it and, ANOTHER INDIAN MAN with a very deep voice says that he’s a policeman from the local police department and he’s currently on his way to arrest her. But he got the name of our police department wrong… So mom hangs up instantly, calls the police, and requests to know if anyone is on their way to arrest her. It turns out they don’t even have anyone on the squad with the name of the guy who supposedly was coming to arrest her, but this WAS like the 3rd or 4th call like this they had received. Apparently these scammers had gotten tons of people just in and around our city alone…

But holy fucking SHIT it was so intense. Mom has been struggling with depression lately and she said that having the opportunity to scream at those guys was really therapeutic for her fjksjdjsjsk. It was so fucking wild to listen in on, mom really really knew what she was talking about and she was so stubborn about holding her ground and refusing to be persuaded and she just completely saw through their shit but they put up SUCH a fight; it was a really really elaborate scam. I felt like John Watson watching Sherlock solve a crime or something holy hell.

Guys, this scam has been hitting in my area. It gets worse.

They threaten to have people’s kids taken away.

It gets worse.

They SWATed people.

I’m inclined to think that if you get one of those calls and pull something like OP’s mom, you might want to call your local police non emergency line and let them know about it.

The IRS will not call you.

Anyone who claims they’re calling from the IRS is automatically a scam.

“There are clear warning signs about these scams, which continue at high levels throughout the nation,” said IRS Commissioner John Koskinen. “Taxpayers should remember their first contact with the IRS will not be a call from out of the blue, but through official correspondence sent through the mail. A big red flag for these scams are angry, threatening calls from people who say they are from the IRS and urging immediate payment. This is not how we operate. People should hang up immediately and contact TIGTA or the IRS.”

Seriously, just don’t interact. If someone calls claiming to be the IRS, tell them (in your most bored-sounding voice) “wow, this old scam again. get a better job, dude.” and hang up. I’ve had to do this a couple times. One called me back, and I laughed at him and hung up. The IRS WILL NOT CALL YOU. Also anyone who is not okay with you hanging up on them and calling their line directly is not legitimate. If someone calls saying they’re from your bank, etc, just tell them you’re more comfortable calling the official number yourself, or tell them you’re driving and you’ll call back later. Real businesses will accept a callback.

Terence Crutcher Another one was killed today. Keith Lamont Scott. He was shot dead sitting in his car by a Charlotte Mecklenburg officer while reading a book. So many black lives have been killed, you’d think you were watching the end of a movie. This list is too long.

THIS is what really matters. THIS should go viral.

#BlackLivesMatter

Source: twitter.com

Don’t Tell Girls

“You’re too pretty to be single” Why is one person’s idea of ideal aestheticism A basis for a relationship status And furthermore What is so goddamn shameful or pathetic about being single anyway Is confidence and comfort in being by one’s self intimidating to you

“Swearing is unladylike” Bullshit Swears are only words And these words do not negate my intelligence, or passion, or define anything about me as a person or my character Men are never told not to swear Swear as much as you fucking want

“Your standards are too high! Just give him a chance” No You are invalidating a woman’s right to say no She doesn’t need to explain herself to anyone She doesn’t owe anyone anything Ever Everyone should have standards for themselves, and not feel like they need to lower them to please anyone Or be shamed for leading someone on when they know it would never work Because that happens too

“If you dress like that, boys will get the wrong idea” What idea might that be? That women might actually feel beautiful and confident in their own bodies? Heaven forbid Because obviously women’s bodies belong to everyone else except themselves

“Don’t frown - someone might be falling in love with your smile!” Why Is it my responsibility to always smile no matter how I feel I am a human being who is allowed to experience pain, or confusion, or sorrow, or boredom Men are never criticized for having “resting bitch face”

“Short hair makes you look like a boy!” This is assuming That there is one certain way for “boys” and “girls” to look Not so Some boys have long hair, some girls have short hair, some people who are both or neither also have hair Hair has no gender Humans are allowed to look different from each other and express themselves how they like Gender identity and gender expression are not the same

They aren’t “real” girls because they were born with a penis Anyone is a girl who says they are a girl Stop trying to undermine someone’s identity They know themselves better than you do Anatomy and identity are different, and sometimes separate Why are you so obsessed with other people’s genitals anyway

“You’re going to break a lot of hearts one day” Why would you ever Ever Say this to a girl A young, impressionable girl Breaking hearts is not a compliment, or a goal Coming from someone who has broken at least one From simply being honest and being myself It is a burden - a guilt that has been (mis)placed on my shoulders since childhood I never wanted to be labelled a heartbreaker simply for existing

“You don’t want kids? You’ll change your mind one day” No I won’t Even if I do, one day, that doesn’t make my opinion right now any less valid or deserving of respect Stop disbelieving people about their own life choices Also, having children is not a necessary milestone for a successful or fulfilling life

