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♓ The Pisces II period takes The Loner as its central image. According to The Grand Cycle of Life, in human terms this period relates to the time when a person reaches the majestic age of eighty. At this point, feelings of oneness with the nature of things but isolation from the world of man may arise. Many friends and perhaps a life partner have departed, leaving the octogenarian to carry on. This can be an extremely trying time both psychologically and physically–thus keeping positive about life may be difficult. Some now yearn for an easy end, but others may enjoy a final release from responsibilities of this world and thus experience a sense of renewed freedom. The days that comprise Pisces II symbolically reveal a person very advanced in years turning inward and pursuing purely internal goals in relative isolation. Thinking creatively and imaginatively, contemplating rewards or punishments in the afterlife and apprehending a heightened sense of beauty in the nature of things are all typical of this period.

{March 3 - 10} Those born during the Week of the Loner tend to live in a private world of their own. This is true not only internally but outwardly for their homes are often retreats from the world, places to which few are admitted. The healthier among them can give equal weight to their careers, on the one hand, and to their social and personal lives, on the other; less balanced individuals may choose to isolate themselves more than is good for them.

They generally have an instinctive dislike of superficiality. They mistrust loud, aggressive or pushy individuals and find it hard to work with colleagues who lack sensitivity. This is not to imply that they lack force or ambition. For them, however, the way a thing is done is often more important than what that thing is, and the end therefore rarely justifies the means. Grace, honesty and an unassailable aesthetic and moral code prevent them from acting underhandedly or, in particular, hurtfully. On the other hand, they may express their dislike of society’s mores through blatantly antisocial deeds, acting, as it were, in defense of their own right to individual expression. A certain elegance and grace are evident in most things they do, and they are finely attuned to many kinds of physical expression, whether it be sports, dance or more sensual forms of movement. They are great admirers of sensuous beauty, particularly in people and paintings, and their homes and surroundings generally show some kind of special touch.

They have a strong soulful side, apparent in their love of music and in their empathy for all forms of human suffering. They generally believe that life is not just there to be enjoyed, and that one must in some way pay one’s dues with a certain amount of suffering before obtaining any real benefit. Rarely will they escape at least one severe trauma in their lives, perhaps involving physical injury, disease or the untimely death of a parent or friend. They are often struck by such catastrophes without warning, but they are resilient and have an enormous capacity to bounce back from disaster. Like a cat, they are blessed with nine lives, at least a few of which they are sure to use up.

They see a distinct difference between being lonely (which they rarely are) and being alone (which they are often). Their own best companion, they are capable of spending hours and days alone with a good book, or with their work, without needing to talk to anyone. Their friends will know when they want to be left alone and when they want company, and will learn not to intrude on their privacy. In the workplace they do well as freelancers, operating outside the office, but if employed by a company or business they will probably need a certain amount of time each day for working on their own.

Dangerous areas for them include anything with a strong habituative or outright addictive quality—drugs, drink, sex. On the other hand, their ecstatic highs, spiritual insights and emotional joys can be incredibly intense and rewarding. They often crave peak experiences, which are not bad things in themselves as long as those who seek them can handle them without undue attachment. If they remain free to move on, such experiences will leave them greatly enriched in their personal development. On the other hand, should they be unfortunate enough to get hooked on their own personal suffering or self-pity, they may wallow in such states for alarmingly long periods of time.

Generally speaking, they ask only one thing from the world, and that is to be accepted as they really are. That the world often cannot grant their wish becomes the cross they bear. To comfort themselves, and to shield themselves from disappointment and rejection, they may surrender to the pursuit of money, or retreat to a fantasy-full interior life, often devoted to beauty and imagination. Whenever possible, they should follow occupations that make solid and grounding demands on them without depriving them of creativity. This kind of work will help them to stay on an even keel.

They usually have few friends, but those they have are often close and loyal. Many do not like large family gatherings or social events; intimacy is really their thing, and sharing intimacy with others, whether mates, friends, lovers or valued family members, is perhaps their most cherished activity. Highly personal interaction is their forte, and the sharing of joys and sorrows is essential to their happiness.

In love, perhaps because those born during the Week of the Loner have a greater ability to enjoy or appreciate such areas than others do, or perhaps their resistance to the lure of physical pleasure is lower; they are more prone than others to be snagged by a pretty face, sensuous voice or alluring body. Once attached to a person, their addiction to his or her company can be even more severe than their attraction to physical substances. They will run the gamut of painful emotions, from jealousy to hatred, yet if they decide they want to get free of their love object they will feel powerful separation anxiety. Friends and mates of a practical nature tend to bring them down to earth. Meanwhile, children will help them share their sense of wonder and awe at the natural world.

Strengths: Soulful, Intimate, Graceful Weaknesses: Reclusive, Disappointed, Suffering Planetary Ruler: Neptune Element: Water

- Gary Goldschneider