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Take me where love is needed
“I wish there was some kind of button that I could push and it would allow me to unlove you. It would make things easier for me. I wouldn’t have spontaneous moments where I think about you and want to die. It would make the process of moving on faster. I wouldn’t ever be hurt by you again even if we are no longer together. I’d be happy.But that’s the thing once you love someone, you can’t unlove them no matter how hard you try. When you love someone, they stick with you for the rest of your life. You will always have a space in my heart.”
“I didn’t realize just how important good friends are until I noticed I had nobody to turn to. Some left because they couldn’t take my problems anymore. Others got mad because I wanted to talk instead of listening to their stories again. A few of them couldn’t pass up one unimportant plan for one important friend. Why didn’t they stay like I did for every time they buried me with numerous rants and negative bullshit? Why is it that whenever I wanted to talk about my life, things suddenly didn’t matter? Why couldn’t they skip one dinner plan for a friend who was desperate for a little help? It didn’t matter how well I treated and cherished them because they never cared the same way I did. Today I learned that when it comes to friends quality matters so much fuckin more than quantity.”
It’s a terrible feeling, isn’t it? Missing someone. ‘Cause you begin to count days, hours, even minute. When before, you can be completely fine on your own, and then just like that, you realise you can be happier.
I think that’s just it. The fearlessness of falling in love for the very first time, the boundless trust you deal out, the ideals of happy ever after. I think you only experience all that once. Thereafter, you’re careful. You fear rejection, trust comes so much harder and happy ever after becomes only something you can hope for. I don’t ask to be your first love, how could I fight fate or time or circumstance. But what I ask is in spite of being careful, in me you find it in you to be fearless, trusting, and in me you find your happy ever after.
I used to think that as long as I had myself, I could take on anything in the world. Because people disappoint. And honest to God, I really didn’t need anymore of that. I didn’t want to count on anybody to see me through, because they were going to let me down anyway. All I had to do was muster all the strength I could possibly squeeze out of my tiny being and trudge on with life. But I think I’m losing myself and I’m not sure I’ll ever find me again.
I wonder how many people lose the only person in their life that will ever get their whole heart. I wonder how many people just let go because they think it will be easier. I wonder what it is like to have to move on, but knowing that you will always want him over anyone else. Well for all those people I have some advice: When you finally find him, when he makes you happier then anyone else, never let him slip away. Hold on with everything you got and fight till the very end. Because all your life you will have him in the back of your mind. Sure you’ll love again, but will it be the same? Never. Because he was the one.
Sometimes you just have to let people go. It has come to a point where it’s painful to hold on any longer, so you have to ask yourself. Is the pain worth it? And yes, sometimes it is.  But most of the time, it’s not.  You have to remind yourself that love shouldn’t be causing you so much pain because love is pure. It’s people who ruins it for others. So keep telling yourself that until you believe it.

a person who let go (via themoonchildblr)

When I talk to you, I feel like a whole different person. I can be myself. I’m more confident. Talking to you makes my day a million times better. Getting to know you is great. Knowing that you like to talk to me too is the best feeling.

talking // excerpt from a book I’ll never write #22 (via badassmccxns)