“Don’t have sex before marriage - boys really want a virginal girl” Sure they do And are boys ever held to that same expectation To stay virgins until marriage? Because as women are shamed for “impurity,” boys are applauded for “experience” I love the smell of double standards in the morning

“You shouldn’t wear so much makeup” The natural look is great The makeup look is great The anything you feel like doing or not doing to your own face look is great Let people do whatever they want to their own bodies Whatever makes them feel good Why do you care

“Selfies are just for attention” Maybe Maybe not What’s so wrong about liking attention What’s so wrong about feeling beautiful and confident in your own skin And wanting to share that feeling with others We were taught for so long to hate our bodies What is so threatening about finally loving them

“Cat-calling is flattering! Learn how to accept a compliment!” “I like your hair” is a compliment “You’re a really talented writer” is a compliment The gross, vulgar things that men shout at women they don’t know on the street Are not compliments They are harassment - meant to imply ownership and dominance and even violence Compliments should not make people fear for their lives walking home Compliments should not actually get people killed

please boost the fuck out of this.

^!!!!!!!!!!!

I knew she had a degree but didn’t know she was the most educated First Lady.

this needs to be on everyone’s dash…

Michelle was actually Baracks political advisor that’s how they met, I personally believe she should’ve been president herself

Michelle Obama 2020

you’ve been visited by the ✨grandma of prosperity✨🍻 reblog for good fortune and mad cash 💰💸💥🔫💸💰

tips for treating yoself

body:

  • Exfoliate once or twice a week.
  • Let your vagina breathe - don’t wear underwear to bed unless you’re on your period.
  • Change your pad/tampon/etc at least twice a day.
  • Don’t wash up inside your vagina (aka douching) it will tip the pH balance in your vagina and you will end up with an infection, you can wash around your thighs/pubic area but that’s it, same applies with perfumes and other body cosmetics.
  • Use coconut oil its good for so many things!!
  • Use body butters after getting out of the shower.
  • Use tea-tree oil for pimples.
  • Use sunscreen!!!
  • For people with oily skin - use blotting paper around your eyes and in your T - zone.
  • Don’t squeeze/pick at pimples - the bacteria on your hands will only make them worse and will create more redness.
  • Always use moisturiser before applying makeup
  • When washing your vagina, lift up the clitoral hood and softly rub your finger along the hood to wipe away dead skin cells. If you end up masturbating, fuck it.

Hair:

  • Wash your hair every 2-3 days. Don’t wash every day because it will make your head dry, try dry shampoos instead.
  • Use conditioning treatments weekly in the summer to prevent your hair from losing it’s colour.
  • Brush your curls with your fingers to create a more tousled look.
  • Before blow drying your hair use volumizing spray or gel on your roots for more definition in your hair.
  • Use shampoos that are sulfate free as sulfates dry and damage your hair quicker.
  • If your hair is greasy avoid conditioning the roots, just the ends.
  • Trim your hair every 6-8 weeks so you have healthy hair and no damaged ends.
  • Use avacado oil on your hair in the winter to stop your hair from drying out.
  • Dry shampoo is also very good for volumizing your hair.
  • The best way to get rid of ingrown hair is to exfoliate.
  • Avoid dry shaving your pubes, this will cause redness and spots which are easily treated with hydrocortisone cream or aloe vera.
  • If you are to shave, use conditioner instead of shaving cream - you will get a smoother result - that goes for anywhere you shave.
  • If you have a big ole mess in your pants try trimming your bush before you shave/wax it.
  • Waxing HURTS so if you’re dealing with the burns then place a cold towel in the sore area and leave it for about 15 minutes and then apply aloe.
  • If you experience chest/breast hair the best thing to do is pluck the hairs, it’s painful but rewarding.

Makeup:

  • Clean your makeup brushes, regularly along with any other makeup appliances (beauty blenders, makeup pads) in a mix of warm water and a little bit of soap.
  • Use a blotting tissue and then add a small amout of cream concealer onto your eye makeup to prevent smudging.
  • Matte lipstick goes best with a shimmer eye makeup.
  • Wearing white eyeliner counteracts the redness in your eyes.
  • To make your cheekbones appear higher, use bronzer under the cheekbone and highlighter on the actual cheekbone.
  • In summer if you want to avoid caking yourself with foundation - use tinted moisturiser or BB cream instead.
  • Always wash your makeup off before going to bed, don’t leave it on.
  • Always make sure you blend your foundation so your neck isn’t a different colour to your face.
  • Clean your makeup bag out every once in a while and get rid of any products you don’t use - its cleaner, tidier and more hygienic. 
  • Always make sure you have tape and q-tips handy. Tape is great for a perfect winged eyeliner and q-tips are great for cleaning and tidying up those hard to reach areas.
  • Concealer works great for a base for your eye makeup as the makeup will stick to it. 
  • Using highlighter and illuminators on your cheekbones, browbone and cupid’s bow for a “dewy look”.
  • When using cream products like eyeshadow or blush - use translucent powder to set it in place.
  • Kat Von-D lipstick is blow job proof :)
  • Replace mascara and eyeliners every 3 months or so.
  • Don’t share makeup/appliances for your eyes, it may cause infections like conjunctivitis and maybe a sty.
  • Blot your lips after applying lipstick to avoid getting lipstick teeth. 

General:

  • Change your bra every 5-11 days.
  • Always make sure your feet are dry before putting on socks and shoes to prevent fungal infections.
  • Wash blood stained clothes in cold water with 2 tablespoons of salt.
  • Try your own homemade beauty recipes.
  • If you peel/lick your lips it will damage them, don’t do that.
  • Applying eye cream on the cuticles of your nails will make them stronger and healthier.
  • Always carry tampons/pads even when you’re not on your period, someone else might need them.
  • Clean out your purse!! Get rid of all that junk and you will thank yourself next time you’re looking for something.
  • Masturbate. Whenever you can, it’s rewarding and good for you. (yes girls masturbate too).
  • Always pee after sex/masturbation to help avoid getting a UTI.
  • Bio-oil is good for stretch marks (as well as loving them).
  • Save some nice underwear for yourself and just wear your dead old pants when you’re on your period.
  • Buy yourself some nice underwear/lingerie whenever you can. Make sure it’s 100% cotton though otherwise you can get a yeast infection.
  • Test yourself every once in a while for STDs. It’s necessary.
  • Carry a condom on you, it’s not just the guy’s responsibility.
  • Apply a damp tissue to blotchy, red skin after crying, it will make you look as if you haven’t been crying at all.
  • Don’t let boys ruin your day.
  • Use a paperclip to clip the back of your bra straps together to create a racerback bra.
  • Wrap a maxi pad or pantyliner around any poking underwires in your bra.
  • Wash your pillow case every 1-2 weeks to help prevent acne. 
  • Cucumbers are good for dark circles and puffy eyes just place a slice over your eyes and leave for about 15 minutes.

treat and love yourself and your body will reward you!!! 

read it could save you

I don’t know if this post has been made yet but I just want to warn everybody that if someone stops you in a parking lot and asks you if you’re interested in some perfume and hands you a paper to smell, PLEASE DON’T SMELL IT.

i repeat, DON’T SMELL IT.

Apparently the sample papers are being laced with a drug to knock you out. Please signal boost this. It can save someone’s life!

IMPORTANT

please repost to save people idc if “its not my blog type” jUST DO IT

Super important please repost

Who the fuck would actually be stupid enough to smell it though????

some people have anxiety triggered impulses to execute tasks suggested by strangers, and will not properly think theirs actions through unless they have been told what to do beforehand

plus, some people are more gullible than others but that doesn’t make them stupid. they just don’t know any better. it’s not like these kind of drugs are talked about anyway, most people learn about their existence watching detective shows

Goddamit can this world get any more fucked. Ugh. Frankly, I don’t like perfume anyway. But some people genuinely might :’( I don’t want anyone hurt.

i love girls. girls with muddy converse and oversized flannels. girls with killer contour and obsessive use of snapchat’s dog filter. girls who paint and draw and sing. girls who like math and girls who bake. girls who are bad at history and girls who don’t understand science. girls who match their hijabs to their outfits, girls who get made fun of for their hijabs. girls with big, unapologetically natural hair and a loud, bold laugh. girls who people claim are not girls, but truly are. girls with dark body hair and girls with scars and girls with stretch marks that riddle their entire bodies. girls whose bodies don’t fit standards of ‘plus size beauty’, with sweatpants and cozy sweatshirts and mascara from the day before. girls who wear overalls and doodle about their plants. girls who wear leather jackets and chokers and listen to indie rock. girls who like today’s top 40 and girls who listen to 1960s psychedelic jams. girls with mood disorders and personality disorders and autistic girls and girls with learning disabilities. girls who are chronically ill, girls who use wheelchairs, girls who still find the light to keep them going day after day after day. girls who love girls and are proud, girls who love girls and are afraid. girls who like the moon, girls who like the sun, girls who stay inside and don’t care about either.

i love you. i love all of you.

In case no one’s told you lately:

  • You’re not a burden.
  • It’s okay to be struggling.
  • It’s okay to tell people you’re struggling.
  • Please tell people you’re struggling.
  • Don’t suffer in silence. Tell someone. Get help.
  • It’s okay to need help.
  • Please get yourself help.
  • You’re not the exception to recovery.
  • The world is more beautiful because you’re in it.
  • You’re worth it.
  • You’re a good person.
  • Thank you for existing.
  • You’re beautiful.
  • You’re not the exception to recovery.
  • Please stay alive.
  • If you’re looking for a sign not to kill yourself, this is it.
  • Please, stay alive.
  • People love you.
  • I love you.
  • Don’t give up.
  • You’re not the exception to recovery.
  • You’re not the exception to recovery.
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